"Miss Zi, nakarating na lahat ng supplies sa resto. The total amount na binayaran is 85k estimated 1-2 weeks stocks"

bumangon ako sa pagkakahiga dahil sa early call na to

"Then how about our income for this week, hindi pa na deposit yun" tanong ko

"I am planning to deposit it later Miss Zi because of the delivery so I needed to check it twice but the total amount of income for this week is 190k"

"okay then, I'll monitor the deposit later. I can't come there for now"

"Yes Miss"

pinatay ko na ang tawag at binuksan ang cabinet ko

I pick my moms jeans and a white tshirt maliligo na sana ako when two little cuties entered my room

"Mommy" kapwa nito sambit kaya kinarga ko ang mga ito papunta sa kama ko

my first born Arki sat down properly ngunit ang 5mins younger na twin brother nito na si Uwi ay diritsong nahiga.

I gave them kisses on their face

"It's so early pa mga anak look 6am palang why are you already awake?"

and yes twins nga sila

Uwi answer

"Arki said daddy will go home today so we gotta wake up early" sa edad nilang three years old ay matatas na ang mga dila nitong mag salita lalo na mag english.

"Daddy said that to me also" Arki na naka simangot pa

pinag lihi ko ba to sa sama ng loob?

the Uwi's face brighten up

"Daddy will buy us lots of toys!" they're really opposite.

"Uwi marami na kayong toys dyan anak"

sa totoo lang. parang may bodega na kami ng mga laruan.

"Daddy keeps on buying those mom we didn't tell him to" Arki

I poker face when I remember that Yes, my husband's hobby were to buy toys to our kids. ang rason naman niya minsan lang maging bata.

at first totol ako at nagagalit, as much as I want ayokong gumastos ng ang mamahal para sa laruan ng mga bata, I don't want them to act as spoiled but luckily my kids were not.

some of their toys actually I usually gave them to my niece and nephews or I donated it to the kids in the street.

"just be thankful to your dad Arki"

"oh sya, gising na ba ang lola niyo?" our house is just a two storey house in an hectare land. my mother and father actually have their own house on the side of our house pero usually they were here lalo na kapag wala si Jhiro.

Si mama ang tumatanaw tanaw sa mga anak ko.dahil nga minsan busy ako, I have this resto in the town. I started it two years ago dahil Jhiro doesn't want me to continue teaching dahil nga I am cs and it's really good kung ako mismo ang mag aalaga sa mga bata lalo na at minsan wala din siya.

aside from my mother may kasambahay kaming siyang taga bantay sa mga bata kapag wala ako and taga laba. actually mga twice a week Lang naman ako umaalis for business kaya need ko talaga ng taga bantay sa mga anak ko.thats manang Tona I pay here 10k a month dahil nga naglilinis din siya dito morning and afternoon naman aside from that wala na. Ako din naman ang nag luluto dito, minsan si papa na din.

"Mamala is drinking coffe mommy" Uwi said at umukbo ukbo sa higaan ko

"Be careful Uwi, you might step on your brother" Arki just look at his hyper brother.

"okay let's go down, kumain muna tayo. I thought ako lang ang susundo a, kasama pala kayo" bumungisngis naman ang bunso.

I actually don't bring them kapag nag susundo dah masyadong maaga. there time to get up is usually 7-7:30 yun naman talaga ang dapat for kids. nag si una na ang mga ito at pinayuhan kong huwag tatakbo.

we live in a two storey house away from houses actually. the only neighbor I have is my parents at ang bahay maliban sa kanila ay nasa 200meters pa yata. our house have four rooms lang. one for the master bedroom, yung isa naman sa kambal but they were usually shared a room to me kapag wala ang daddy nila. then the other one kay manang Tona then yung isa ginagamit nang kapatid kong si Liz kapag trip niyang sa bahay matulog wala naman kaming madalas na bisita dito.

the sala was a huge one parang nasa 100square meter ang have L sofa a big one at isang small sofa then a center table and the 80inch tv kasi madalas dyan talaga naka tambay ang lahat.

But my favorite spot was on the balcony, may duyan hanging plants and a wooden chair.

pagbaba namin ay nakita ko si mama na nagkakape habang nanonood ng tv kasama si papa.

"Ma, kumain na kayo?" tanong ko

"Hindi pa anak wala pang luto diyan"

tumango ako at dumiritso sa ref

nag labas ako nang isang pack ng hotdog at anim na itlog

tsaka nag luto, fried rice nalang din ang ginawa ko sa lamig na kanin at nag timpla ng dalawang gatas at isang kape.

"Arki, Uwi kumain na kayo" 6:30 na kaya nag kape nalang ako. Hindi na binibaby feed ang kambal siguro dahil less din ang pag baby namin sa kanila ngayon inu unti unti ko silang sanayin na maging independent sa mga kilos nila pero pinapa bantayan ko pa din kay manang Tona just in case.

nauna na akong maligo quick bath lang at sinuklay ang mahaba kong itim na buhok.

I'm 28, 5'2 in height maputi naman pero typical Filipina ang itsura ko.

It's just maybe a luck na naikasal ako sa kaniya.

Yea luck because of my twins.

Pagbaba ko ay nakabihis na pala ang kambal

"Ang bilis niyo namang natapos sa pag kain?"

they are wearing a shorts and long sleeve. kay Arki is Black then Uwi is wearing blue.

"we're ready mommy!"

"okay okay hurry up 7am na we'll be late for 7:30"

nasa 20mins pa naman ang byahe namin.

I drove Jhiro's SUV kasi toyota vios ang sasakyan but it was not tinted kaya kay Jhiro ang dinala ko kasi tinted

pagkatapos kong mailagay ang seatbelt sa dalawa sa likod ay pina andar ko na ang sasakyan ko

I first check my phone nakitang nag leave ng msg si Jhiro telling me naka alis na sila its 30mins ago

1hour lang naman ang byahe nila

I just drove

my kids at the back are singing and waving their hands habang pinapatugtug ko ang song which their father sang years ago

medyo na traffic kaya 40mins ang byahe namin

its already 8:30

Nag stop na ako sa parking lot nang airport at nakitang may isang text message.

I hurriedly call him

he answered

"Where are you? I'm waiting for almost half hour"

"I'm sorry, nasa parking lot na kami"

"kami?"

"Uh yea with the kids"

"why did you bring them Zi? Is it some tactics again?"

I'm shocked with his words but not really

"They want to see you Jhiro" mahinang saad ko.

narinig kong napamura siya sa kabilang linya

maya maya lang ay may nag bukas nang passenger seat, he's wearing all black and a cap and a face mask then a black jacket may dala din itong bag

"Daddy!!!" tili ng dalawa sa likod.

He looks like a killer a moment ago pero ng marining ang dalawa sa likod bigla itong ngumiti at tinanggal ang mask at glasses.

he gave the kids a kisses

"My boys were waiting for me here? did you miss me that much?"

"Yes!! Yes!!"

"Daddy the traffic was so heavy we so sorry daddy" Uwi said

"No, it's okay. are you two hungry?"

"not really dad we ate breakfast but mom didn't" Arki said and look at me worriedly

I shake my head

"No I'm not, how about we'll go home because mamala cook for us at home" tumango naman ang mga ito

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pag dating sa bahay ay naka hain na pala sa mesa ang kimchirice, Kimchi, porkchop, karekare, sinigang, adobo, bacon, and the noodle tapos may mga hiniwang prutas na din

Binati muna ni Jhiro ang mga magulang ko at nag sikain kami

"Dad, I brought you a pair of shoes from States I hope you'l like it, it will arrive later" sabi niya sa papa ko

"Naku Jhiro hindi ka na dapat nag abala hindi naman ako nag sasapatos na"

"we'll go for a hike this week sa laveda, good daw doon sabi ng friend ko private property kaya hindi matao"

"Mom, do you like the xxxjewel? I brought you a set from Italy"

"sa dami ng alahas na binibigay mo sakin naku ang gaganda lahat anak" sagot naman ni mama

He's so kind towards my family.

I just smile at them at inasikaso ang dalawang anak ko na pilit kumakain ng kimchi

Jhiro really loves this kaya siguro gusto din nilang e try.

nauna na si Jhirong pumasok sa kwarto at naligo ako naman ay pumunta muna sa may bintana

tuwing nandito siya ang hirap huminga.

"I'm going back after two weeks"

"No, there's no need, wala namang masyadong gagawin dito"

"I just have to spend some time with the kids balik naman ako agad"

"New years show? okay I got it"

I heard him talking to the phone

It's 12noon

mainit pero air-conditioner naman ang room isinara ko ang bintana dahil baka magalit siya.

I look at him

naka pajama ito at sando

"You'll go back after two weeks?" tanong ko

his small eyes met mine.

medyo walang buhay, at mataman lang akong tiningnan wariy iniisip na bakit ako ang napakasalan niya.

"ayea work"

then nahiga siya sa kama habang nakatingin sa cellphone niya.

"two weeks, it will be December 24 and you'll go back? akala ko dito ka for Christmas?"

"what will I do? may show kami"

I'm amaze dahil tuwid na itong mag tagalog.

yea, he's a star I forgot

the famous band in korea, the main vocalist is my husband

but no one knows about that.

just me my family and his members and management.

"The kids will be sad about that" sabi ko

"Don't use the kids, Zi. let's be matured enough. I'm doing this for the kids Future"

hah! kahit nga hindi na ito mag trabaho buong buhay niya ay pwwdeng pweden sa bilyon na pera nito.

"They are growing, they need you here"

he throw his phone on the side

I bit my lip for that.

he's so angelic but have an anger issues... towards me

" I married you isn't that enough already!?"

"I didn't asked you to marry me" Sagot ko dito

"really? are you telling me you don't have any fault here!? I'm going to this house as much as I can because of the kids but if it's weren't on the kids I will not step my foot here!" tsaka ito lumabas sa kwarto.

I close my eyes and begin to cry.

ayaw ko din namang nandito siya but for the kids I really ignore the fact na napipilitan lang ito at puro pakitang tao ang lahat. For my kids.

wala naman akong ginawang mali, I was a victim too!

hindi ko kasalanan na nabuntis niya ako, hindi ko kasalanan na kinailangan niya akong pakasalan.

I-I also have my own life before.

Pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko at sinagot ang tawag

"Miss Zi"

"Yes Gigi" sagot ko sa manager ng resto ko

"na deposit na po namin Miss Zi"

"Ah sige thanks, I'll go there tomorrow paki ayos ng report check ko yan bukas"

"Sige po"

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'You frame me right!?'

I'm scared

tanging kumot lang ang nakatakid sa katawan ko

I'm on unfamiliar room

I was just on the club last night dahil nagpapasundo sakin ang kapwa ko foreign teacher sa Korea.

why am I here?

the guy in front of me namumula ito sa galit at walang saplot

"W-where am I?"

tanong ko

he almost hit me but ended up answered the call

"fck! those paparazzi"

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"I-I am pregnant!" diritsang sabi ko sa lalaki na ipinatawag ako sa isang opisina kung nasaan ang isang abogado at manager niya

napag alaman kong isang sikat ito sa bansa nila.

nakita kong nandilim ang paningin nito

"when the child came out let's have a DNA test, if that's my artist child we'll gave you a financial support" sabi ng manager

"I am a teacher" sabi ko

"then?" tanong ng manager

sumabat ang abogadong nagpakilalang half filipino korean

"Actually manager Jong, teachers will be out with there profession especially they are foreign teacher here"

"did you mean I have to marry her!?" sigaw ng lalaki

he's good looking with a chinky eyes and lovely look but he's really scary.

"unfortunately yes, if the case is Miss, doesn't want to be out with her profession"

umiling ako

"I am sure it's your child" sabi ko "but I don't want to ask you a marriage. instead just, just face my parents." ayokong mag alala sna mama at akalaing disgrasyada ako. kahihiyan yun ng pamilya.

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'you said I'll just face your family! but they want me to marry you!!!"

's-sorry ako na ang ba--" He throw his phone on my stomach kaya medyo napa igtad ako

napaupo ako dahil sa pag kirot

I started to cry.

i don't want this.

ayoko.

I was living a peaceful life before.

maybe I didn't cry because of that pain.

but because I remember a person whom I betrayed the most.

that's

'Dave, I'm sorry' just that text and I block him in all my contacts.

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