I am going!

My heart started racing I made a feast of both of my palms, tightened it so hard that my nails could engrave the thin layer of the skin.

I turned around, my head tilted down, I couldn't get the courage to look at the person who was standing in front of me, but I could sense the anger and sadness which was in him, of course as I was having the same feelings inside me.

I tried to open my mouth but it was very hard for me, still I tried my best and let out some words, "I.......I am sorry Jack", my eyes started getting heavy, my lips started to shiver.

"You say sorry? what can a sorry do?!, just tell me Sara, did you ever love me or have any feelings towards me ? or was that all involved in your plan?! " , Jack questioned in a sad tone which ugred my tears to come out unknowingly.

How could I have explained that my feelings towards him were never fake, all that I did for him were never fake, all the sweet or bitter moments we shared together was not a part of my acting or plans, it was all pure !

"It... was never my in...intention to hurt you at the first place Jack", I said with my head still tilted down. " So what was your intention, just to use me and then throw me away without caring if I would get hurt or not ?! " he questioned me with anger.

This time it was very hard for me to take it, I couldn't control myself and raged " NO! NO I NEVER WANTED THAT! Jack! my feelings towards were mutual, I never faked it" , "THEN WHY DID YOU USE ME LIKE THAT?!" ,

" BECAUSE I HAD NO OTHER CHOICE! I never thought that we would start dating, yes I planned to use you in my revenge, but it was never in my plan to hurt you by dating you and then using you!", I said looking straight into his eyes which were filled with anger.

"Amazing Sara! what an explanation, congratulations on accomplishing your very well planned revenge" , he said while grinning and clapping his hands. I could see how disgusted he was feeling looking at me.

" Since it's all finished I don't think I am needed anymore. So let's say goodbye to each other now", he said while looking away , maybe trying to avoid my painful gaze at him.

I didn't reply to it as I was blank, my head was only and only focusing on controlling my emotions.

He sighed and started walking pass me, just then I flipped back to my senses and realised that he was already getting away from me...........so without wasting much time I spoke up loudly " Jack! I...I am going.....going very far from here and maybe I would never return", Jack halted his hands were inside his pocket , he turned his face to his right, eyes seemed to look at me through the corner.

"Well enjoy your life then, goodbye", with these words he left me. My eyes were smuggy and my heart was aching very hard, I don't know if he was crying while walking away or not but it was sure that he was in pain too. I stood there silently my tears falling down, the place where I stood felt like a deserted area, where the silence gave me the feeling of lonleyness and emptyness.

The fact that people will enjoy or drink to forget the pain was like a lie to me, how was it possible for me to party or drink just to wipe away the pain which I had?! , was it even possible how can a mere drink wipe away the pain a person has, it's just easy to be said than to be done .

I wiped away my tears cleaned my face in the washroom, then left to the classroom to take my belongings, looked around the classroom in search of Jcak, but he was already gone, I sighed and left the classroom too.

I drove to the park near my house, roamed around there, sat on the bench facing the sunset. My face was emotionless, my eyes just staring at the sky which was having a slight orange and yellowish shade. I closed my eyes and rested my head on the bench,

suddenly all the past happenings flashed in front of my eyes, some were funny some were happy and some were sad,

all the memories of me and Jack flashed too, our amazing memories of our karate classes, then all those memories which we made few months ago.

Like this a week passed away our schools were closed, I planned to leave the city after a week as I had to start with my collage and further studies, i didn't have big plans of my future but I did want to open a material arts school for small kids and have a online writing blog.

It wasn't a surprise for me that I didn't receive a call from Jack within these past few days and neither did I try to contact him.

Truly speaking, even though I wasn't crying all day long, but I didn't even smile for a single moment. Lily's thousands of plans of making me laugh always failed.... even though I sometimes sympathised her hard works going into vain, but I couldn't bring myself to smile. It was like if I smiled, I would start crying.........maybe this was what I was to live with , it was predictable because of actions.

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