July 30 , year 2000 , I was born into this world and at July 29 , year 2000 i died , pretty confusing right .

I had died and reincarnated , i used to be an author , but did not hit it big , i used to do research all day long but none of my works hit it big , and i killed myself by jumping of my rooftop . Because i was just...not able to live anymore .

I always dreamed of having a better life or living as a charecter in another world and making a reverse harem !

And... looks like god granted one of my wishes , i have been reborn !

I was truly happy , when i opened my eyes , i was truly filled with joy . I was truly shocked , my heart was thumping , it was nervewrecking , but it only lasted for a little bit of time .

My body which was small and weak , was now containing the memories of a 36 year old woman .

My head started to tear itself apart , it was too much information for a child who had not even lived for a whole minute straight !

My whole body felt like it was about to break , my head was hazy , then i fainted due to the pain .

I was in constant pain , i felt like , i had to puke , but i also felt sleepy . My body was too weak to handle the preassure so i always slept .

I had to be in the hospital for 2 whole years after being born into this world , this was also the time i realised , i was not reincarnated into some iseaki world . But i had no time to feel sad !

I had to make sure my soul did not damage the vessel , so i kept sleeping till i felt stable . And that brings us to today , 21st January , year 2002 . Today i'm getting discharged from the hospital , and just a few days ago all my struggles between life and death ended . It was hell up until now !

After reincarnation i was not even able to think things , it would strain my body , so i had to always sleep , the past 1 month has been bliss , my vessel is now able to contain my soul properly , so i have been pretty much asleep for almost 2 years and have only been feeling drowsy for the past month .

And now that i'm in my tip top condition im going to live my fated life of having a reverse harem , meet hot guys and hit it big !

As i was swimming in my fantasies , 2 strangers approached me , a male and female in their teens . They looked at me with caring eyes , they were a cute couple . ' Why are they looking ats me with such eyes ? And why is my heart beating so fast ? '

Two hands reached out to me and wraped around my tiny body , they were warm , i was comfortable , i felt that i was being protected .

" My child i'm so sorry "

Tears rolled down her eyes as she held me and repeated the same words again and again . That instant i knew , she was my mother . I could feel her love , i had never felt this way from my mother... my previous mother , ' maybe this is where i belong ' . With those thoughts , i started crying too and hugged her .

" Mama.... hic hic , ma-ma "

I cried in her arms , i then felt the sudden urge to ask her where she was all this time , why did she not come to see me ? I... no longer was the same me from my past life , right then and there i felt that i was acknowledged, something that had never happened in my previous life .

" ma-ma , da da .... "

I looked at the guy standing next to her , i already knew he was my father because , my intuition was screaming that at my face me , the guy who was also crying , hugged us both we cried for sometime .

I felt like i had at last found them , the people i had been waiting for all of my life . I had no memory of them but i loved them , unconditionally. I wept , repeating the same words again and again . I wanted to ask them why did they not come to find me ?

But i already knew the answer and yet , just like a child i cried in their arms , i grabbed them tightly , i did not want them to leave me again , i did not want to be alone anymore. I want to be with them .

I grabbed them as tightly as i could . ' Looks like it was not the vessel that became big enough to contain my soul , it was the opposite . And i'm happy bout it .

My heart was thumping so fast , i felt sadness and joy at the same time . I felt my heart being torn apart by all the differnt emotions i felt . I was loosing my consciousness , i had worn myself out by crying, i felt like they would slip away .

So i grabbed them as hard as i could before being eaten away by the darkness . Until now , even in my previous life , i have always been cold , there was no one , who wanted to share their warmth with me .

I have always been scared of falling asleep , because of the cold air that does not give me any warmth and i fear the night as i felt like i would be eaten away anytime .

Everyone always forgot me , i felt like i was not one of them , even my own parents forgot they had a second child .

If they brought chairs , they would buy 3 one for father , one for mother and one for big brother . I was never there in their life .

The students did not like me because I craved attention , to make myself feel warm i started writing , i wrote all kinds of things . But , i was never acknowledged , no one bothered to look at them .

Not even a glance , but still...i wrote , hoping maybe one day... just someone might notice me .

But.. That never happened , i lived my whole life being unnoticed . Then I had lost everything , i felt like maybe if I committed a crime , i might be able to attract their attention , maybe they might notice me then .

But i realised then that , i had been broken , so i jumped of my rooftop .

At one of the most coldest nights , tears flowed though my cheeks , and dripped down , i was having all kinds of happy thoughts , i laughed while crying . " Would anyone care if I die ? " after uttering those words , i hit the ground . My blood that had been flowing inside me , came pouring out . It was warm , but it did not last long .

' God must have heared my last words , maybe that is why right now , I'm not afraid to fall asleep '

' The warmth is still there . I can still feel them .'

' Jennifer, my beloved daughter ' i wanted to talk to you so much . When you first came out into the world , i was so happy . Until then , all the pain i had suffered mentally and physically seemed to be nothing .

I was so glad when I had you , even though i had just reached adulthood and stepped foot in the long run . I had you .

Me , and my husband Zach did notever ever regret , having you not once while I was still pregnant , he always used to talk to you .

That night , in the graduation party ... we had too much to drink and made love to each other .

Then I came to know , i was pregnant. My parents were furious at Zack , me and him were childhood friends , then we were a couple and now , i was pregnant with his child .

When i first told him he was crying and smiling at the same time , he looked so happy , until then all the confusion i had , all the doubts i had , turned to dust .

But , your grand parents did not agree , there was a big fight . We came out of our houses and started living together , we both knew we could make it , Zack wanted to be a pro boxer .

But because of the financial necessity, he quit his dream and started working , he worked himself to the core . Everyday , he would come home looking tired and all worn out , his fingers were all blistered .

But whenever I asked him how he was , he only gave me one reply " Mirae , don't worry . I'm doing just fine . I've to be a reliable dad ! " with a big grin

He would tell you stories , and different ways to fight , we giggled together at nights . They were all happy times .

Then it was time , for you to come out and see the world , it was painful, my stomach hurt , i cried and grabbed Zack's hand , he was soothing me with his words , but i could tell , he was worried too .

It was a painful but happy journey , i was so happy . I felt like the whole world was on my hands . You were also the reason , both our families that we had not seen for months showed up .

They were equally worried about you , then right after you came into this world i fell asleep , when i woke up . I was the happiest girl in the whole wide world , i wanted to hold you , more than anything else .

I looked at Zack , he smiled at me . But , i could see pain and sadness in his eyes , i looked at the crib , but you were not there . I looked at Zack with my now wide open eyes then muttered .

" where is my baby ? " Zack gave a pained expression , i repeated again " Where....is..My baby ? "

All he gave me was a sad smile , at that moment my heart squeezed itself , it felt painful . I felt like everything was lost , ' there is nothing in this world for me now ' I thought , as my back started to sweat .

I could here my heart beat , everything was hazy . The only thing i knew that time was that , i wanted to meet my daughter .

I looked down at my stomach , and gripped the blanket .

Tears dropped from my eyes as Zack' s arms wrapped around my shoulders, he gripped them tightly without causing me any harm , i looked at him while giving a pained expression.

' is my daughter dead ? ' , ' where is she ?' With that i lost all my senses, i fell in his arms as i cried, then he told me to rest , i felt so empty inside , i layed back down with my eyes wide open .

I felt so weak , i felt like there was nothing left for me , and cried myself to sleep . Then I woke up it was the next day , Zack was lying beside me , the sun was bright and there was a fresh breeze .

But i felt nothing, it was like i had gone numb . As i stared out of the open window Zack woke up , he sat up , gave me a big smile . He hugged me and said , ' Our daughter is alive ' with those words , the darkness in my heart was being fucked up by a warm feeling .

But i was soo happy , i cried and cried at his shoulders , when i did calm down , i looked him straight in the eye and asked ,

" where is she ? " my expectations were once again met with his sad smile .

" Zack ! Where . Is . MY . daughter ? " I repeated my words this time like a threat .

Then he explained to me how , your body was underdeveloped in many parts . And how the doctors said that it would be best to have you put down .

And them explaining to him that it will cost a lot to even keep you alive . Right then i grabbed both his shoulders and with a clear and loud voice , i said " Zack , it's our daughter ! "

My heart was racing, my hands were shaking , my eyes were wide open and for the first time I felt nervous in front of him .

Before I could say something, he gave me his confident and reliable smile and said to me " She is OUR child , and SHE WILL LIVE with US . " with those words i fell to his arms , i covered my face with my shaking hands , i felt like all the burden i ever had was lifted , with his words .

He then told me that , i would be able to see her after I take enough rest , then I layed on my hospital bed . I trusted Zack more than anything in this world , and loved him more than myself , so did he . All this time it was like that , but when you came into this world it changed .

But it was a happy change . I slept for a grand total of 6 hours then woke up again , my body has always been weak , so giving birth to you was a difficult fight . Yet , i won ! i slowly got up . Right then Zack came in .

We did not speak to each other yet he understood me perfectly fine , he helped me up . Right after I stood up , i felt severe pain in my stomach , i felt like all the organs in my stomach would all fall out of me l

I felt like puking , then Zack princess carried me , as embracing as it may sound , i really wanted to meet you , so i had no choice .

He walked all the way to the other side of the hall carrying me in his arms , the other patients either looked embraced or were giving smirks . Then I felt so embraced that i covered my face with no the my hands .

Seeing this Zack gave me a kiss in the forehead , even though there was no mirror near us , i could see myself going tomato read .

I could hear an old couple talking to themself as they saw us .

" Sigh... such pity that i 'ever got such a loving husband "

" Well, it's such a pity that i never got such a beautiful wife , to shower with love "

"You !"

And we were too far away to hear them , i was so embraced then !

Then we came to you ward , Zack slowly put me down , and helped me stand straight . I looked into the ward .

There you were , you looked like a freak , just by glance to your way , i was scared i fell backwards , in Zack's arms , tears rolled down my cheek . Hoy had a big head a small body , underdeveloped arms .

I hugged Zack right before I felt all the worries a doctor showed up from your room .

I was numb , i could not feel anything. He asked if we were your parents , Zack slowly nodded his head . The doctor had a serious face , both of us were worried out of our skin for what he would tell us .

Right then the doctor made big grin seeing us go blue . As to reassure us everything was fine .

He then took us to his office , and your father princess carried me . The doctor was first taken aback but smiled it away .

We entered his office , we sat down in the 2 chairs placed there . I was feeling really nervous , then the doctor who set down after us , gave us a smile .

He then greeted us and started talking bout random stuff , then Zack interrupted him and said , " How is our baby ? " .

The doctor smiled and said , " she is just fine . It looks like her body is underdeveloped, normally other babies would be dead if they were to be in the same situation, but you child is alive "

" She seems to need some time to develop her underdeveloped parts , though i have to say this is a medical miracle "

I interrupted him and asked , " Then will she be normal in a few days ? "

" I... am not sure , because this is the first of this type of case , but if what we observers is correct , then yes she should be like other children as time passes .

I was so relieved after hearing words , Zack too , seemed relieved. The both of us teared up in each other's arms as the doctor left the room .