... The Voice...

The word's typed in bold letters or capital letters is another voice talking and imagine the voice calm and soft like a whisper. Thank you

We all have opinions

We all have something to say

And words, they really do matter

But why are there so many voices

I hear them to much

The voices are mixed together

I can't think

Give me a moment

There are so may voices

Humans are not trustworthy

I hate what they say

Wait?

Why am I talking like I'm not one?

I'm also not trustworthy

YES

Now I remember, I'm way worse

STOP ACTING NICE

Wait, what's that voice

YOU'RE NOT IMPORTANT

Stop!Stop!, It's not true

YOU CAN NEVER BE IMPORTANT

YOU ARE USELESS

YOU HAVE NO WORTH

Stop!Stop!

IS IT?,YOU KNOW ALL THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE

I'm sorry

The voice is soft and low, not loud

It's whispering to me words

Why do I listen to it?

I know why

I guess cause it's true

Let me sleep in my bed if thorns

Let me sink deeper into my nightmare

I've always been doing it

So why not continue

Let Me Drown

... CHANGING YOURSELF...

Changing yourself to fit in with others

You're losing yourself in the process

Chopping yourself down into tiny pieces

Then burning it till it turns to ashes

Even tho you don't see it that's what you're doing to yourself

Slowly slicing down who you are just to fit in

Smiling all the time to pretend

You're not going to be happy

That's not the real you

It doesn't matter what you call yourself, you're perfect as you are

I know you hear that a lot

Cause trust me it's true

I've kinda been in your shoes

Bowed down to the the opinions of others

Puppeteered by what they say

A lifeless little puppet that cannot move without being pulled buy it's puppeteer

Then say to my self"I don't care about what they say"

Then indirectly writing down their opinions in my heart so I can follow it

Saying I can control myself

But unconsciously letting their opinions puppeteer me

That's not the person you're ment to be

You are perfect as you are

And what you are is beautiful

What you are is Priceless

What you are is precious

What you are is Amazing

Thank you for reading up until this point

I wrote Changing yourself after my I want to fit in phase that was the moment I realized that when I said to myself I don't care about what they say I actually did I. so I later realized that I don't have to change myself. so yeah

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I feel insecure

I feel like a bunch of eyes are watching my every move

I have friends that say"I'm right beside you"

But I have trust issues

Always acting like I'm strong but I know I cry all the time

Easy to get hurt but smiling all the time to pretend I'm happy

I cannot please my Heart up to people

People say they like me but would you like me of you knew ye real me

Trying my best to make others happy

But have I ever made myself happy

I am an attention seeker

I want all attention

I push others away

Then when they leave

I blow a tantrum saying"he/she wasn't really my friend, he never really cared for me"

Why do they care for me

Why do you care if I cry

Of you say those types of words

I'll fell like I'm

wanted

Loved

Needed

Do not give me that kind of hope

A faith to cling on

I'll prefer drowning in depression,misery , sadness and in pain

If you are nice to me you'll show me light

I do not want to see that light because it gives me hope

And that hope I do not need

I've been living in depression and sadness

Do not give me light then take it

It is better if I drown in the darkness

I am a flower that blooms on the darkness

That is the only place I can live

A flower born of sin

A flower born of darkness

A flower that will be consumed by light

A flower that will be burnt of reach's light

A flower born of darkness

A flower destined to be alone

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People all have secrets

Something dark to hide

Something we don't want to reveal

Our sin

Our darkness

Our real selves

Yes, what we do in secret is our real selves

No matter how much you say you're a good guy or girl

There's always darkness hanging in your Heart

That is human nature

If we all show who we really are

We might me worse than animals

Yes, humans are very interesting creatures

We do dirty things in secret

Then smile in public

I believe the saying is"wolves in sheep's clothing"

So like I couldn't write the ending, it's not like I couldn't write it, it was just that I wrote it in a book and when I was writing I was a bit , how should I say this not sane, so like the ending is a bit umm not proper.

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