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See How Much I Love You

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Chapter 2

☄️ Asteria ☄️

Flashback: During high school

"Asteria"

I heard someone call me as I was erasing the writings on the blackboard.

"are you on day duty by yourself again?"

I turned around and looked at Cyrus' worried expression on his face.

"Irene's supposed to do it too, right?" he said as he walked closer to me from where I'm standing, "Should I go remind her?"

"I-it's fine." I stuttered. "She's busy with her club," I gripped the dirty rag in between my sweaty hands. "so people who aren't busy should do it."

"And surprisingly," I shyly smiled at him "it helps me review what we've learned."

He just stared at me, surprised.

He grabbed the blackboard's eraser and started helping me wipe.

"Cy-- Cyrus." I was surprised by what he did.

"You're right." he said while flashing me a small smile.

~ ☄️ ~

Cyrus was someone who was kind to everyone.

After that we started studying together.

He's usually with the charismatic people, but it's amazing that he's nice to people like me...

I thought as I tried to sneak a glance at him while pretending to read a book. He's right in front of me as we shared my small desk.

"Ae, your eyes." I flinched. Is he going to say some nasty comments about my eyes too?

"... Makes you look like you're smiling all of the time." he said, never taking his eyes off the book that he's reading but I can hear the genuineness in his voice as he smiled.

"It's nice."

It took me by surprise and seconds later, I felt my face heat up and I couldn't stop myself from hiding my face behind the book that I was holding.

Thinking that it was weird because we're both from different worlds. He was popular and I was always bullied by my classmates.

I acted like I wasn't looking so he wouldn't notice.

As I secretly watched Cyrus.

End of Flashback

But it was no good.

I think he started bullying me because I started liking him despite being weird because of my eyes.

Even though I tried to keep him from noticing.

I couldn't hide it.

That's why he felt disgusted.

Because I believed that he had no choice.

I never despised Cyrus.

~ ☄️ ~

"Ae."

He touched my cheeks and softly tilted my head to look into his face.

Cyrus can feel around my eyes.

That's what it means to close them.

I closed my eyes as he started kissing me again. It was only a short kiss but I gasped for air. I shyly covered my mouth.

I've gotten pretty used to kissing.

I like it a lot...

I think.

"Don't slack off!" we both heard the club president shout right outside the door.

~ ☄️ ~

"Ae."

Cyrus said so I turned to look at him.

"The activity report is due next monday, right?" he said "Have you decided on what you'll submit?"

"No, not yet..." I answered him shyly.

"Then there's this place I want to go to..."

~ ☄️ ~

"Wow, what a nice view!" I excitedly said.

"To think that you knew such a place in the west coast of Zamboanga..."

*snap* *snap*

"Aep." he said. "Let's take one together."

"Wha--" this took me by surprise.

"A-are you sure you're fine" I started panicking "with me being in the picture too?"

~ ☄️ ~

*snap*

I never thought about taking a picture with Cyrus with me in it...

I feel really happy that my heart won't stop beating as I stared at the newly taken photo of us.

*snap*

"I got a nice shot." he said as he smiled at his phone.

"Eh? Let me see!" I said excitedly.

He showed me the picture on his phone and I saw myself smiling as I looked at my phone.

"But that's me!" I shouted feeling panicky as I looked up at him.

"It's because you're cute, Ae." he said as he looked at my photo on his phone.

I blushed at what he said.

"Your facial expressions change a lot, so I never get bored." he genuinely smiled. "I can just stard at you and wonder what you're thinking about."

"Cy--Cyrus, you're crazy..." I said covering my face with both of my hands. "My eyes are like this, you know..."

"I like them."

"It's like you're always smiling."

He said giving me the same look from junior high.

That smile...

That same smile...

As I thought, I really do like him.

No matter how many times we meet, I'll probably fall in love with him every time.

"But I'm glad we came." he said which made me stop from reminiscing the past.

"You smiled for me after all." he said looking at the sea below us.

But it's different from before.

Cyrus also likes me.

I'm so happy...

I feel my whole face heat up and my heart beats rapidly. I sneaked a glance at him and I saw him blushing slightly which made me turn my face away.

He cupped my face with both of his hands which made me jumped slightly in surprise.

He squeezed my cheeks softly and slowly brought his face close to mine and opened his mouth.

He inserted his tongue in my mouth and started kissing me deeply.

"Cy--Cyr--Cyrus!" I said surprised as I pushed him but he didn't budge he just broke the kiss. "Your tongue..."

"Can I not?" he asked innocently. I just stared at him as I feel my face heat up.

This isn't fair...

He continued kissing me with his eyes wide open, he satred at me which made me even more shy so I chose to close my eyes he continued the kiss from earlier.

*Shlick*

"...mn--"

"u--"

*Shlick*

"..."

This sound is so...

"Nn"

My knees began to tremble uncontrollably he finally broke the kiss as I gasped for air and my knees gave off. I staggered and sat.

"Cy--Cyrus, you're too lewd..." I said as I looked up at him while I tightly covered my mouth since I'm a blushing mess right now.

"I'm not a kid anymore after all." he said as he handed out a hand to me.

I stretched out my right hand as my left hand remained on my mouth. I stared deep into his raven eyes.

Then...

Then that means...

~ ☄️ ~

*thump*

I sat on the shotgun of his car as he silently drived I covered my face with my bag.

"Ae, you live in Mercedes*, right?"

*A barangay in Zamboanga City, Philippines

"Y-yeah?" I said embarrassed as I looked at him. "My house is there!"

"W-what about you?"

"I live in Johnston Subdivision*."

*A subdivision in Baliwasan, Zamboanga City

Huh?

"Then shouldn't you go to college by bike? Or just by walking you can arrive at the campus by 3 to 4 minutes." I absent-mindedly said "Why do you always ride the car?"

I saw the corners of his mouth curve into a small smile. "Ahh, you found out." he stopped the car right beside the highway. I saw him cover his face as he bent forward.

After a couple of seconds he placed his hands on his mouth and said while blushing, "It's because I want..." he paused and took a deep breath.

"...To go to school with you."

I blushed at that and looked away.

"I--I see."

"Would you like me to bring you to school everyday?"

"W-wha--what! You don't have to!"

He pouted sadly, "Please? It will be much more convenient for you."

"But what about you?"

"It's fine, I just want to see your face every morning." he said smiling "so?"

"U-uhm that will be nice."

"Do you want to come over to my house?"

"Can I?"

~ ☄️ ~

We passed by SM City Mindpro* to buy groceries for our dinner.

*A shopping mall in Zamboanga City

"Let's stop by the drug store." he said while we were paying for the foodstuffs that we bought.

"Yeah." I happily nodded.

As we entered the pharmacy, he headed towards the condoms and picked up a couple of condoms.

I don't know what to react, I just looked at him absently.

As he was paying for the condoms my mind suddenly figured out what was going to happen later. I blushed at the thought.

As we were walking towards the parking lot I walked behind him as I shyly looked downwards the whole time.

"Cy--rus." he turned around.

"Are you coming?" he showed me the same smile as when we were still young.

I feel my face heat up slightly he waited for me to catch up to him.

I feel the loud pounding in my heart.

*thump*

*thump

*thump*

I was scared that he'll be able to hear the loud beating of my heart.

Every little step I take feels like I'm walking on the edge of a high building, that if I missed a step I'll fall anytime without anyone catching me.

He stared at me so I just looked down the whole time until I reached his car.

~ ☄️ ~

We were happily chatting about our past, I think my face was red the whole time since I can't stop thinking about the things that he bought at the pharmacy.

"Our teacher's lessons..." I said reminiscing the past.

"He's strict about attendance." he answered happily.

*thump*

I felt my heart jump when he touched my hand as his face moved closer to mine.

*thud*

He pushed me onto the bed.

"Cy--Cyrus..." I nervously said. "This is my first time..."

My eyes started tearing up because of embarrassment. "I don't know much, so..."

"Yeah, I'll do my best." he whispered to me huskily. "Leave it to me."

He leaned forward to give me a deep kiss.

Will it be alright?

Am I acting weird?

He started removing my shirt bjt as he did so, ugly thoughts began flooding my mind even more

I look like a monster but...

What should I do if the Cyrus who likes me right now saw my ugly body and is repulsed then just acted calmly?

*thud*

I pushed him away which took him by surprise. I didn't notice that I started tearing up as I stared into his eyes.

I'm scared.

"S-sorry. It's just embarrassing..." I said as I looked down on my lap.

He looked at me with a worried look on his face.

He got out of bed.

As expected but I'm not going to blame him.

I knew right from the start that I'm annoying.

"Then wear this, Ae." He said, I looked up to see hwta was in his hand.

He showed me his blue tie. "A necktie...?" I looked at him confused.

"Cover your eyes with this." he answered.

I couldn't read the expression on his face. "Being unable to see will keep your mind off of it." He said coldly?

"T--then if you turn off the lights..." I started but he still tied it without waiting for me to agree.

"I want to see you." he said.

He tightened the small piece of clothing in order to cover my vision.

"...D--Don't I look weird...?" I asked him nervously.

"You look fine." he answered me.

~ ☄️ Warning : Smut ☄️ ~

He pushed me to lay down on the bed I felt him towering over me as I lie down on my side. He removed my bra and started licking my nipples.

"HYA~" I said as I felt his cold tongue glide against my chest.

He made sure to pay proper attention to both of my chest.

"Ah"

Because I can't see Cyrus' reactions, I'm not scared.

But it feels like I'm more sensitive.

I felt his manhood touch my female area which made me twitch.

Ah--

This

Is Cyrus'...

I'm glad, Cyrus.

You're hard.

He didn't penetrated me yet but he just thrusted his manhood into me which hits my clitoris everytime that made my toes curl up and my hands clenched the bed's sheets.

"Huff"

*gasp*

"Huff"

I breathe heavily.

It's hot.

My mind repeated over and over again.

Every place that Cyrus touches...

The only things I know of are the sensations he gives me.

I know only the places he touches really do exist.

"W--wait, Cyrus." I placed my hands onto his chest.

"What?" he asked while breathing heavily.

"We can't do..." I mumbled the last part.

"What? I didn't quite hear the last part." he gently said.

"I--I said, we can't do p--penetrative sex be--before getting married."

He didn't say anything else but I could feel him staring at me.

Is he mad at me?

"Cy--Cyrus?" I called out to him.

"I--I'm sorry." I started tearing up.

"No, don't be." he said kissing my forehead. "I can wait."

I wanted to cry at that moment, not because of sadness but because of happiness.

"But..." he continued, I can hear the embarrassment in his voice. "Can you help me with my hard--uhm... Hard on?"

I flushed at this.

"U--uh--uhm what should I do?" I askee him embarrassed.

~ ☄️ ~

*Squish*

*Shlick*

*Squish*

He told me to squeeze my thighs together.

He also removed the condom from earlier and he started thrusting rapidly in between my thighs.

Even though he didn't penetrated me I can't stop moaning because it kept on hitting my sensitive places.

"Cyrus--"

"Cyrus."

I kept on calling out to him and my body couldn't stop twitching.

"That feels weird."

"It feels weird."

"Ah--..." I squeezed my thighs even more.

"Ah~..."

"I'm glad..." he groaned. "You're feeling it."

I can only think about Cyrus.

*Shlick*

"I love you."

He said as I feel his dripping precum on the lower half of my body.

I started crying.

"Cy--" I opened up my arms, welcoming him into my arms. "Cyrus..."

I felt that he was taken aback for what I just did but he squeezed me into a tight hug.

"Huff..."

I felt my feminine area clenched up and that's when he continued to ****** between my thighs, still hugging me.

"Ah"

"Ah..."

Even though he bullied me. I could never hate Cyrus.

I was just

I was just sad.

I never thought that it would come true.

I felt the sweat drip from my forehead as I continued to moan his name over and over again.

Being hated only after falling in love with him

Was just so heart-breaking.

He paused.

And thrusted suddenly which hits my clitoris suddenly.

"Gasp"

"Huff"

He continued thrusting continuously which made me choke for air.

"Gasp"

*Pant*

"Are you okay?"

He asked while out of breath.

"Ae."

I don't understand what's going on anymore though.

"I--I'm fine." I said panting.

I can feel him staring at me again.

"I'm sorry." He leaned in to kiss me. "I'm sorry, Asteria."

"I'll try to make you feel good at least." he whispered huskily.

I wonder why he's apologizing.

I'm really happy, you know.

He thrusted into me again as I hugged him tightly. I cried uncontrollably because of happiness again.

Even though I couldn't keep liking him.

Cyrus is touching me.

"Ah--!"

I get to have him touch me.

He finally came into me as I felt his hot *** reach my chest.

"Huff"

Both of us tried to catch our breaths.

We're embracing each other like this.

"Huff"

I was scared for no reason.

If I had seen Cyrus' face right now.

I thought while touching his face with my hand as I feel him smile lovingly through my skin.

I'm sure I would have been really happy.

~ ☄️ ~

We did it again after several days but he told me to use the blindfold again.

I'm sitting on his lap this time as we made out.

Kissing is amazing.

"Ah--"

I felt his hand wander down my back.

"Ah--"

His touches felt so hot.

I got accustomed to Cyrus' body temperature.

Without it.

I think I'll feel lonely.

I feel him rubbing his semi hard-on in my lower half.

"Huff"

"Ae, you're getting wet. What's wrong?" he said as he licked my chest again.

"Do you want me to touch you?"

"...--"

I just nodded in response.

I wanted him to touch me.

I just wanted him to touch me.

"Then you don't need me to rub your womanhood?" he said as he spread my feminine area open which made me shake.

"Ah"

I threw my head back in ecstasy.

"Mn"

"Cyrus, you're so mean..."

He kissed me.

"Hey, tell me."

I couldn't figure out what he looks like right now.

"Touch..."

"Touch me..."

I feel him smile through my skin.

*thud*

He laid me down into the bed softly and he grabbed both of my legs and squeezed it together once again just like the first time we did it.

I felt the necktie come undone.

Ah, the necktie...

For the first time, I saw his needy expression which caught me by surprise but he quickly covered me eyes again using his hand, preventing me to see his face.

He fixed the blindfold then he kissed me as he squeezed my legs together as he kissed me deeply.

He thrusted into me hard which made me moan loudly.

"Ah--"

"Ah..."

~ ☄️ End of Smut ☄️ ~

I just finished taking a shower as I stared into the screen of my phone while blushing.

We made out multiple times after that.

*Fshhhhhhhh*

Right now Cyrus is taking a shower in his bathroom.

But Cyrus still thinks I get embarrassed even now.

So I wear a blindfold every time.

Even though I'm fine now...