thank you for choosing to read the first episode of walking up with him :)

this is a fanfic with dazai osamu from bungou stray dogs ( if y'all haven't watched it i really suggest y'all should uwu)

here's what you'll need to be clear:

y/n : your name

l/n : your last name

f/f : your favourite food

f/a : favourite anime

f/ c : favourite colour

f/s : favourite song

i do not own the images. credits to the respective owners

and please let me know your views or whatever comes to your mind, ill really appreciate any reviews from you guys. happy reading 🖤

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"And he brought me flowers before going, kinda old school but let me tell you he was adorable"

"He really loves you girl-"

"I know right? he's lucky to have me afterall"

    There it goes. All these girls ever talk about are their boyfriends. I looked at my watch and realised lunch break would be over soon.

As I flipped the pages of my small journal, his picture fell on the floor. I bent down to pick it up before anyone else saw it.

"Oh let me get that y/n"

Maho picked it up for me. The last person in this world that I wanted to see that picture..picked it up. Just  perfect luck.

"Woah who is this guy Y/N? he looks hot! Hey look at this guys,Y/N's secret crush"

...i know what they're going to say

"Woah Y/N you still keep crushing on a-anime characters!? What are you? 12?"

A big laughter broke into the classroom as the recess bell rang. I grabbed his picture and said nothing to them.

As the teacher began the class, there was the sound of someone quietly sleeping in the back, someone whispering to their friends. The sound of the chalk touching the board and the sound of my heart kind of crying on its own.

The afternoon sunlight fell on my desk as his picture under my notebook looked at me.

As soon as school was over, I headed straight towards my house without exchanging a single word. Not like anyone noticed, not like I had any friends.

I told my mom I'd sleep for a while and closed the door to my room.

I fell on the bed and my pillow was already wet with the tears. Is it too dramatic? Crying for someone who doesn't even exist? Why does everybody keep reminding me he's never gonna be here? I know it,I've known it forever but yet I love him. So much that it hurts now.

He is there on my walls. The most perfect man I've ever seen. The man whom I happen to love more than these people who I have to call "real".

I don't find real humans any good. It's hard to talk to them, they don't even understand me. Hell, they're not even my type at all! I'd never fall for anyone of this earthlings.

No one was there for me when I wanted to give up on life, NO ONE. But he was. He saved me. Am I just being crazy? I looked at his picture again..that smile of a suicidal maniac, my bandage wasting machine.

I wonder if he was real would he even know I exist?

My tears started falling again, they never dried to begin with. I looked outside my window at the sky welcoming the night. The sun had set long ago. Suddenly there was a shining line in the middle of the sky..a shooting star.

"I just wish to be with him for once" I screamed without a second thought.

Shooting stars..they say they make your wishes come true. I never believed this childish belief but at that point all I wanted was him.

As the evening ended and the night arrived, I had a quick dinner with my parents and just went back to my room. I laid on my bed and started thinking all the stupid thoughts again...

The silence of the night was too deep so I put on my earphones and turned on my music.

" Kimi ni dore dake aisarete mo

Boku no shinjou wa hitotsu dake.."

and as the song kept repeating..I was asleep before I knew it. The moon light crept inside my room through the windows and lit up my bedsheets. A soft breeze of summer blew.

" I'm gonna be ok tomorrow"

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