Lying in the lap of her classmate. In the middle of playground, under the old mahogany tree where many dried leaves have falling from time to time. Two girls in school uniform rested underneath.

"Don't you want to go home? It's getting late."

taking photos of the scenes. Marjorie let Jeya lie in her lap for more minutes while zooming in and out her Mpeg4 camera. Marjorie has a slight gothic-like make up while Jeya doesn't need anymore of emo-like attire to show how emotional she was. No, not emotional anymore. She was not looking emotional but looking empty now.

Marjorie knew Jeya since freshman, Jeya used to be a happy go lucky student girl. She was active and a loving classmate, everyone thinks highly of her, she is intelligent and even most of their teachers favor her. But suddenly, her close friend in school,Jason, died from a heart failure, then she change little by little.

She become uninterested with her studies, with her higher grades, with school activities, even with funny random things that she usually does before. She is like a drying beautiful flower now, all her colors have stolen the bad weather.

"Do you think we will still be in the same class next month?" Marjorie asked Jeya.

Their last grading period is ending. Every Last week of March, Now is their last days to be together. Some students were emotional because they might be separated again from their newly make friends for the school year. Some aren't bothered because they were more excited that they can gain another friends next school year. And some others are like Jeya, who doesn't care, for they believe in 'the less you care, the less you will be hurt.'

"Maybe.." standing up dusting her skirt. Jeya then help Marjorie stand up.

They both go on their separate transportation services, Marjorie lives near the school so she got home earlier than her.

Jeya got home late but no one scolded her, She was always this late to go home. Aside from asking why was she late, they won't bother her anymore, It's either they trusted her or they didn't care.

She ate without changing her clothes then she go straight to her room to change and sat. She opened her messenger account then opened random messages from random friends. It was late but it was still early for her to sleep.

She was bored to death.

She received a text from her friend and got up to go outside the house and meet them,

Her friend just lives nearby, She saw two young man and her two girl friends outside their house. Sitting on the garden with no lights on.

"Jeya, my boyfriend is here, look he is that tall man behind me." said the beautiful lady in front of her. She was excited while saying this to her.

"Is he?" 'jeya said.

"Yes, isn't he so handsome?" Mae ask her.

Jeya took a glimpse at the young boyfriend, He was tall, fair skinned, thin red lips, and playful chinky eyes. He looks like a playboy.

"Indeed."

"Hey," the other one of her friends greet her.

"Hey," Jeya responded. "Oh well, I need to go. My mom just wanted me to buy some soy sauce in the store."

"Owkey." she said prettily with a slang.

Jeya then waved goodbye to them. She sigh. They texted her to come join them just to...

just to show off. She sigh again, It's a waste of time to be the fifth wheel of the two loving couples so she just made up a ridiculous excuse to them.

This two friend of hers are a little girly or a little princess-like attitude. Jeya has so many circles of friends but she didn't always attend every party with them except with her best friends, the Jucies, with a group of fourteen girls with different personalities joined together.

This two aren't from the Jucies, they are more mature on thinking and ways, they say. They are her close friends, when she wanted to pass her boring life she will always check on them.

Another week had passed then,

Then suddenly.

'0935 143 1434- Julian'

Jeya received a business card from Mae thru texting.

"Please text him, I wanted to know, what he would say to you. I gave him your number. please." the next message she received from Mae, She was really a bossy, she like to boss around but Jeya can't help but just let her be,

It's not a big deal to her tho.

"Hi!"message from Julian.

"Hi there" She responded.

"I'm Julian."

"I'm Jeya."

"Do you have a boyfriend?"

"I'm single."

"Great, can i woo you?'

"No sorry"

"Why?"

Jeya didn't respond anymore.

"What did he say?" Mae asked.

"He wanted to woo me." she bluntly replied.

"Oh,? don't text him anymore, thank you" Mae said.

"Ok" she dryly replied. 'What a man, well not a man enough.'

"Jeya."

"how are you?"

The other one still texted her even though Jeya didn't replied to him anymore and she already change her sim for the fifth times, but he always ended up getting her contact number.

She didn't have the beauty that could cause the whole country to fall but she had a gift or rather a cursed body, She was seductively sexy with whatever she will wear, ragged, fashionista, boyish, emo or nerd, she was still alluring to look at and that had annoyed her.

How will she know if someone will love her for who she was and not what body she had.

Another night they texted her again, this time there's no boyfriends around. She goes to them, it was a boring vacation at all.

"They said he was a player, he was a disappointment." Mae said in a mad like sad like tone.

"Do you want me to take revenge for you?" Jeya ask.

"No need, and Don't." she coldly said.

"Okay." Jeya nodded.

The other days at night again.

Jeya showed up to their friend house, Now it's with those two young man again but Mae was nowhere to be found there.

"Where is Mae,Kim?" Jeya asked. She looked at those familiar faces of a man. "He is?" Jeya ask Kim, why is Julian still there, he is still welcome and she is still meeting them.

Isn't they supposed to be mad also because of what he did to their friend?. Confused she didn't talk to him and ignored. 'He need to suffer a losses too' Jeya pitied more Mae now, How can a princess-like attitude of her friend can not be grieved with this.? She was like stepped on and Jeya wanted to let him taste the same.

"Hi,Jeya. why didn't you replied to my messages?" Julian asked her straightforwardly.

"I changed my sim already didn't you know?" she replied,pretending that there is nothing wrong about changing her sim everytime she wanted to.

"Then, what is your answer?" Julian ask her straight to the point. He was impatient when wooing a woman. It's like he never pursue anyone before. And He seems in a hurry to get her answer.

"Hmn? what was your question?" Jeya ask him pretending that she was unclear and thinking what she should do.

There are two benches outside Kim's house. One is occupied with Kim and her boyfriend, The other is with Julian. Jeya sit beside him like an obedient girl.

Julian see her through. 'Pretentious huh?' He lean closer to her and pleaded. "Please" he whispered to her ears.

Jeya is only 14 years old but she already know what's going on. 'This is boring' she felt.

Having a boyfriend that was her friend exboyfriend? is a no no to her. But she thought of Mae again. She smiled at him and said "Okay."

Julian then grin.He smiled at her then bite her ear slightly. The mark got red but she didn't blushed. Anyway she was still shy she and become speechless.

Jeya felt the biting but like an empty shell she was,she didn't mind it. What's more is she had experience more harassing touch before.

Back when she was still in elementary,an old pervert school teacher pinch her skin maliciously. When she played in a public video games, some phedophile lean their ***** behind her back while she was still sitting playing a game. She wanted to figth them back back then but she was still a kid. She is afraid of telling her mother thinking she will be implicated.

One day, their elementary teacher gave them an assignment of creating their own diary. She wrote what happened to her and her mother secretly read it.

"Avoiding them is the best you could do, Stay as far as you can go to a man." her mother adviced her.

So she didn't trust any man, even her father, or brothers and classmates.But one day,she realized that her close friend in their classroom is also a man who is seven years older than to them. He was her late close friend, Jason.

Jason live in a squatters area of Lakebottom town. Although he was seven years older and taller than his classmates, It was not obvious with his looks. He was just an average looking but he doesn't look older than them. He was funny, joker, kind and diligent in school and because he was tall,he was always seated at the back with Jeya. They will play, study and eat snacks together. Finally, graduated in elementary.

They have enrolled in S university for highschool. By fate, they became classmates again, with 30 sections in their freshman level and every section has 50 students, it was just a luck they been together again.

Things are still beautiful for Jeya. Days are still colorful even her body is prone to dangers and to ill intented people. She still stayed positive because of her positive schooling.

Go for positions of officer in the class! Go for higher grades! Go for activities! Go for new friends!. And because her school got many times bigger than their previous school. She like to explore more places there. She likes to walk around the corridor of freshmans, sophomores,juniors and seniors during breaktimes so she didn't have more time to spend with Jason.

Jason was still kind to her, wait for her to walk and ride home together. He invited her always for a lunch but sometimes Jeya still like to go to explore others canteen. The school has so many places to discover that she can't help but walk always around. She thought it was a never ending beautiful dream until.

"Please eat with me today.I'll tell you something." Jason invited Jeya to eat their lunch on the same table in the school canteen.

"Okay, just wait for me there." Jeya nodded but she strolled around the corridor of the Junior's Laboratory while eating sandwiches. She looked inside from the window and saw how neat the Laboratory was and day dreaming again on how it feels to do some experiments there. The corridor was empty but suddenly, one by one, students from juniors appeared.

"Hey" a girly student approach her. "Do you have company?" she asked her in a friendly manner. She's wearing the same uniform but fitter and sexier than her.

"I.. what company?" Jeya got confused.

"Come, I'll introduce you to meet them." the girly then introduce her group of friends. They are all students with different school level.

"Hi. I'm Jeya from freshmen" Jeya smiled to them. Some smiled back. Some grin. Some just ignored her and some greeted her back.

"We are RED. If you wanted our company. Just meet me here on Monday." the girly said.

"I.. I must go. I'll be late. Thank you." Jeya take a long stride to walk back. Some of them looks dangerous so she wanted to go as far as she can go.

She saw Jason entering their room. 'Oh, I forgot.' "Hey Jason, Sorry I forgot." she said.

"It's okay. Let's just talk later."

Later their class ended at 3pm. It was friday so there will be no classes tomorrow.

Outside their room, she was about to leave thee school with him when Jason told her something, "I will not be present on Monday tomorrow. I'll withdraw the savings I have from my friends and treat you on Tuesday so we could eat together, be good and take care of our classmates on Monday, I'll count on you,my secretary."

"Okay, get all the rest that you have to on monday, I'll take care of them,President." she answered. She was about to follow him when a girl and a boy from junior level came for him.

"I will accompany my friends today, did you forgot?" he said.

The two juniors wave at her "Hi."

Jeya smiled at them. "I forgot. I'm sorry." thinking back when did he said that to her but she still can't remember.

"You're neglecting me these past few days, your close friend." Jason patted her shoulder then left with his junior friends.

"I'm sorry, I will make it up to you! Take care!" Jeya felt guilty for taking him for granted.

She look for someone she know to be her company on walking on her way home.

Weekend passed so quickly. Then, Monday came. Another class, another adventure for Jeya. She walk inside the school gates happily.

One of her classmate approach her, "Hey good morning! where is Jason?"

"Good morning! He will take a rest today, He will not attend our class today. Don't tell it to others, especially to our teachers." Jeya answered joyfully. It also means she could explore the school without being guilty of neglecting him.

"Oh, that's why. I thought what our classmates are saying are true. They're so mean." the girl said and she walk together with Jeya.

"What do they say?" Jeya was asking her,Alice, in what about they are saying to her close friend, Jason behind his back.

"It's nothing." Alice walk with her to their first subject room.

"Alice, Jeya, do you know what happened to Jason? they say he died yesterday." One of their classmate approach and told them.

"He's recovering, I'm his doctor you know, I am great with my patients." Jeya was just kidding their classmate, she didn't want to mess her mondays so she just joke about it. 'They misunderstood his absence' she thought.

"His friends from junior year came with his death certificate to our adviser." the boy said.

"...." Jeya become silent but then she continued her steps slowly 'maybe it was his excuse letter'.

"Don't joke like that. It's not funny!" Alice scolded their classmate. "It's not early anymore why you're still here spreading fake news?" she harrumphed and follow Jeya to their designated room.

"What time is it? Why are they still here?" Jeya saw her classmates still dilly dallying around outside their subject room.

"Why are you still outside? Is our teacher was absent today?" Alice rush to the room and there is no one, Their Music And Art Teacher was absent.

Another girl who was sobbing approach Jeya. holding both her arms "Jeya don't be shock" she said.

Jeya got all her doubts connected inside her head, like someone on her head saying he is really dead, he died yesterday. "No" Jeya step back, some tears had fallen from her eyes. "No, It's not true" she shake her head.

"His friends and neighbor showed his death certificate to our teachers." the girl still sobbing while speaking.

"Jeya, let's go confirm it." Another girl classmate took pity of her. She knows Jeya and Jason are close friends. "Let's go to our adviser teacher."

"Hmn" she nodded. "He told me he won't be present today because he will rest today." she said trying to fake a smile. "haha I will report this fake news to our adviser."

Jeya and the other girl finally arrived at their homeroom. Their adviser, Mrs.Gu, was teaching her students.

"Teacher." Looking inside their window expecting even just only her to notice them but even the whole class was disturb. They all look at them.

Mrs.Gu saw her two students waiting outside so she excuse herself and saw Jeya's teary eyes. 'They already know and maybe they are asking' she thought. "We lost one of us" she calmly said to them. She clench her hands trying to control her emotions. She can't be too extreme with her feelings, because she is also having difficulty with heart disease.

Jeya step back and felt her legs got lumped on the ground. Tears keep flowing. Everything become so blurr and silent. She covered her face with her hands and embrace all of her emotions . She didn't know what will happen next , what will happen to them , what will happen to her without him.

It's already 3:00 p.m. when she notice that she was still in school and they are inside the second to the last subject room. She didn't know she was crying all day and she didn't hear what all the teachers have taught them during the class hours .

The teachers let her be because they know how close Jason to her. She was crying like she's guilty , guilty of being a bad friend , guilty of neglecting him , guilty of being a selfish and guilty of not being by his side when he needed her help or her presence.

Everything become so dark now, everything become so bland and there's nothing really matters to her now.

Despite being empty she made a promise to herself that she will cherish everyone of her friends or loveones who are with her and still alive. She will never be so selfish again.

She would die for her friends or

She would take revenge for her friends.

"What type of woman do you like?" Jeya ask Julian while he was still teasing her ears.

"I like your type." he answered her. He wanted to kiss her but she look away. 'Fine , not today'. he thought to himself.

"My type." ridiculous. She thought. 'You don't deserve anything from me. You don't also deserve any attention from Mae.'

More days had passed by and the summer vacation is about to end.

"Eat your lunch" Julian chatted Jeya.

"Okay,Eat yours too." Jeya replied.

"K" he dryly responded.

Their relationship become a frozen one. It's like a losing boring game. They we're secretive with each others even they we're in a relationship. They didn't met their parents so they we're like unofficially couple and they will only meet on Saturdays in Kim's house.

One night, Jeya goes to Kim's house to kill the time and surprisingly, Mae appeared.

"Hi." Jeya greeted them and Mae got speechless.

Mae looked like she wanted to tell something to her but she didn't know what or when to start. Jeya see through her expressions.

"Come sit with me." Jeya invited her to sit with her on the bench. "Tell me what you wanted to say, I'm won't be mad and I wish you are not too." Jeya said. She rarely explain herself but if explanations was needed, she won't mind to say few words.

"I know what you are planning" Mae said but she still doubting her thoughts. "You are trying to take revenge for me,right?" Mae said. "You wanted him to like you then dump him right?"

She was slightly nervous.

"You are right." Jeya look away. She told her before but rejected her plan. She can't stand it. Mae still like him, if she doesn't why would she still care about him.

Mae got a little better. "You mustn't! You just have to ignore him, It doesn't matter to me anymore. They told me secrets about him. He was a playboy, he forced many girls to his bed. And he was a member of a well known fraternity, BETA" Mae got a little nagger after she felt better. She hugged Jeya. "You should stop chatting him. Okay?"

"Okay." Jeya said. She wanted to say that she was already about to stop because she felt her plan is about to fail. He was not really interested in her. Her seductive body doesn't put him on frenzy whenever they met. He only kissed her ears or lips. And they felt no lust and no sparks. She was like being just a pet or just a kid he was taking care of.

Mae was so happy. She felt like that her brokenheart was reconstructed again.

Jeya can feel her happiness. She wanted to feel again some too. It was real and genuine. She doesn't know if it was because she admitted that she doesn't like Julian or because she still like Julian and she was not her rival, but whichever, she felt happy seeing her happy again.

Two Days had passed Jeya didn't recieve any chat from Julian. It was strange but it was fine but.

"Sweetheart" Julian chat pop up to her phone screen.