I wish you know

What I'm feeling right now

Just the way I understand you

Without letting you know

I can understand you

Every time my heart stop

When you are  being sad

So please don't do that again

I feel destiny is you

Please feel me

Feel my existence

Take my hands

Even if I can't be able to breathe

I can still understand you

Will I, even able to shine?

Like the moon in the night

I lost myself in search for others

I lost my friends

Can I ever get up?

Can you please take My hands

I'm falling down

Please help me

Started giving happiness to others

Now see, I lost mine own

Can you please look at me ?

See I'm on the edge of cliff

I'm falling down

Why is the time going behind?

Lost in a ocean

I gave my best, wasn't it enough

My past is still holding me tight

I don't want to keep bad memories with me

But still it is repeating

What the hell???!

Let's go from here

Goodbye to this place

I'm going

At the higher place

Looking down for a moment

The times I cried and laugh

Remembered all....

All the things good bye..

When I close my eyes

I wish I can remember all the good memories

But it's not the same as now

To my pain.. I want to say something,..

Can't you just leave me alone...

Atleast let me take a breathe

I can be able to live now?

My everything is falling now

I always smile on you

But what did you do?? 😔

Don't tell you're here for me

You can't take all my pain

You can't feel the way I feel

Don't say it's okay

Because I don't think I'm okay

Please....

Leave alone it is hurting too much

Why can't they leave me ?

Why don't you understand?

Why

Can I Disappear ....

I just want to ....

So that people wouldn't hurt me

Did I do something bad to them ?

Then why are they doing this to me

Just why

I don't want to cry

No one notice your sadness until it turns into anger, and then you became bad person

My life in seven words - everything I was afraid of is happening....

Not all trust issues comes from the failed relationship some are family who hurt us and friends who betrayed....

Stop being nice with people. Deal with people how they deal with you...

Rule your mind or it will rule you

Sometimes I don't realize how terrible I was treated bit now I'm Explaing it to others...

Now it is hurting me badly

One of the hardest thing to do in life is letting things go

Whether it is guilt, anger, love, loss or betrayed changed is never easy we fight to hold on and we fight to let go

Some people visit my past more than I do

I don't know the secret of happiness but I will tell you I have never been sad whenever I'm alone because  I'm not with the fake people anymore

When you don't response the way people want you to respond their true colors is revealed

People are in our life for a reason, season or lifetime

The pain comes when we put them in the wrong category

I always smile when I see you smiling

I always cry when I see your eyes getting teary

It's strange na, you don't even know me but

I know your whole story

The words I told to myself

hundred times

Million times

Please don't leave me

Can I go to bed

Can I lean on you

Just stay on the bed  all day

Can all the problems will be solved.

Rather than thinking sleep is better

Everything will be alright?

Can I say?

This lie to myself?

Can I have a dream?

Sit on the unicorn and fly in the air

Just for one day

Want to forget all the worries

And live happy

Just for ome day. Can I have that

I just want to be happy

Can I have happiness

I want to know how does happiness

Actually feels like

The way people say..

It feels like energetic

And full of love

Is it true

Can I have it ??

Yes.. I'm an Over thinker

I can't stop thinking for a minute

Why is that so?

Yes we still exist

Want to say something

Without any thoughts

You know that I can't

And after an argument

Thinking about it whole shit day

I did right?

I shouldn't have said that, said this....

Stick it on my mind

I'm so afraid of myself sometimes

If I say something to someone about it

They said ...

Ahhhh...

It's not a big deal

It's nothing

It's okay

Don't think too much

Why I'm explain to them?

It might be not a big deal for them

But for us.

It's really big deal

You were not in my mind

You can't understand our feelings

The way we feel

The pain we are going thought.

You only know how to judge someone

How to tell ooooh "you are so imperfect"

Can I say to you...

Have you ever seen yourself?

First see yourself

Don't judge

You can't say rubbish things

Only by seeing one side of story

And I know you won't listen if I say so

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My tears.....

It's the last time I'm crying

Always said this

I will take off all the things

After crying

Throw out~~~

My feelings

Throw out~~~

My emotions

Throw out~~~

It's all good .

I'm not recalling my past again

But the things around me is not alright

I'm not good

I'm at my worst

But I can't say all this to you

It's okay

It's alright

I'm good

Don't worry

I can say this to you

Gave a fake smile

And all will understand

People say,

What would happen to her

See she is always smiling

She is always happy

She is good

She never cried

I didn't see her

She is good

But they don't know

Why would I tell them

Why would I cry in front of them?

To get the sympathy

That fake one ...

They don't know

Why would I explain myself to others

I know they will judge me

I know they won't care about me

Then why would I??

I know they wouldn't understand me

If I say so..... 😔