I am Xiao fan, this will the beginning of my gloomy carrier in a streaming platform.

I still remember the day when i left my home and started living by myself, It was two years ago when I left my home, why i remember because it was the happiest day of my life and from that day my career started.

2 years ago...

I have done it, I'm finally free from my demon family it was tiring still I've manage(tears of happiness) now my first priority is find a place to stay, for now I have only money to cover three months of my rent and food gotta find a cheap place to stay.

After running to few places, finally found a cheap apartment to stay with this much of rent i can easily live for four months, now time to meet the owner of apartment, it's gonna be tiring because I'm not good at speaking to other people (thanks to my rotten family i got gloomy personality).

I meet the owner and when I saw him I can only think of one thing, "he is my complete opposite", why I am saying because i can see that he is type of bright and optimistic guy and here I am gloomy looking with a face say that you are the definition of depression.

When owner saw me he said\, I've never seen a gloomy person like you with*giggles*\, I realized and think "wow and he is honest too"\, then he change the topic and said I gonna explain rules to you\, there's only few rule there shouldn't any damage to wall or any place and don't cause any trouble to neighbor at night like creating laud noise and then he stopped and there was awkward silence there.

I asked "that's it?" he replied "yeah that's all and you can do whatever you" with smirk.

I don't care whom you bring at my home unless you cause any trouble said with smirk. I thinked (stop that smirk damn it it's not like I know anyone) and make a bit annoyed face then he noticed it and said "I was kidding" then I handed over the money and he left.

I was carrying a two suitcase not much big, one them was filled with clothes and other one has only CPU and mini speakers, where was desktop? you asked it was broken by my father saying it was mistake ( you guessed right it was intentional) well now I started to set things up like clothes in wardrobe yeah there was wardrobe and bed was available so it was best option and it was on seventh floor so view was quite nice. after that much of hassle I take a break it was afternoon so I had a lunch instant noodles yeah I know it's not proper lunch but I was at my limit to do things. After that I sleep like a log.

At Evening I woke up around 6 and said "is this after life?"\, yeah I was still half-asleep\, and bored so decided to go to store and purchased a desktop it was in budget and there was discount too and then i left for a good internet provider and purchase the best plan of course with a reasonable amount *laugh in despair* then reached home.

It was still hour left for internet service to activate. I brought grocery with me that can last long a month and decide to cook myself. yeah I may not look like but I can actually cook pretty good.

After making dinner internet service started and it will plan for 6 months so it was pretty good. I started browsing online and watched my favorite show eating my dinner and fall asleep. After a day I had already decided my goals to earn and live a harmonious and sluggish life.

After I woke up I was ready to work so first I freshen up and then go out in search of job, after 2-3 hours later finally found a job suitable for me and that was to working at a counter in grocery shop, what you expect I haven't completed my diploma and dropout from middle, well anyway I pay was not reasonable so I was fine with it. I had to work with a person whose position to arrange the food supply he and he was friendly nature he showed me what to do and I feel like "yeah maybe I can make him friend". He's name is Ryota and he said to call me Ryu, isn't it fast to call by nickname well whatever.

After six my job ends and another work who is girl take my place but she didn't come after ten minutes so I was bit annoyed Ryu noticed and said you can leave if you want that girl always come late so I can handle till she comes and "I was like is it okay with you?" he said it's fine I can handle and when I Returned to home and said "sure the day was long."

Took a Nap for an hour...

After woke up, washed my face and start cooking for dinner same as usual and tired so I searched online a game to relive some stress and there was a popular mmorpg so I download it and created account my first impression was "wow the graphics were attractive and after tutorial it was awesome game for me" and played game till midnight and sleep.

This cycle repeated for ten days...

I was frustrated that I cannot clear a certain quest in game and search online there were many video and there were many streamer that were streaming online and I realized I played game for short amount of time and still catch up to most of the player.

Next day,

I was headed to shop and as usual Ryu was ahead of time we worked together and I noticed Ryu was watching a streamer who was streaming same game and I said "I was playing this game last night" he was like "you play this game too?" and I said "Yeah and I'm on diamond rank" and he was shocked and said "I'm only on warrior rank" and I changed the subject saying "wanna play with me tonight?"(I'm talking about game) and he was like yeah you could help me a bit and we exchange our id and surprisingly the girl came a bit early and we exchange our name her name was Izumi and then Ryu and I leaved early a bit and he was like "wanna go to nearby WC we are nearby?" I had pretty much left so we headed there...

It was almost evening so\, I ordered a heavy meal and decided to skip dinner and Ryu did the same and during that he asked "what do you think of Izumi?"(I know what he meant but) And I said she ain't type of punctual person he laugh and said "that you what think of her" and I said "I know what you meant but I don't like her and not my type" and with curiosity he asked "what's your type then?" I replied "A person who wouldn't be bothered by my silence and we can stay in a room and  watch movie or eat together" and he said "you want Xiao but female version *giggle*?"\, Yeah you can put in that way.

We headed to café to refresh our self a bit....

Later at night, we played game together at café and I did pretty good, he was like you are like pro that in streamer then few matches later we part ways and I reached Home and think that maybe I should streaming (It's not like that Ryu praise me a bit for that reason but I want to see what could I do) I checked the parts of my computer and they were good enough I can stream at medium graphics and can play easily.

I created account and named the channel as "Gloomy Gamer", Yeah I only think of that and created a decent pfp and banner for channel and tried to start streaming and I realized that I don't have a proper mike or webcam to stream so I purchased cheap mike and decent webcam and streamed next.