Song for Soul and Anxiety 2

(disclaimer)

Jethro menarik nafasnya. Dan mulai mengeluarkan suaranya yang berat namun merdu,

"Now I will penetrate you with my desire

And make you feel it in the depths of your head

I'm the messiah that will release all your sense,

so wanna find out how it feel... to take me in?

As you, alone... await your loneliness,

I, by your side, said "I'm here smiling."

As though to pluck your ripened fruit,

I kept on controlling you

After many nights, I finally understood

The emotions steering me from the inside

Unwilling to accept that fact,

I erased my thoughts by shattering them

Ah- Embrace or be embraced by desire,

just which one will give me salvation?

Today I'm facing this same dilemma again

In this endless night... I'm lying on top of you

I wanna begin your love... "

Messiah or Desire (Len Kagamine)

Seisi kelas tak merespon banyak. Kecuali bertepuk tangan pelan. Lagu cinta yang dinyanyikan dengan sepenuh perasaan. Seolah ditujukan pada seseorang. Sebelum kembali duduk. Jethro melihat Millhewi sebentar. Tersenyum. Gadis itu menunduk tak habis pikir.

Sementara itu hati Maurice berpendapat lain. Merasa harus bisa memberikan penampilan yang lebih baik. Untuk "messiah" pujaannya.

Saat namanya dipanggil Maurice hampir melupakan seluruh lirik lagu yang akan ia nyanyikan. Karena terlalu gugup. Ia harap Millhewi merasakan. Bahwa lagu ini dipersembahkan untuknya. Untuk hidup.

Di balik itu semua. Sang Setan tetap menebarkan terornya dalam rahasia. Dipilihnya suatu lagu yang begitu mewakili perasaannya. Meski suaranya sering dimiripkan dengan contralto. Ia tetap percaya diri.

"The scene I've seen before is dyed in sepia

As I look up into the boring sky,

I can't help but sigh again and again on the afternoon

I'd be crushed by loneliness and go crazy

Even the memory, lies and truths I was deprived of

Sinking my thought, time passes cruelly

Without even knowing why I'm here now

You were cruelly silent

By the depths of your eye

I promised eternity to save you out of here

Taken in by poison as if to be noctambulous

Your profile was too bright to see

The light dazzlingly shining is an illusion

I'll offer my prayers over and over again

Even if I know it would be a sin...

Remember

Falling into darkness..."

Immoral Memory (Vana n' Ice)

Hatinya bagai membeku. Kala lagi-lagi Maurice memberikan pandangan yang seolah mengatakan, lagu ini kupersembahkan untuk hidupmu. Lagu yang dinyanyikan oleh Jethro maupun Maurice amat familiar di telinganya. Millhewi berusaha contradict akan pikirannya pada dua lelaki itu. Misinya hanya satu. Dan ia harus fokus.

Saat ia akan maju. Anak sekelas tertawa-tawa kecil. Seolah yakin bahwa Millhewi akan melakukan sesuatu yang memalukan. Ditundukkan kepalanya dan diatur rongga tenggorokan. Guna memastikan hanya suara merdu yang akan muncul. Contrary dari pendapat mereka. Millhewi akan membuktikannya.

"The voice of the wind swirling around in Winter

I can hear it in my ears and it makes me tremble

I look over to see your breath colored white

It looks really cold

The time has come for life to wither away

Knowing the fact that it will rust away

I really want to be able to live further on

I want to keep on singing songs

I want people to remember me in the world

Proof that I really did live once upon a time

I understood these feelings and what they were

My time ran out and I couldn't tell you it

But, deep in my heart I know we share a soul

I never alone

You always with me"

Proof of Life (Len dan Rin Kagamine)

Millhewi menutup penampilannya dengan senyum sarkastis. Berbeda dengan penampilan yang sudah-sudah. Dimana diakhiri dengan tepuk tangan. Tak ada yang bersuara saat ia mengakhiri nyanyiannya. Dalam pandangan Maurice maupun Jethro, bisa jadi itu karena flabbergasted. Masalahnya suara yang Millhewi keluarkan begitu bening dan mulus nyaris tanpa cacat. Berbeda jauh dengan suaranya saat bicara. Namun, pertanyaan yang sama muncul di dalam hati dua pemuda tampan itu.

Untuk siapakah lagu itu ia nyanyikan?

Saat Millhewi menyelesaikan nyanyiannya. Ia melihat keluar jendela kelas yang menghadap lorong. Ia tersenyum pada sosok yang berjalan di balik jendela itu. Bukan Jethro. Bukan Maurice. Hanya kepada Sailendra.

Tanpa ia sadari lelaki yang siap menorehkan nilai sempurna di buku nilainya itu. Mendengarkan dengan seksama dalam kekaguman yang amat menggejolak. Perasaan yang sama yang dialami oleh Pak Henry. Yang membuatnya melakukan...

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Ketika istirahat. Meskipun tetap dibenci. Kini Millhewi mulai berani melangkah lebih jauh. Meski terancam diserang lagi oleh anak-anak yang selalu mem-bully-nya. Kali ini ia harus menemui seseorang. Dilangkahkan kakinya tergesa menuju kolam renang.

Sesampainya di sana ia telah menunggu. Menatap kejauhan sambil memasukkan kedua tangan ke saku celana. Tanpa mengetahui Millhewi siap mengejutkannya.

"Sailendra!" tepuknya di kedua bahu pemuda itu.

Keduanya duduk bersisian. Seperti sepasang kekasih. Mereka berdua seolah masuk ke dalam dunia mereka sendiri. Meninggalkan dunia nyata yang selalu menyakiti.

"Aku tak tahu harus melakukan apa pada mereka," ucap Millhewi.

"Kamu tak perlu risau." Disingkapnya poni Millhewi lembut. Memperlihatkan eyepatch lambang kesadisan dunia. Yang seringkali tertutupi.

"Terima kasih banyak atas bantuannya selama ini, Sailendra."

"Tidak perlu berterima kasih. Aku melakukan ini semua untuk Anes."

"Kamu senang melakukan sesuatu untuk orang lain?" tanya Millhewi.

"Dia bukan orang lain. Deminya aku akan melakukan apa pun. Ialah hidupku," jawab Sailendra.

Sailendra memutar ingatan indahnya bersama Anes. Senyumannya, kebaikan hatinya, wajahnya, segalanya. Dan itu semua harus terenggut... karena tempat ini. Semuanya karena wanita yang bersinggahsana di atas air mata itu.

Millhewi menaruh kepalanya di pundak Sailendra. Merasakan hembusan angin sejuk.

Sailendra tak berkata apa pun. Dilihatnya wajah Millhewi yang persis menyerupai Anes. Yang dengan kejam terenggut seluruh kepunyaannya.

Sailendra melihat Millhewi. Teman masa kecilnya mengalami nasib yang sangat mirip dengan Anes. Meskipun harus mengotori tangannya. Ia akan melakukan apa pun untuk meruntuhkan kebenaran yang palsu dan kejam ini.

Dunia itu kejam. Khususnya bagi orang lemah. Makadari itu seseorang untuk bertahan. Harus memiliki kekuatan.

"Mungkin yang akan menghancurkan kita itu Maurice, lho," kata Millhewi.

"Tidak perlu khawatir."

Sailendra mengeluarkan sebuah buku kecil dari kantong dalam blazernya. Di buku itu jelas tampak judul yang bertuliskan Millhewi Amega Amorgan. Gabungan dari namanya, nama gadis di sampingnya, dan nama adik tercintanya. Tulisan di dalamnya memuat daftar rahasia sang setan. Mungkin?

"Apa kamu hanya menganggapku sebagai pengganti Anes?" tanya Millhewi.

"Kita lihat saja nanti," jawab Sailendra.

Millhewi menunduk lesu. "Sayang sekali."

Ini. Adalah dendam.

(disclaimer)

Apa yang Millhewi dan Sailendra rencanakan?

Apakah mereka akan kembali meminta bantuan sang setan?

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- Gabisa bahasa Inggris:)
- Kayanya Millhewi jahat deh, atau emang dia pelakunya?
- Tapi kayanya Millhewi balas dendam
- Oiya thor, Sailendra itu cewe/cowo?

2021-06-22

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Episodes
1 Voice in the Twilight
2 First Day in Nusantara Senja
3 Second Day in Nusantara Senja
4 Third Moment in Nusantara Senja
5 Fourth Day for Maurice Anandratama Saputra Haryo
6 Past for Maurice Anandratama Saputra Haryo
7 Today for Jethro Dick Rise Rivanno
8 Question for Sailendra Fathillah Amorgan 1
9 Question for Sailendra Fathillah Amorgan 2
10 Guilt for Jethro and Maurice
11 Song for Soul and Anxiety 1
12 Song for Soul and Anxiety 2
13 Sense of Life for Sense of Lost 1
14 Sense of Life for Sense of Lost 2
15 Sense of Life for Sense of Lost 3
16 Sense of Life for Sense of Lost 4
17 Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 1
18 Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 2
19 Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 3
20 Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 4
21 Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 5
22 Vessel for Milquetoast 1
23 Vessel for Milquetoast 2
24 Vessel for Desperate 1
25 Vessel for Desperate 2
26 Vessel for Desperate 3
27 Vessel for Desperate 4
28 What They Want (1-A)
29 What They Want (1-B)
30 What They Want (1-C)
31 What They Want (2-A)
32 What They Want (2-B)
33 What They Want (3-A)
34 Menemukan yang Kau Cari?
35 Pengumuman novel Scenery Out the Window of CORRUPTION
36 Maurice pada: Bumi Cen Xi
37 Luka Bumi
38 @A_A_A_
39 Artelier's Canyon of Madness
40 Luka Bumi Cen Xi's End
41 Alasan Bumi
42 The Answer?
43 Doa Bumi
44 C111A46G571
45 Way of Me
46 Ally on the Blanket
47 Their Spirit
48 Their Decision
49 Rotten Apple
50 Bumi's Violation
51 Chen Xi's Deviations
52 Dream Vs. Dreaming
53 Morisery Offer
54 Among Them
55 Undergoing Suffering
56 Important Promise
57 Real Stupper
58 Equals
59 Their Minds
60 Going into Her Room
61 Reason for a Treason
62 Marcy's Wish
63 Meeting of Two Streams of Springs
64 False Dream
65 Fallen into Heaven
66 Their First Meeting
67 Curse of Hope
68 Their Bond
69 Patency
70 Human Hope
71 We Need to Talk About the Machine
72 The Beginning of a Disability
73 Gorge
74 That Happened to Him
75 Their Destiny
76 The Return of Earth's Destiny
77 The Dancing Hell
78 Reality Shun the Sun.
79 Morisery and Malika: Mereka
80 Pengumuman novel Scenery Out the Window of DESTRUCTION
81 Red Thread Blood Bonds
82 Serving Fate
83 Coercion
84 Fate to God
85 No Way Out
86 Tachyon
87 Death of Starlight
88 Reality of the Dim Star
89 Comparison
90 Absentis Fragmina
91 Dance of the Destiny of the Sun
92 Destroy or Get Rid of
93 The Meeting of Two Reverse Current
94 Mad Love
95 Trust in Wind Dust
96 The Storm's Implicit Smiles
97 Black Star Sheen
98 Manifestations of the Black Hole Ruler
99 Reluctance of the Black Hole Ruler
100 Madness Element of Furies
101 Not a Bit Ironic Apathy
102 Irony for the Ruler of the Black Hole
103 Light Shines on the Edge of a Cliff
104 Chaos
105 Esperano a-te
106 End or Beginning?
107 Scenery of Destruction
108 Bumi's True Plan
109 His Breakcity
110 Beginning of End for Light
111 tres Horae
112 Star Wound Optimistic Suggestions
113 Destiny
114 "Earth's" Destruction
115 Let Me In
116 Digital Destruction
117 Hurricane of Life
118 Destruction Preparation
119 Digital Doomsday
120 Maurice's Conclusion 1
121 Scenery Out the Window of Avior
122 Visualitation of Hope
123 Wielder
124 His Identity
125 T Reason
126 Figure Behind the Name
127 Dynasty
128 Punishment
129 Arsa Offer
130 God's Right Hand Plan
131 Love Statement
132 Treachery
133 Relation entre les humains
134 Kaisar's Beliefs
135 Authentical Proof
136 Fil emmêlé
137 Holy Grail
138 Unreality
139 Fake Throne
140 Innovation for Destruction
141 Cross Sanguine
142 Writer Project
143 Secret Dimension
144 True Reaction
145 Duelity
146 Another Rate
147 Black Sample
148 Dualism Wielder
149 Tasa
150 Writer Uncompleted Reveal
151 Ozora
152 Dalang Dialang
153 Surmise
154 Defense
155 End of Battle
156 Avior
157 Welcher, Kaisar?
158 Ihr Schicksal
159 Ende von Mihal
160 Schatten
161 Naomi Schicht
162 그 얼굴의 소유자
163 Next Case
164 New Stage
165 Blast of Heart
166 Ghindara's Decision. Or Not?
167 Anastasia Love
168 Final Destination
169 Public Enemies
170 MIHAL
171 brOKen
172 Some Sick Bastard
173 Awaken
174 Macabre
175 Maurice's Pre-Conclusion 1
176 Maurice's Meeting Back
177 Which Part
178 Wicker Think
179 Maurice's Amisit Iterumque
180 Maurice's on Noir Grotesque: Noir
181 Maurice's on Noir Grotesque: Grotesque
182 Maurice's Today is
183 Scenery Out the Window of Acute Myself
184 Acute Myself Zero
185 Acute Myself One
186 Acute Myself Two
187 Acute Myself Three
188 Acute Myself Four
189 Acute Myself Five
190 Acute Myself Six
191 Acute Myself Seven
192 Acute Myself Eight
193 Acute Myself Nine
194 Acute Myself Ten
195 Acute Myself Eleven
196 Acute Myself Twelve
197 Acute Myself Thirteen
198 Acute Myself Fourteen
199 Acute Myself Fifteen
200 Acute Myself Sixteen
201 Acute Myself Seventeen
202 Acute Myself Eighteen
203 Acute Myself Nineteen
204 Acute Myself Twenty
205 Acute Myself Twenty One
206 Acute Myself Twenty Two
207 Acute Myself Twenty Three
208 Acute Myself Twenty Four
209 Acute Myself Twenty Five
210 Acute Myself Twenty Six
211 Acute Myself Twenty Seven
212 Acute Myself Twenty Eight
213 Acute Myself Twenty Nine
214 Acute Myself Thirty
215 Acute Myself Thirty One
216 Acute Myself Thirty Two
217 Acute Myself Thirty Three
218 Acute Myself Thirty Four
219 Acute Myself Thirty Five
220 Acute Myself Thirty Six
221 Acute Myself Thirty Seven
222 Acute Myself Thirty Eight
223 Acute Myself Thirty Nine
224 Acute Myself Fourty
225 Acute Myself Fourty One
226 Acute Myself Fourty Two
227 Acute Myself Fourty Three
228 Acute Myself Fourty Four
229 Acute Myself Fourty Five
230 Acute Myself Fourty Six
231 Acute Myself Fourty Seven
232 Acute Myself Fourty Eight
233 Acute Myself Fourty Nine
234 Acute Myself Fifty
235 Acute Myself Fifty One
236 Acute Myself Fifty Two
237 Acute Myself Fifty Three
238 Acute Myself Fifty Four
239 Acute Myself Fifty Five
240 Acute Myself Fifty Six
241 Acute Myself Fifty Seven
242 Acute Myself Fifty Eight
243 Acute Myself Fifty Nine
244 Uncertainty of Maurice's Predestination
245 (Acute) Maurice's Pre Conclusion 2
246 Maurice's Little Trick
247 Acute Myself Sixty
248 Acute Myself Sixty One
249 Acute Myself Sixty Two
250 Acute Myself Sixty Three
251 Pengumuman... haseyo!
252 Pengumuman: HOROR BARU!!!
Episodes

Updated 252 Episodes

1
Voice in the Twilight
2
First Day in Nusantara Senja
3
Second Day in Nusantara Senja
4
Third Moment in Nusantara Senja
5
Fourth Day for Maurice Anandratama Saputra Haryo
6
Past for Maurice Anandratama Saputra Haryo
7
Today for Jethro Dick Rise Rivanno
8
Question for Sailendra Fathillah Amorgan 1
9
Question for Sailendra Fathillah Amorgan 2
10
Guilt for Jethro and Maurice
11
Song for Soul and Anxiety 1
12
Song for Soul and Anxiety 2
13
Sense of Life for Sense of Lost 1
14
Sense of Life for Sense of Lost 2
15
Sense of Life for Sense of Lost 3
16
Sense of Life for Sense of Lost 4
17
Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 1
18
Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 2
19
Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 3
20
Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 4
21
Immoral Memory of Pathetic Person 5
22
Vessel for Milquetoast 1
23
Vessel for Milquetoast 2
24
Vessel for Desperate 1
25
Vessel for Desperate 2
26
Vessel for Desperate 3
27
Vessel for Desperate 4
28
What They Want (1-A)
29
What They Want (1-B)
30
What They Want (1-C)
31
What They Want (2-A)
32
What They Want (2-B)
33
What They Want (3-A)
34
Menemukan yang Kau Cari?
35
Pengumuman novel Scenery Out the Window of CORRUPTION
36
Maurice pada: Bumi Cen Xi
37
Luka Bumi
38
@A_A_A_
39
Artelier's Canyon of Madness
40
Luka Bumi Cen Xi's End
41
Alasan Bumi
42
The Answer?
43
Doa Bumi
44
C111A46G571
45
Way of Me
46
Ally on the Blanket
47
Their Spirit
48
Their Decision
49
Rotten Apple
50
Bumi's Violation
51
Chen Xi's Deviations
52
Dream Vs. Dreaming
53
Morisery Offer
54
Among Them
55
Undergoing Suffering
56
Important Promise
57
Real Stupper
58
Equals
59
Their Minds
60
Going into Her Room
61
Reason for a Treason
62
Marcy's Wish
63
Meeting of Two Streams of Springs
64
False Dream
65
Fallen into Heaven
66
Their First Meeting
67
Curse of Hope
68
Their Bond
69
Patency
70
Human Hope
71
We Need to Talk About the Machine
72
The Beginning of a Disability
73
Gorge
74
That Happened to Him
75
Their Destiny
76
The Return of Earth's Destiny
77
The Dancing Hell
78
Reality Shun the Sun.
79
Morisery and Malika: Mereka
80
Pengumuman novel Scenery Out the Window of DESTRUCTION
81
Red Thread Blood Bonds
82
Serving Fate
83
Coercion
84
Fate to God
85
No Way Out
86
Tachyon
87
Death of Starlight
88
Reality of the Dim Star
89
Comparison
90
Absentis Fragmina
91
Dance of the Destiny of the Sun
92
Destroy or Get Rid of
93
The Meeting of Two Reverse Current
94
Mad Love
95
Trust in Wind Dust
96
The Storm's Implicit Smiles
97
Black Star Sheen
98
Manifestations of the Black Hole Ruler
99
Reluctance of the Black Hole Ruler
100
Madness Element of Furies
101
Not a Bit Ironic Apathy
102
Irony for the Ruler of the Black Hole
103
Light Shines on the Edge of a Cliff
104
Chaos
105
Esperano a-te
106
End or Beginning?
107
Scenery of Destruction
108
Bumi's True Plan
109
His Breakcity
110
Beginning of End for Light
111
tres Horae
112
Star Wound Optimistic Suggestions
113
Destiny
114
"Earth's" Destruction
115
Let Me In
116
Digital Destruction
117
Hurricane of Life
118
Destruction Preparation
119
Digital Doomsday
120
Maurice's Conclusion 1
121
Scenery Out the Window of Avior
122
Visualitation of Hope
123
Wielder
124
His Identity
125
T Reason
126
Figure Behind the Name
127
Dynasty
128
Punishment
129
Arsa Offer
130
God's Right Hand Plan
131
Love Statement
132
Treachery
133
Relation entre les humains
134
Kaisar's Beliefs
135
Authentical Proof
136
Fil emmêlé
137
Holy Grail
138
Unreality
139
Fake Throne
140
Innovation for Destruction
141
Cross Sanguine
142
Writer Project
143
Secret Dimension
144
True Reaction
145
Duelity
146
Another Rate
147
Black Sample
148
Dualism Wielder
149
Tasa
150
Writer Uncompleted Reveal
151
Ozora
152
Dalang Dialang
153
Surmise
154
Defense
155
End of Battle
156
Avior
157
Welcher, Kaisar?
158
Ihr Schicksal
159
Ende von Mihal
160
Schatten
161
Naomi Schicht
162
그 얼굴의 소유자
163
Next Case
164
New Stage
165
Blast of Heart
166
Ghindara's Decision. Or Not?
167
Anastasia Love
168
Final Destination
169
Public Enemies
170
MIHAL
171
brOKen
172
Some Sick Bastard
173
Awaken
174
Macabre
175
Maurice's Pre-Conclusion 1
176
Maurice's Meeting Back
177
Which Part
178
Wicker Think
179
Maurice's Amisit Iterumque
180
Maurice's on Noir Grotesque: Noir
181
Maurice's on Noir Grotesque: Grotesque
182
Maurice's Today is
183
Scenery Out the Window of Acute Myself
184
Acute Myself Zero
185
Acute Myself One
186
Acute Myself Two
187
Acute Myself Three
188
Acute Myself Four
189
Acute Myself Five
190
Acute Myself Six
191
Acute Myself Seven
192
Acute Myself Eight
193
Acute Myself Nine
194
Acute Myself Ten
195
Acute Myself Eleven
196
Acute Myself Twelve
197
Acute Myself Thirteen
198
Acute Myself Fourteen
199
Acute Myself Fifteen
200
Acute Myself Sixteen
201
Acute Myself Seventeen
202
Acute Myself Eighteen
203
Acute Myself Nineteen
204
Acute Myself Twenty
205
Acute Myself Twenty One
206
Acute Myself Twenty Two
207
Acute Myself Twenty Three
208
Acute Myself Twenty Four
209
Acute Myself Twenty Five
210
Acute Myself Twenty Six
211
Acute Myself Twenty Seven
212
Acute Myself Twenty Eight
213
Acute Myself Twenty Nine
214
Acute Myself Thirty
215
Acute Myself Thirty One
216
Acute Myself Thirty Two
217
Acute Myself Thirty Three
218
Acute Myself Thirty Four
219
Acute Myself Thirty Five
220
Acute Myself Thirty Six
221
Acute Myself Thirty Seven
222
Acute Myself Thirty Eight
223
Acute Myself Thirty Nine
224
Acute Myself Fourty
225
Acute Myself Fourty One
226
Acute Myself Fourty Two
227
Acute Myself Fourty Three
228
Acute Myself Fourty Four
229
Acute Myself Fourty Five
230
Acute Myself Fourty Six
231
Acute Myself Fourty Seven
232
Acute Myself Fourty Eight
233
Acute Myself Fourty Nine
234
Acute Myself Fifty
235
Acute Myself Fifty One
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Acute Myself Fifty Two
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Acute Myself Fifty Three
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Acute Myself Fifty Four
239
Acute Myself Fifty Five
240
Acute Myself Fifty Six
241
Acute Myself Fifty Seven
242
Acute Myself Fifty Eight
243
Acute Myself Fifty Nine
244
Uncertainty of Maurice's Predestination
245
(Acute) Maurice's Pre Conclusion 2
246
Maurice's Little Trick
247
Acute Myself Sixty
248
Acute Myself Sixty One
249
Acute Myself Sixty Two
250
Acute Myself Sixty Three
251
Pengumuman... haseyo!
252
Pengumuman: HOROR BARU!!!

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