I was at the station , I had this weird feeling. there was something that I felt was unusual , though it was the same station I've been coming and going since years . I tried my best to ignore this feeling but it kept on increasing as I stepped towards the train . I was so busy thinking that I didn't pay attention to what my friend jessica was saying . Jessica noticed that I wasn't listening to her , she kept quiet for a few seconds and then shooked her handvin front of my eyes . I got startled and finally came back to senses , I sighed and said " jess!! you startled me !!" . she laughed at me and said "hahaha!! I wish you could see what you looked like when you were thinking ". the train had arrived by the time and it was full like always . everyone was rushing and others trying to go in the train , jess held my hand and looked at me . I knew what that look meant ; it said : ' don't worry I got this ' . we rushed in but there was something else that my eyes were looking at ; a girl who was very calm while others were worried that they might miss the station or other feelings , for a second I thought it was just me and that girl at that place , our eyes met . it felt like we knew eachother . I got pushed in by the crowd and I lost her , I tried to look for her from the window but she just vanished meanwhile Jessica was just standing there watching me , I noticed her staring at me verry worried but also angry . I took control over my feelings and stood there facing towards her it never felt so awkward between us but today it did . we reached at our destination from here Jessica had to go to her college and I had to go for work .

to be honest Jessica and I are very close friends . she is my bestie since my childhood . my parents had left me at my uncle's home after their divorce , none of them wanted me . at that time I might be just 4-5 years old . ever since then I never heard any news about my parents , where they were ? were they fine ? they didn't even care to come meet me even once ... at that time I was very sad and lonely , I had no friends , I wasn't loved at all ... only uncle Joseph loved me but he used to be busy in his work . after few days I finally accepted the truth and started my new journey . uncle Joseph wasn't a very rich man he used to spend most of his time working though he did spend his free time with me .

eventually time passed and I almost forgot that I had parents and I thought that uncle Joseph was my only relative in this world

he was my hero back then ... (back to present time) I went back home after a day of hard work and strange feelings , I made it out ..!

it has been two days since I last saw that girl , I can't get over it... it's stuck in my mind . all those faded memories of my past had come back to me. I couldn't sleep well for last days , because of that I couldn't focus on my work and so my boss suggested me to take a break and so , I did ... I layed in my bed . I tried to sleep but I couldn't as soon as I closed my eyes I saw those flashes of my worst birthday. I tried to meditate , jess once told meditation can help you in such times where your past is affecting your present . I sat on the floor , took a deep breath , I breathe out with a sigh , I closed my eyes, after a while I got lost in those beautiful ocean eyes of her ...

i saw myself at my old house ; at my uncle's house . I went in further without even confirming if I was dreaming or was it all just my imagination ?! I went in my old room saw myself standing infront of a full body mirror . the phone bell ringed . my old self rushed to main hall to get the phone , I ran behind him . my old self picked the call it was uncle Joseph's call , he said " Rayan ! are you fine home alone ???!" " yeah! I am a big boy now don't worry !" I exclaimed in joy . it was my birthday after all . it was my second birthday with uncle Joseph and not with my parents . well I had uncle Joseph with me so I didn't miss them at all !

I smiled looking at my old self , to be honest it was the first I had ever been exited for my birthday . the present me tried to pat my old self on the head . but my hand just past through it and then I realised I was dreaming . my old self hanged up the call and sat at uncle Joseph's favourite chair , playing with the toys . it was past midnight soon and also my birthday , there was no sign of uncle after a while there was knock at the door . I went towards it , happy , thought it was uncle . I was wrong , infront of my old self stood there a long police man with his cap in his hand and with sad face . he asked if there was anyone else who lives here I replied in a soft dull tone "no.." . after that I heard my door open and woke up from my dream

I woke up sat there by my bed . I heard foot steps coming towards me . I found it hard to move because I just woke up from my sleep and my body was very tired . I saw a shadow at my open room door . I almost had a heart attack thinking it's some murderer in my house , or a dangerous rober , the foot steps got closer and louder . my heart beat increased , I stood up taking support of my bed and quickly grabbed something to protect myself if that person tries to attack me .