I can't believe it's been 15 years since my son has grown up to be a handsome and smart kid, but unfortunately he has a handsome face, but unfortunately his facial expressions are always flat and his cold attitude doesn't match his handsome face.

When he was little he was a cheerful child, always telling stories with his slurred scribbles, since entering early childhood he told me he had a new friend, told about his lessons.

Until almost one year of school he sometimes cried when he came home from school, sometimes his clothes were wet with syrup or the buttons of his school shirt were loose. One day I picked him up from school early and it turned out that my son was being bullied by his friends.

It hurts, it really hurts to see my child being bullied in front of my eyes, I want to scold the children who bullied my child but not to the heart.

I went to my son who was just silent and crying, and when the children who bullied my son saw me they immediately ran away.

Hm basic children "I thought

When I arrived in front of my son he immediately cried loudly and hugged me, I took him to the teacher's room and conveyed my complaint and will transfer my son's school if this continues. But the teacher promised that this would not happen again, he said.

And after that incident, I rarely see my child cry, I'm very grateful for that.

But unfortunately after that incident my son became quiet, in the morning at school, when he comes home from school, he stays at home, in the afternoon he recites the Koran, returns from the mosque after Isha has dinner, after watching TV or if there is homework to do homework and then sleep, and so on until now, rarely I see my son playing with his friends or bringing his friends home like other teenagers in general.

Sometimes I worry about my quiet and cold son because he doesn't have any friends, but I'm also grateful that my son grows up to be a smart kid and always gets first place in school.

But even though my son always has a flat and cold expression, at least he always smiles at me.

It's really sad to see my son grow up like that, it's all my fault in the past, maybe if I could take care of myself more then everything wouldn't fall apart, far from my parents living alone on the street when I was in two, fortunately there are people who are kind enough to accommodate me .

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16 years ago

I just graduated from junior high school, I'm going with my friends, I don't know where my friends will take me, I asked my mother's permission by lying to go to the library with my friend, until finally I was allowed to go, and coincidentally my father was not at home , I can be a little free, because if there is a father at home, I am prohibited from going anywhere other than school, playing must also be my friend who is at home.

My father's job as a soldier made him strict with, and guarded me closely, I rarely saw him because he often served outside the city, and even now, my father was on duty outside the city.

My friends took me to the tea garden we came 11 people, after arriving at the tea garden we sat in the tea garden on the green grass of the garden.

We ate with our food which was prepared from home, what a pleasant atmosphere at that time.

After eating we took a walk in the tea garden and in the middle of the green expanse of the tea garden we heard a strange sound, with high fear and curiosity we approached the sound, after getting close the voice became clearer, after seeing where the voice came from I in shock a couple of humans are having sex, in the afternoon tea garden.

Like realizing that we were caught in the middle of a pair of people who were having a relationship looking at us, we were running fast, my hand was pulled by someone I don't know. I didn't pay attention. Because my mind right now just wants to stay away from that perverted couple.

After feeling far away I stopped my run.

"why" asked the person who pulled me ah it turns out he's Rio budget

"Captain" I said.

"Okay, take a break" said Rio

"Eh, my friends, where are we going to separate?" I said panicking at that time.

"It's okay, I already know this garden by heart," said Rio

"But..." I was cut off by Rio

"It's okay to sit first, I'll take you home," Rio said calming me down.

I sit on Rio's side I'm really scared especially Rio who I feel keeps watching me makes me uncomfortable, I shift my seat away from Rio but Rio comes back closer, I stand up intending to run but Rio holds my hand, I try to brain but Rio pushes I don't know why Rio became like that he who is famous for being good why is he like this, is it because he saw the adult scene earlier that he lusted after me.

There's nothing I can do but cry for my fate, my brain is already weak, it's clear that I'm losing power with Rio, especially since he's being influenced by lust.

After that he apologized to me, but I just kept quiet even though he apologized a thousand times everything would not return the precious things in my life, Rio fixed my clothes and took me home to my gate he put me down from his motorbike, asking sorry again and just walk away.

Rio thinks you've ruined my future, ruined my dream, I hate you Rio budgeted" I screamed in my heart

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After a month of that incident, I often vomited in the morning and sometimes felt dizzy, my mother often asked me to go to the doctor, but I always refused, I always said I was fine.

Until the first day of high school I was ready to leave early in the morning because it was the first day of MOS (school orientation period), as usual early in the morning my mother would forbid me to go to school, but I said I was fine, and indeed I'm fine if it's noon only in the morning I often vomit and have a headache, after convincing my mother I'm fine I go to school.

Maybe because MOs became more new students in the field it made my head spin, but I forced myself to continue. Until when I got home, I was picked up by my mother while on my way home. I asked my mother to stop the car on the side of the road, I went down and threw up on the side of the road, my mother also went down to help massage my nape. When finished, mother gave me bottled water. I wanted to stand with my mother's help but I don't even remember anymore after that I only heard the faint voice of my mother calling my name.

I realized immediately that the smell of medicine came into my nostrils, I saw an all-white room and beside me there was a mother waiting for me with swollen eyes like she had been crying.

After my impus fluid ran out, my mother took me home after stopping at the pharmacy for a while, from the hospital to my mother's house, she didn't talk to me for some reason.

When I got home, it turned out that there was a father. Ah, there was a little happiness that slipped into the depths of my heart, seeing that there was a father at home. It's only natural that I haven't seen my father for over a year, because my father's duty as a civil servant makes me rarely see him.

I hugged my father with feelings of emotion, it was happy to meet the people we love after a long time.

"Dad when are you coming home?" I said

"just now" said dad

"Yes, you take a shower first, it smells bad," said the father, covering his nose with his hand.

I pouted but still obeyed, I went to my room after saying goodbye to my mother who was still silent.

Usually mom is fussy especially now that dad has just come home, and the three of us always hug, when dad comes home, but not today, for some reason mom is quiet.

After taking a shower I went out of the room, met my parents who were in the family room sitting on the sofa.

What's going on?" I thought when I saw father who was clenching his jaw, with a red face and clenched hands, as if he was holding back anger, and mother who was crying. I don't know what to cry about.

"Father, mother, why?" I asked them.

Dad stood up and came over to me and

Plaque

Father slapped me, this is the first time he has slapped me in my whole life, if I made a mistake he would just scold me.

What did I do wrong to make my father so angry that he raised his hand to slap me.

"Dad!" shouted the mother.

"Shut up" dad snapped at mom.

I just kept quiet and cried and wondered in my mind, why can dad be this angry with me, even though we just hugged each other to channel our longing because we haven't seen each other for a long time.

"I don't know what mistakes I made in the past to have a child like you, I don't know how lucky it is, pregnant out of wedlock, even at your age, only sixteen years old," said my father, looking at me angrily.

"Pregnant" I said quietly

My mother came up to me and took me into her arms while tearing up.

"Yeah, dad took great care of you, dad's little daughter, whom I'm always proud of, turned out to have tarnished the good name of Adelio's family, that's why I ordered Adelia, daughter, to leave my house right now."

"dad" said mom

Shock really, I'm confused where should I go if I leave this house, the house where I grew up with the love of my mother and the firmness of my father.

Mother still begs me not to be kicked out of the house, but father is still father, and his orders must be obeyed,

I went to my room on the second floor, packed my clothes, with sobs and tears running down my face, I didn't bring many clothes, just enough for my school bag, mother came to my room and gave me a piece of paper and one hundred thousand one rubber tie.

"This is your aunt's address in Bandung, come there, don't go anywhere, so that after your father wakes up, and regrets having kicked his beautiful daughter away, we will immediately pick you up, keep this money in your bag with your clothes and piggy bank, just leave a little for your needs on the trip, keep it in your small bag, wait for mom to pick you up as soon as possible "said mother

"yes mom" i said

"Take care of your health, take care of your future granddaughter too," said while stroking my stomach, I knew there was sadness from mother's words. I was also surprised why dad said I was pregnant or because of what Rio did to me in the tea garden, so I could get pregnant.

"yes mom" I said

"Who is the man who did that to you, Adel? Mother will find him and marry you off," asked Mother.

"No mom, I don't want mom and dad to be embarrassed, and people will ask questions, why did I get married at a young age, just let me go mom," I said to mom.

"Mother doesn't want you to go, but father's orders can't be denied either, man where will take you to the bus terminal, you be careful, okay?" said the mother

"Yes" I said, mother hugged me tightly as if she didn't want to be separated, as well as I hugged her back no less tightly.

"Mom will pick you up soon" Mom said while kissing the top of my head.

Mom took me until I got in the car, actually mom wanted to come with me but dad pulled his hand into the house. I looked at my parents' house, the house where I grew up with the love of mother and father.

Leaving behind a million beautiful memories that I've been through there with my parents.

And go leave shame for my parents.

I'm sorry mom and dad have embarrassed you because of my mistakes, if I could take care of myself, maybe things wouldn't be like this, I love you. See you again at a later date. I thought as I looked at my parents' house which slowly disappeared into the distance.

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After Mang Diman took me to the bus terminal, took me to the bus I was going to take, Mang Diman was still waiting for me until the bus took me away.

At 4 pm I departed from Jakarta city.

arrived in bandung almost seven o'clock at night, seen a lot of thugs around the terminal made me scared. I saw my aunt's home address, I exhaled my tired breath, somehow my fate this time, it was late at night I was confused about where to go, I didn't know this terminal because this was my first time out of town without my parents.

I stepped my feet towards a more crowded place, with fear that enveloped me.

This is the first time I'm out of town by myself on a dark day, luckily the terminal gangster doesn't seem interested in me, thank God.

I walked aimlessly, until my steps stopped when I found many street vendors lined up neatly in front of me with their grobaks, many traders selling fried rice, meatballs, batagor, and many more.

Seeing it all made my stomach growl, a sign of worms in my stomach asking for food.

I walked over to one of the vendors, sitting on a plastic bench near the grobak. There was a middle-aged couple who also seemed to be waiting for their orders.

"Bang the meatball is one" I said to the merchant.

"Yes, sir, mix it up," said the meatball seller.

"yes bro" i said

"Wait a minute, bro," said the meatball seller.

"Yes bro" I said.

"Where are you going, neng?" said the middle-aged mother who was also waiting for her meatball order.

I didn't answer right away, talking to strangers scared me, if I didn't answer, I would definitely be considered arrogant.

I sighed and replied "going to my aunt's house" I said, looking down. Sad, of course considering today's events.

"Just go alone," said the fathers who were with the mother. It looks like they are husband and wife.

Before I had time to answer the meatball vendor came with the bowl of meatballs, I thanked him after the meatball seller kept his meatballs in front of me.

I eat voraciously, despite the many problems I face, but for some reason my stomach can't be compromised.

After eating the mother again asked,

"What's your name?" said the mother.

"Princess ma'am" I said, I looked down talking too long with strangers made me scared but seeing the smile of mom and dad made me calm down a bit.

"My mother's name is siti and this is my father's father," said my mother, smiling awkwardly at her.

"You want to go to your aunt's house, if you may know the address, who knows we can help deliver" said the pious father, who I just found out his name from the mother earlier.

"Yes, sir, for a moment," I said, opening a small bag containing a cellphone and pocket money like what my mother said at home before I left.

I dug through the contents of my small bag, but I couldn't find a small piece of paper with my aunt's home address on it, I took the stuff out but I still couldn't find the paper I was working on.

I couldn't hold back my sobs, my mind was frantic, I don't know where to look for the paper.

Mrs. siti came closer to me and hugged me, it calmed me enough, she asked me where was the last time I saw the paper, I said it was at the terminal.

We went back to the bus terminal looking for the paper containing my aunt's home address, but after almost an hour we searched for the small paper, we couldn't find it either.

I sat on the side of the road hugging my knees confused where to go, I cried in the darkness of the night, the noise of the vehicles that were still linked, and a middle-aged couple who accompanied me from earlier.

I don't know where else to go, I'm tired of traveling long distances, coupled with various problems today, I'm covered in mixed feelings of sadness, destruction, anger at Rio who has made my life a mess like this, if only I didn't go with them and didn't lie to them. Mother, maybe things weren't like this, if and if that was all I could think about, useless regrets because all that had happened.

Mrs. siti invited me to come with her to her house, I didn't refuse because I was very tired, somehow my fate, come with them in case they are bad people, I don't care I'm sixteen years old but I'm pregnant out of wedlock again. All the ideals that I had imagined would come true, and all had to be crushed before I took a step, now I surrender to this situation.

It was true that Mrs. Siti and her husband took me to their house, a simple house with white paint. I was in Mrs. Siti's place in her daughter's room, who said she was studying in Jakarta. I cleaned myself in the bathroom near the kitchen, because that was the only bathroom in the house. I came out of the bathroom complete with my nightgown which I brought to the bathroom.

I passed by Mrs. Siti, who was in sofa watching TV. She offered me a meal. Obviously, I refused because I was still full because I had eaten meatballs.

Eh, I think I forgot something, I forgot to pay for the meatballs, maybe Mr. Soleh paid for my meatballs, I went into the room cursing my stupidity, because I forgot to pay for the meatballs, because I was too panicked, I laid my body on the bed which only fit this one person, maybe tomorrow I'll change the money for the meatballs, and tomorrow I'll look for a rent so it won't be too much trouble for the middle-aged couple.

I saw this room, Rock posters, guitar hanging on the wall, wardrobe, study table, complete with books that were ordered to meet, a boy's room. I close my eyes to recover strength for tomorrow, I can't just give up, I have to be passionate about life, moreover there is a small creature growing in my stomach.

I rubbed my stomach.

Mama will take care of you son even though we will only live together. say me,

And finally I fell asleep, starting an adventure in dreamland.

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