chapter 1

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things are shattering I don't know what I am going to do....

but I am getting more and more crazy each day...

their are my thoughts that are getting control over me and I don't know how control them either.....

you know their is a thought that make my skin Crawl

And that thought is " someone else will touch her and her body"

everytime I think that this skin Crawl things happened......

I haven't been able to eat for days and now situation is going to get worse why cause my parents know that I have been suffering from something and I don't let them know how much broken I am ....

but they want to know but to be honest I wanna tell but each time I try I am out of word ....

so they have decided to take me to the councelling and see what will happen.......

it's been weeks my councelling take place and now everyone now everything about me and her and what happened I can eat properly now but I still can't control my thoughts , emotion and feeling I let loose them irrespective of the place .....

I am now afraid of going out with people cause I am afraid they will be my emotional breakdown.........

it's been months I haven't got out of my house my counselling take place in my room itself and I am back to human emotions .....

but things are still wobbly with my feelings and emotions but I am doing my best to take control over them .....

tomorrow is my life is going to change again good or bad i don't know....

you read and judge...

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today my life is changed my parents and councillor ask me something that really got my interest to its peak it's months something have caught my attention or intrest they asked me

"what you wanna do? you can do whatever yoy please to do"

I was like really yeah they're ready for anything they just want me too be healthy and strong again that's all they asked for from me so this time I really wanted to help myself to so I said give me some time I will be back with the answer what I wanna do.....

as per I asked they give me a whole day and a night to think about that.....this time when I entered my room I didn't felt chaos and the darkness that keep revolution around me and my bed where I spent my most of the day ...nor the thought of past and what she did to me and my life and all she left me with one freaking question can you live for me......

but this time I can feel the wind that is coming through the window and I can feel the cold and chilling wind that I coming through my window even it's cold it's feels fresh and on a paper I wrote in bold letters I wanna help me caused I can't tolerate this any longer , I can't see my parents sad anymore they are doing their best in their power to make me feel good but till I am not determined to do nothing will happen and and many small and big reason I can't think off to and then I took out another piece of paper and once again I wrote in bold letter what I wanna do ......

I was thinking while mum came with dinner and I had my dinner first cause after all this thinking and write it's been months I felt that good and comfortable with my parents and emotions that are revolving around my mind .....

after dinner I came to down to write again what I wanna do ....

i was thinking for almost midnight but I could find my answer so what I did is I put my hoodie and slowly sneak out of my house and went near by park I really have no clue why I did that but I did it anyway I want a sit on bench and start to think want I want I want .....

when I didn't came across I start to draw something's then suddenly something stike in my mind and I got my answers.....

what wanted to do and that was to get a tattoo ....

yeah it was a long time things I wanted ever since but in this mess I forget about that but not now I will get as soon as possible .....

I was so happy I came back and and slep cause it was about 3 on clock at night 🤣🤣

and next in morning I opened my eyes it was already 10 o clock 🤣 so I went to my dad and asked day you said I can get whatever I want right ??? he said yeah if it is in my power why not .....

so dad I can I get a tattoo ? please 🥺

after a while he was think he said yeah but first select what you want most cause it will be permanent do thing wisely

next thing in afternoon I was a tattoo shop.....

and till night I had a tattoo wanna see how

this is what I get the black line represents life and leaved what we do and flowers are outcome ......

and while I was a tattoo shop I saw something and I came to know what I want do ......

as I came home I showed tattoo to dad mum and my doctor.....

they were happy seeing me happy and then I asked dad I wanna talk about something .....

and them all three sat at dinner table with our dinner and I asked dad can I go on solo travelling ???

off course they dined by after a while of whole drama I somehow managed to convince them and in next three days I will be on solo trip and will this change my life ? I don't know what's waiting for me I don't know......

in just few months my life changed what will happen next come let's see together ......

note since I live in india i am going to national solo trips .....

we will meet tomorrow so see you soon and we will travel together come join me in this wonderful experience ....

with loads of experience and story let this fill your heart with love and empathy .....

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