Yes i wanna to meet you

There are some questions that are still pending

And there are many answers that you had never gave me

When you first met me you asked me

DO YOU BELIEVE IN DESTINY?

Two people from different different place

Come together when fade decide to meet them

We never met eyes neither our texts exchange, 

we live in our room but still belongs to separate separate world

But destiny has something for us

we become so close like bestfriend

but didn't realized, 

your jokes,  laughter,  those silly things i like them all ,

remember if you were getting bore you used to text me and i told myself " hope you always get bore"

you used to give me relationship advices when you were sad

And used to scold me whenever i play in the  rain

Tire of car spin and i came one step more closer to you

How can no one ever love you

Whenever i missed you i used to recall all those moments that we spent together and then closed eyes to forget everything but never happen

Even now i can't be able to forget each and every things that i had spend with you and the memories we shared with each others

I want to be with you

Hold you

Hug you

Stay with you

"Is it wrong"??

I think you used me just came to me

when you need me or being bore

"I am i right" ??

I don't understand at that time

ahhhhhh...!

Now i get it. its all "fake love"

Why you do this to me ?

You had ruined all my feelings

It was all true just for you

"Why"??

You said you will text me

I waited

All night

Just to see one message from you

The painful nights

The sleepness nights

Crying at the mid night

It hurts me ....!

Will you give all that things that i had lose ???

The depression

"Because of you"

That painful nights

"Because of you "

The trauma

"Because of you "

I wanted to cry but holded my tears

Hides all the secrets and pains

Never let them know to anyone that i have going through

SO MUCH PAIN ....

SO MUCH CRY .....

"JUST FOR YOU"

Delete the chat ..

Delete the picture ..

Let go ..

Move on ..

Focus on your strength ..

Be grateful for what you have ...

Just imagine how much time and happiness I gave you and what did you do ??

Just say the truth does it takes too much time to say that.

I expect peace but all you bring is pain

I am not ready for a relationship

Its hurtful please stop it

Until its my turn to break you down

I will keep clapping for you just wait and watch

I don't need an explanation no matter what you say , you know exactly what you had done

Sometimes its not you i miss

Its the feeling i had when you were with me

Don't ever come back to me when you realize no one will ever love you like i did

Actually you had never given me butterflies

You had just given me headaches

Anxiety isn't weakness living with anxiety turning up and doing stuff with anxiety takes the most of strength that you will never know

Biggest thing i have learned in my life is not to hold any relationship or friendship just because of the memories you have with them if they don't wanna to act right let them go

We, girls think about things silently for three months so, when we decide to leave there is no changing in minds but you guys are impulsive and end things on one temporary feeling and then later realize that ...

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Why don't you leave me alone

Why it has a lot of feeling's when I am with you

what are you trying to do with

"JUST WANT TO BE ALONE"

Why I'm the one who is still have the feelings

Why I'm the one who is hurting

Why don't you have?

What is this feeling called

Oh tell me

Don't see me

Don't come to me

With all those pains

Why I still want you??

I'm so afraid

Are you near my door

Can i just go and see you

Just one more time

I know that you don't love me

But still

I don't why I'm like this?

Knowing of all pain

Still moving on that direction

I know with you

I can only get pain and get hurt

But

"I STILL WANT YOU "

Why being like this hurting myself

I told myself

No I don't love him

But I only said by my lips and not accepted by heart

Why being attracted towards you

Knowing that one day you will leave me

Fake smile, fake love, fake promise

Why can't be able to understand it before

Knowing it all but

"I STILL WANT YOU "

you wouldn't understand if I say anything to you

I gave many hints but

It was all waste

Don't know, if you really didn't understand or

You are just pretending to be

My feelings, my smile

When I'm with you is true.

Do you understand it ??

I tried to tell you in many ways

But what did you do?

I had written a paragraph for you

You can't understand it

I thought it was too long

So, I wrote a poetry

But..........

For you I done whatever I can do...

You didn't understand my feelings

Emotions for you

It's okay

I thought I will stay with you for sometime

I know it won't be forever

But still happy even if I talked with you for five minutes in a day

What magic do you really hold

I know that you will not be with me forever

Bit still knowing the truth I followed you

And see I got hurt

We shouldn't expect anything from anyone

I know this but I understand it now

I want you to go thought all the things that I have been but

Later on I realized

You didn't told me to like me or love me

I was the only fool

I was wrong

But why did you break the promise we make together

We said that we will be together forever

But you was the one who ran away from reality

I get to know that you are afraid of reality

"BUT I STILL I WANT YOU "

you know what after you left

I think I was addicted to writing

I can't be able to tell others

What I have been going through

The only thing that understand me was the book and a pen

And I love to tell Everything

I started to write the way I feel and pain

The way I got hurt

After that

I just thought for a second

Can you read it?

The pain I have written for you

Can you read it

Just take a minute and read it

Realize how much tears you had given to me

The painful nights

I had gone through

I just want a happy life

Can I have it

Just telling myself

Good days are on the way

It won't help me

I know it's all lie

but Keep telling myself

Tears dropping before i even realize

It's really a tough time waiting for you to come

Or waiting for my memory to forget you

Is it too hard to forget you

People are asking me.......

Why are you crying

What do I tell them

It is hurting me

It can't be shown

So I'm simply writing

My hardships and my pains

Can you read it ??

Can you feel it??

Why i have been going thought

Why I need you

Why you are hurting me

Can I just erase you from my memory

So that you won't disturb me not hurt me

It is killing me everytime

When your suddenly remembered

Aahhhhhh it's painful

Just get out from my life

Waiting for someone

Bu knowing he won't come

You know how much pain does it brings

Why are you giving me

Fake promise to come again

I know it's all fake

If someone says

It was the dream

It would be horrible dream of my life

I don't want it to come again

Let's run from here

And escape to

"ANOTHER WORLD"