"He slapped me in front of everyone, and told me to get lost and never

show my face to him, why? I didn't do anything wrong but everyone blamed me

instead, why?  they told me that the matters of husband and wife should

not be displayed in front of other people but the person who did this was he

himself why did you blame me? you try hard to make this society modern but at

last this is a male dominated society everyone blames women but nobody opposes

men because all the rules and restrictions are set by them and we are just

their puppet but I have decided let everyone call me a shameless women but I

won't give up I will prove myself"

( She sat their all alone, with 4 bottles full of beer, her broken heart

recalled the time when they loved each other so immensely but what exactly

happened?)

to be continued...

I was 8 years old back then, it was my summer vacation I went to my Aunt's

house to enjoy, you know what my enjoyment was?  drawing and sleeping, I

know but I was a little lazy, I can even say that my hobby was sleeping, my

Aunt's cousin had a daughter she was very beautiful, my Aunt introduced me to

her. I was hiding behind my Aunt as if that small one was going to beat me then

my Aunt told me "look Lara came here to make friends with you so don't

worry" she petted my head and I smiled and went near to her, she said

"hello I am Lara by the way my uncle gave me two chocolates do you want

one? " I said yes because chocolate was my favorite, looking at my happy

face she gave me another chocolate and said "I don't like chocolates you

can also have mine". I knew that Lara loved chocolates but for my

happiness she she gave her share to me, from that moment I came to know good

people still exist in this world and their is still love. I belonged to a rich

family with all luxury, but the thing which was lacking in my life was love, my

mother and my father were both involved in our family business but they were

never involved with each other I feel they were always busy with their personal

life and never concentrated on me. I was just 8 so I didn't knew what was

exactly going on? every year all my summer vacations I spent in my room and I

think I also developed social anxiety but one day my father came to me, he said

"I have booked the tickets and this vacation you are going to your Aunt's

house, so remember don't trouble them okay dear?", I was very happy I

thought at last my father cared for me but the reason was something else.

Anyways I was only 8 years so I didn't knew why they sent me but I saw a new

type of atmosphere, I was kind of full of positivity. Lara was a very naughty

friend of mine and she was crazy, at morning my Aunt used to bathe me and Lara

and dressed us in a very pretty manner we both used to walk hand in hand every

where we go, once she climbed up on the tree and she gave me some mangoes I

wanted to have even more so I also climbed up and we ate about 20 mangoes and

at the time of dinner, we took scolding from our Aunt, but when I was scolded

I never felt like crying but I was very happy instead, because my parents never

scolded me they were always busy in their own world. But I found my new world

my new happiness when I was with Lara. we used to climb up on trees, get

scolding from Aunt, we played with mud and one day by mistake in summer season

it rained Lara immediately rushed in the garden she also called me but I never

experienced getting wet in rain but looking at Lara's happiness I wanted to

join so I went out in the garden my Aunt also accompanied me, I never had such

happiness in my entire life, my Aunt danced with me and my uncle who was in his

study room hearing our sound came out and joined us, whenever I looked at my

uncle and Aunt I always questioned that "why my parents are not like

them?" but happy days doesn't last long and my summer vacation ended I was

called back by my parents, I have to leave my Aunt and Lara, I cried a lot but

they took me and I was again locked up in that big room, but I had a hope that

I will meet them in next summer vacation but I never knew that their was

something else written in my fate. unexpectedly one day I was taken to court

after my school and the judge asked me "with whom you want to stay?"

I was stunned but I felt my father was a good man so I said I wanted to stay

with my father but my father immediately replied "sorry your honour I can't

keep this child with me because I feel I can't love her like her mother"

and suddenly my mother replied "Excuse me your honour  I feel that

this child don't want to live with me so don't force her and send her to her

father" I was really speechless. Really!  you not even once mentioned

me as your own child but you guys addressed me as 'this child' if you wanted to

abandon me then why did you gave birth to me what was my mistake?  what

was my fault?

to be continued...

Judge gave his judgement and told me to stay with my father, I was happy but

when I looked at my father I saw he was frowning and when I looked at my mother

she had a victory smile, experiencing that situation I felt that they really

never wanted me, but I was just 8 years old so I ignored all this, thinking

that I am a little girl but I should have known that I am no longer a little

girl, I went to stay with my father but I felt that it was my biggest mistake.

I completed my 8 years and my summer vacation was very close and my results

were revealed and as usual I was a top student in my class I  was very

happy not with my results but to go to my Aunt's house, I went to my father and

told him

"look dad I am highest, so can I go to my Aunt this time, please dad!"

but I never expected such reply from him his reply was an attack to my heart

"I wish you were never born, I told that women to abort the child but that

stupid women blackmailed me and she as soon as you were born she gave all your

responsibilities to me and now she completely left this child on me and you!

you are sucking my blood, just go away don't come to me again!  go!"

I was really speechless I was stunned was he really my dad? my dad was never

like this I thought I can never see my Aunt now as soon I could recover a women

came to my house and that women was my father's second wife. I thought finally

my father found a mother for me but I was wrong he actually found a wife for

him, she never noticed me, she never took care of me, but I said "it's okay,

don't be sad you will be happy soon".

I always consoled myself but I never knew I was born with a cursed fate. I

was rich but I felt that money can give you status, power, food, shelter but

you can never buy love, a love that a child wants from his parents, a love

which gives you happiness, this time I wasn't looked in my room but I was just

hiding myself and looked myself in the room, I didn't got my parents love, what

was my fault?                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     I was 10 years old , I was alone but alive I never thought about my father

but I only cared about my studies, I never had any friend but I was a subject

of gossip for others. I ignored them and all the gossips.

I never cared about anything in my life but that night! that scary night is

still in my mind! It was a rainy night and I was afraid with those lightening

and sounds of thunder so I hide myself under my bed but at last I was scared so

I took my blanket and went to my father's room but when I entered the room I

was stunned, I saw my father was having sex with that women and that damn women

saw me but she ignored me she never thought about my feeling as I was just 10

years old instead of controlling she purposely screamed so loudly and started

jumping, she removed the blanket which covered them and she started screaming

"Ah.. Ah.. faster ..go deep.. Ah" I was scared I immediately ran and

because of those sounds of thunder I just squatted down and closed my ears, I

was shivering and then someone patted on my shoulder, he said "it's okay

my child don't be scared" I just leaned on him and he took me to my room I

hugged him so tightly and he was just consoling me.

to be continued...