their is utter darkness here.I don't have a idea how soon am gonna die but I just wish it's too soon.i am waiting for the devil to simply take my life away.the pain is all I can feel right now.i don't even have any idea where is the pain coming from as it's literally aching everywhere.i can't see anything due to the blind fold on my eyes . since i can't see anything my ability to hear has been increased so that's definitely a plus there. this place seems a bit rusty since I can definitely smell that.this place is definitely on the very secluded area, pretty far away from any human's reach.shoot!!!!!!!their is noise of footsteps coming towards this place.i can sense this danger!!!!!!!!!.........oh lord!!!!this doesn't feel good.its fucking creepy......I just want to get as far away as I can. soon i heard a voice and let's just say it's the creepiest part of this place..." don't move your freaking legs or else you die"!!!!!! it literally makes me lose my mind .i feel  shivers going down my spine. my legs were shaking as I was anxious but after hearing that voice i stopped myself from the urge to do so.soon enough i understood that whoever has kidnapped me is not normal.the voice held so much power and dominance that I can't simply explain it. it can make anyone go down on his knees. it's cold as an iceberg .it can break simply anyone's courage....... solving this mystery will be playing with the fire but I'm just like a moth drawn to a flame...so I won't let him win....I'm going to fight for my life because i wanna end myself soon but it's only my right to do so.my past was dark .so dark that It draws you in and ends anyone tha wants to solve the mystery it holds....... but this time my future will be decided by me only me.and that's set on stones.

I definitely must have dozed off deep in my thoughts since I didn't heard anything from him again . I guess the monster had walked away . I felt a blow of relief.i had so much questions that's like killing me to answer them.who is he? why the freak he has kidnapped me and the most important is he going to be the that monster from my past?.......oh shoot!!!!! I'm going to have a headache again.even though my anxiety is on its peak making me feel so paranoid I just want to sleep the pain away.sleep is my only source of relief.since my childhood I have been using this way to escape the reality.even if it's temporary it's still provides me a sense of warmth and comfort.to be honest this kidnapping is nothing compared to what I had gone through but still it's not good this way. If you don't know then I wanna let you know that I'm diagnosed with depression, anxiety,PTSD and borderline personality disorder. yeahh that's sucks but I'm still going on .

I don't know how did I ended up here. the last thing that I can remember is that I was unlocking the doors after returning from office just like always.i don't even remember anything after that it's just blank from there In my memories.its like someone just erased my memories...I remember when unlocking the door I heard a loud pang!! and I had a sharp pain in my brain and everything gets blacked out .I let the darkness get one more inch of my soul again.darkness is my only best friend and I guess I like it that way only.i don't form human connections since I don't trust anybody.more like I can't trust anybody and nor do I want to.i literally have never considered anyone my friend and that's okay for me.i just consider them another human being trying hard to fulfill their motive.i was back to the reality from my thoughts from a noise of footsteps coming to my direction.. ..I was petrified and one more step till I can feel someone's presence right 1 step away from me.i was terrified of what will happen now ." Eat this now" the voice demanding me.slowly I opened my mouth ...my shaking voice said"....I ..I can't see anything,,, please remove this blindfold"..I desperately wanted to at least see his face since that can give me a clue about his identity .and then I heard him laughing and I was so confused and shocked!!!!!!! "you are very smart!!!!....  you want me to take your blindfold so you can suspect me!!!!!  hahahaha ,are you dumb bitch!!!" don't worry I can definitely shove this down your throat ......."open up your mouth" he said in a very cold voice like he didn't have any emotions.his voice was simply empty yet so sinister and definitely getting away from here will be no easy..... resisting now will cause me no good so I simply allowed him to do that.he was very harsh in feeding.i was eating after so long even I don't remember. I don't know for how many days I have been locked up here. I really want a nap now. I just want to rest but there is no way ...this chair is not comfortable enough for me to sleep in it.should I ask him for a mattress....I just wish that he will agree. " hey,I have lost all my energy so I want to take a nap ,can you please provide me a mattress" I said in an instant I was so scared.....there was extreme and awkward silence for some seconds which felt like an eternity... suddenly I felt a stinging pain in my cheeks...he slapped me .but why!!!!I can't think of any possible way I would have offended him.He is such a monster.i hate this one. " speak only when spoken to, or else this will be your last day alive ",he commanded. and I heard the footsteps slowing drifting away until it was all silence and darkness. I felt horrified but I have to accept the situation I'm in now. so I thought my chair as a mattress and bended my knees ,close to my chest and hugging my self I slowly gave in the darkness...and I fell in the hole of darkness again .

I put off all my clothes in the washing machine.entering the majistic and most beautiful bathroom ever .there were candles lit everywhere with a scent of rosemary.rosemary has been my favourite scent ever.it just feels comforting and full of warmth.slowly my eyes roamed till it catched upon the glass door in which the shower was ready to capture all the pain away.i entered the glass door. droplets touching every inch of my body, simply taking all my pain away,the rosemary scent dancing with glory.slowly my eyes were captured to the mirror right in front of me and I almost fainted seeing the image.there was a faceless mam peeking on me from the mirror.i screamed so loud .I started running away from the shower and I locked back! HE IS JUST SO FREAKING CREEPY!!HE IS LAUGHING AT ME NOT THE NORMAL LAUGH,ITS THE INSANE TYPE OF LAUGH. my heart is pondering so loud that I feel its gonna burst out off my chest . suddenly all of my energy went away.i fell down and I screamed out loud since the man was coming to me.each step was literally looked like my last breath.it was insane.suddenly it was right in front of me .so close that he can hear my heart beating.and slowly I got lost in the moment.i felt my breath as the last one and I closed my eyes. if this is the death then I WANT THIS ...and now it's dark.PITCH DARK..I felt all my pain and sorrow drifting into the darkness till I was numb .THIS IS IT .THIS IS THE WAY I WILL DIE.WITHOUT GETTING THE ANSWERS TO MY QUESTION.AND I " LOST THE BATTLE"

but then......

suddenly I felt all the pain returning to me as in though it never happened.slowly I started moving my eyes..my eyelids were so heavy that it was making me impossible to open it but with all my strength I opened my eyes and I was shocked to say the least.It was all black.black coloured the whole area then I tried touched the eyes and the blindfold was still there .So IT WAS ALL A DREAM!!!!!!I I felt a bit of relief since I was so scared that its gonna be my last breath. but one second why does the chair feels like a bed.i remember very vividly that I slept in the chair but the soft fabric I can feel from my tied hands are very smooth.extremely soft as in made with so much love that it can melt anyone after sleeping on it .but the Main questions was how did this happen??did my kidnapper helped me?but why .....why would he wanaa help me!!!!!maybe he felt pity on me anyways I will not think about anything for now.....since I want to enjoy this moment,this warmth,this comfort.i closed my eyes but that dream kept coming back to my mind.so I just wouldn't sleep!!!!!! I don't know why I'm feeling someone's presence around me .is it just my paranoia or the truth!!!!my hands were heavily brusied so it won't just simply get up...there is definitely someone here ,i can feel it .my instincts never lie. is there anyone??I asked,no reply.i repeated my question again,again nothing. This is so odd.suddenly I felt arms wraping around my waist.instantly I freezed . someone was here the whole time yet I didn't feel it.and why he is not on guard. he should be scared I would runaway but he is not ...maybe he feels no harm from me since I am so badly bruised and then I heard something.….... SLEEP!!!!!WHEN YOU ARE GETTING SOME, SINCE I WON'T LET YOU HAVE ANY FROM NOW ONWARDS. I WILL MAKE YOUR LIFE A LIVING HELL SWEETHEART!!!......I freezed .his wraping became tight .so I felt like my oxygen level will go down so bad I won't be able to breathe.his voice was so cold I can't help myself but shiver. but WHYYY ,!!!!!!! I don't have answers but soon I will have .he is so close to me that I can feel his breath on my ears.i want to remove his grip but he is very strong and I have no strength and will for now to fight with him .since i can't sleep I will take this opportunity to find more clues..umm it feels like he is big and muscluar .his arms are definitely very heavy . ...my height is 5'5 but  it feels like he is bigger than me .so maybe he is around 6 feet I guess.maybe I should touch his face but shitt my hand are not even moving a inch.i will leave that idea for later.now I should understand the environment. ummmm the bed is very soft and to be honest this doesn't feels like it's owned by a normal person.this feels like a luxury.because it feels like silk.it will slip out of hands it so soft and silky.this place definitely has some very good candle.i can smell a bit lavender scent.it is definitely coming from the right side of this bed.i have a very strong nose since my childhood so that's definitely a very good plus for me in this situation.buttttttt where is this odd smell is coming from.it feels like blood's smell .I don't know if it is coming from this place or me since I'm bruised too.but my wounds are fresh and this is definitely some old blood's smell .shittt where am I ???In hell or what. This place is definitely some very creepy place .one thing for sure,things are not so simple as I thought. This place definitely has some dark secrets behind its door.i can feel it .The smell of danger.The smell of darkness.so dark it would consume you without even knowing it ............

I woke up due to feeling a very heavy stone on my chest.i knew this was morning since I can hear birds chirping softly.i know there is a window since I feel the warmth of the sunrays right at my arm. ane one more thing the weight I was talking about is my kidnappers hands on me.he definitely works out a lot since it's literally like a Stone. I really want to go home . I miss my old apartment.even thought it was not in a very good condition yet it was mine. I rented it for some pretty cheap rate.i work part time job as waitress in a Cafe . Though I don't have any friends I never felt lonely.Friends will simply bring more trouble.It is risk since I don't want to let anyone get any information about my past.i burried it deep within my soul.No one has the access to it.I always got compliment about how pretty I looked but they don't know about the scars on my heart and soul.I rarely talk to anyone.i always nod or either reply in yes or no type.i don't feel like talking.to me it's just waste of my energy.I Never had a boyfriend since I always rejected boys.Boys are simply trouble.i Don't want to fall for anyone.i want to protect my heart which is already in pieces and I'm just trying to put them together.The way he hands are gripping on shoulder I think It will melt. I have never been this close to anyone since 5 years.And before that was due to some really traumatising Reason.I don't want to think about it. I slowly tried to shift from his grip since my hands are tied.

"you want to escape from me" and with this his grip became stronger.and he came close to my ears, I shivered.

"don't try to be smart ,i will go easy on you but if you will try to escape from here,I 'll simply destroy your pride sweetheart"he words were literally full of venom .I don't have idea about these hatred of him for me.

"then kill me" I replied which looked like a whisper. "that's too easy, I want to break you into pieces first ,I want to destroy that pride of yours " he said coldly .

"why me??"I asked shivering

" Don't worry,that you will know soon" he replied . I can feel him smirking in his voice.he looked so arrogant. ... then I felt his grip losing.i relieved. I felt his footsteps drifting away. then I quickly said to him but didn't wanted to offend him so I asked in a very low tone

"then why are you being caring towards me !!!why did you put me into this bed and slept with me".... I was really shocked what came into me when I asked this.

" don't think too highly of yourself,it was all just my pity for you,since you don't have any idea how I'm going to destroy you.... wait till I make you crawl, begging for your death".......with that I was shocked.i couldn't bring myself to reply him.i was on the verge of crying.why all this is happening to me .since my childhood I have been used by everybody.everyone always wanted to destroy me even I did nothing to nobody.i felt the tears from my eyes. my blindfold was wet.then I felt footsteps approaching me. I shivered.i didn't wanted to show my weaknesses yet I couldn't even use my hands to wipe those tears. I instantly felt sparks on my body , when I felt his lips on my lips.it was so warm .it was my first kiss.i never thought ,I will be losing my first kiss to my kidnapper who literally wanted to abuse and toucher me to death. his lips was so soft that I was melting.i didn't wanted to weaken so I didn't kissed him back.after some seconds I felt the emptiness on my lips.the warmth was gone.i wanted to ask him about this behaviour but I guess he left since I was so deep in my thoughts I didn't noticed him walking away. what is in the world wrong with him !!!!!!! WHY DID HE KISSED ME!!!WHAT IS WITH THIS HOT AND COLD BEHAVIOUR!!! I was shocked by my reaction since I didn't hate the kiss.maybe it's all my adrenaline issues.maybe the kidnapped kissed me to take advantage of me...I shouldn't think so much about this kiss.... .let's forget this ever happened.