WAKE UP\, LOVE...... it time to start a brand new college life\~\~\~\~\~

Hmm... just 5 mints MOM...

"If you want pancake with honey  in breakfast you better be up or else you have to go to college having just a glass of juice" my mother shouts her lungs out from the kitchen

no...nooo I AM UP MOM JUST A MINT AND I WILL BE READY

I will never sacrifice my pancakes even for the whole world they are my first and most probably my last love

I hurried and dress up in my casual blouse and a nice blue jean which my mom pick out for me last night

"Mom my pancakes please " I rushed downstairs direct in the kitchen

"a sec baby "

"here...and don't forget to drink your juice too "

"yes  my highness "

she ruffles my hair a bit and we both laughed

"oh...no mom I am last " I started panicking

"hahaha no honey I may or may not set your clock 30 minutes ahead of time so don't worry " she smirks like she achieves some greatest medal

"AGAIN MOM" I wimp

It's her habit to do so when even I or dad have something important in the morning she always ended up waking us like an hour or more early

"Baby are you done, shall we lead to college "

"oh.. dad you are up "

"It's my baby's first day in college I have to be there for her "

"aww...Dad, I love you " I hugged him and felt like he is kissing my forehead

"uhmmm yeah I know you love your dad more but you guys don't have to rub it on my face " my mom angrily pout

"hahaha come here honey you are my only queen ain't you," my dad said and open his arm for her too

"yeah mom you are the one and the only queen of this house " I hugged them both

"ok  no need of that my butter ...let's head to college or you will be last for real"

"lets gooo" my dad sounds like it's his first day of college

 the car ride was smooth but my mind was so much in a mess

I surely am blessed with a lovely family but when it comes to myself I am totally a cursed one

I am so afraid of being judged and not able to stand on the standard of society in terms of beauty. Hell, some even call me I should be in a museum because I am the only mistake of God.

I am not like the girl in drama who just need a makeover to look beautiful or who need some branded cloth to glam up

I am one of those who are hideous for this society

Like I have small eyes with a potato-shaped nose and very big lips. but I don't understand why a human has to have big doe eyes, a pointed nose, sexy heart-shaped lips. I agree I don't have standard measures but you draw these measures I bet God didn't

"ALANA WILL~

"Ahhh...yeah mom why are you  shouting, you almost gave me a heart attack "I complaint

"Really my child are we going this way...I called you millions of times but God knows what you were dreaming " she fired back

"okay cut," my dad says so we won't argue more

"We are here honey go for it and have a great day" my dad wishes and smile his signature warm smile

"yeah go love and a great day and don't forget to call if something bad happened," my mom said and kissed my forehead

"Okay will do bye mom bye dad love you both, " I said and step out of our car to face 'the society '

Ahh...does just coming into college and passing school will change my life, I don't think so well if real life, not some fairy tale Good even fairy tales have a dark ending. But how gonna tell this thing to my mom she is just too excited that I am in college and a step close to meet my prince charming 'sigh'

I wish mom can see me as others do not as her child I hate when she talks about my bright future and a lovely family

Whatever Alana just be strong and ignore everyone, remember you are invisible

Let's do it girl and remember whatever you have, you earned it with all your strength and passion, So don't let anyone degrade you.

YOU CAN DO IT JUST SMILE BUT DON'T MAKE EYE CONTACT WITH ANYONE

I was lost in motivating myself, more likely lost in my own world but suddenly I heard hooting and screaming when I try to look at the source I get stunned.

There was like hundreds of girl screaming and looking at a boy with full of lust but they are not to be blamed

The boy looks like Adonis himself, like how can someone be this handsome isn't it's illegal to have this perfect face and this perfect body, I bet even his foot nails must be perfect.

But why God has to be this partial, he gave me nothing, and here this handsome hulk who get everything and not to mention the car he just packed the freaking Rolls Royce Ghost, the only one for which my brother is working his *** off since last year

I wonder if this boy has anything he lacks, how it is to live like him, with the perfect face, tons of money, and a handful of people to have as friends.

Wish I could have a single friend in this college, there must be someone who wants to be a friend of an ugly duckling, it's not like I am the ugliest anyway

"Excuse me I guess we are sharing the locker for time being at the college just started and the pass outs still haven't handed over the locker, Hope you don't mind share it with me, " A handsome boy said with a toothpaste ad like smile said with his perfect face

Did I by chance died and is now in heaven or something, how can this place is full of these handsome God-like boys, No I have to wake up if I am sleeping and if I die then I should have died way before now

"Uhm...Hello, if you don't want to then I can ask for others to help don't force yourself " that boy or angel speak again, I guess I was lost in thoughts for a long time

" Oh... no sorry I just get lost in something, of course, I don't mind sharing the locker, feel free to use it," I said and smiled

I took a few steps away from the locker so that he can use it, and we decided that he will use the lower part and I can have the upper part of the locker as he is basketball played and mostly use the locker for his shoes and extra pieces of stuff

He doesn't look like one who cares about studies and academic things, I wish he will not share any subject with me, as most of the times teacher assign me to help others assuming how I don't have a social life to live and how good I score

"anyways we don't know each other, I am Luv Stewart from the law stream," he said smile rubbing his nape

"I am Alana Brown and I am pursuing economics," I said and smiled, he seems a nice person

" You match with your name perfectly "

"Sorry "

"Alana means Beauty I guess," he said and again give am a toothpaste ad

"Yeah that what it means," I said and get where the chat is going, he just ended up bulling and laughing at me and my name but again it's not new to me let him be happy I will not gonna react and he will stop eventually.

" I like your smile, it's the most beautiful smile I have ever seen and you seem like a beautiful person inside out," he said and patted my hair

"Okay bye have to go but will talk soon, I have to get my schedule from office, take care partner," he said and rushed to the office

Does he really praised me and patted me, and I can bet on my life I am dead, there is no way a greek god-like boy even look at me and notice my smile

I was in my thoughts again and the bell broke my train this time, I shake my head and move toward the first class of my college life, I am determined to have my degree with flying colors to have a job in my dream company, and there is nothing which can stop me.

I headed to my class and saw the Adonis sitting on the last bench of the class looking out of the window

I headed to my class and saw the Adonis sitting on the last bench of the class looking out of the window.

He seems alone and lost, or I guess I think that everyone is alone as me. Of course, this can never be the case, I mean who can say that this living lord can ever feel alone.

I divert my mind from his and started scanning the class for a sit where no one can see me but I guess I am God's least favorite child, the teacher marched in the class and ordered me to sit right before that handsome hunk.

 God, I just wanted to have a sit where I can study peacefully not the sit where I can be the Instagram model. Everyone who is looking at this hunk is looking at me too, just the difference is they are looking at him with heart eyes and at me with hard eyes, haha my sense of humor is hilarious.

*sigh* whatever girl just focus on what the teacher is saying leave all of them they can't eat you just be looking. Focus

The whole period went like a living hell, every eye was looking at me like I am the only prey in the room full of hungry lions, I heard some whispers that this hunk quarrel to everyone who wants to sit next to anyway near him, I wonder why he didn't say anything to me, maybe because of teacher, at least he respects the teachers.

But I wonder why he doesn't want others to sit with him, if someone wants to sit with me I would be more than happy to let them join. I ignore all these thoughts and walk to the next class.

When I reach my next class that guy was already in there, in the same position as before but this time I choose to ignore him and take a sit in the second row so that the teacher won't force me to sit anyway near him, obviously I don't want to be insulted by my own classmate on the first day and even so far my day is also going good no one pointed out on my looks or anything.

The class went well but still, I felt that something is digging the drill in my back from their eyes or maybe someone must be thinking about how ugly or uneven I look.

" Hy wait " a wannabe girl stopped me with all the force in her to grip my arm

"Hy, yeah say, you want something," I asked with a forced smile, I mean girl are you an idiot literally digging your fake nail on me

"Oh yeah, I am Lucy, I throw a party in my house for all the classmates to get to know each other more, would you like to come and join us " she smiled and asked me in a polite tone, my guts are saying to say no but me being dumb is choose to say yes with a big ass smile. We exchange numbers and she texts me her location and time, I guess the college is going to be a good place for me, maybe its maturity of being in college that now people are willing to accept me rather than judging me on my looks

The day went well, all the classes were just the intro session still that was fun to know about basics and teachers. But the whole time I kept feeling that someone is constantly looking at me but whenever I try to check who is wasting time on me, I ended up feeling like I am overthinking

"Hello my partner, How was your day, mine was good I get to know a lot of girls and boys, I even manage to have some numbers and you know what a girl even invited me to her house party" My locker partner, said as gripping as in the morning, I don't look like I only know him since this morning only, he is such a sweetheart.

"mine was good also, and I also get a party invitation," I said matching his energy and trust to be told I was also excited it's my first ever invitation to a party

" Really, tell me the location maybe we have the same host " I nodded and show him the location in my chatbox and we really are going to the same party, he asked me if I wanted to get a ride to the location, I first denied, after all, I don't know him much and I don't want to share where I live to a stranger but he ended up convening me to give me a lift and I shared a nearby cafe of from my house.

Life is going to be good with, these kinds of happy and positive friends, I guess

My brother texted me that he is gonna pick me up as his company is around the corner of my college.

Everything is good still I am having the creepy feeling that someone is observing me and is noticing every move of mine.