-Chapter 2: Alone-

Alone shall I be in this world. Engulfed in the dark reality. The sad memories lingers within me and the light starts to fade. I Felt nothing but a neverending wave of pain.

Pain... what is pain? sometimes I forget that I'm in pain. And sometimes I suddenly have a shocking wave of emotions. Why just why...Life is already so chaotic.

Soon after the incident, I was sent to my uncle's residence. When my uncle first saw me, he embraced me in his cold arms. It was cold. I felt bad for him too - considering the fact that his older brother has lost his sanity.

"I'm sorry Annalise...it must've been hard for you. Remember that you are always welcomed here," He patted me on the shoulders and squeesed my hands.

I nodded. I knew what he said was all out of pity. For deep down inside, I know that he didn't want to take custody of me, but he was my closest relative.

I couldn't remember when I stopped talking, but I did. My life went dark. My eyes were dull. Not one person to 'care' for me. My cousins were always talking behind my back and my aunt mostly just ignored me. & well uncle barely comes home from work. I felt lonely and hopeless. All I ever wanted was to live a normal life. Having someone to be by my side and tell me truthfully that 'everything was going to be okay.' Was that too much to ask for? Haha...It must have been because that never happened. Not even once.

I isolated myself in my room almost everday. I don't even dine with my so-called family because I'm “too fragile” and “can get sick easily.” All I could do is read books to escape time. One say, "Don't depend too much on anyone in this world. Because even your own shadow leaves you in the darkness...." They were right. I was drowning, but nobody, not one person, saw my struggle.

I closed off the world & built a barrier. I'll instantly shut anyone off. My cousins always taunted me or made fun of me. They call me "the lifeless ghost" or "the muted person." They were really immature. I tried my best to ignore them... but it wasn't that easy. Sometimes I wanted to cry, sobb, scream, yell, DIE! But...but I couldn't. My tears wouldn't come out. It hurts, it hurts.

I was going to die anyways why not die now, I thought. But there was always something stopping me...

It was my heart. My damn heart.

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Author: Sad right? Well that's literally the whole point. I'm trying to portray all these emotions that one could be feeling at those times. It's hard, difficult, stressful... I wanted this story to spread awareness and to show more of the reality side than the unrealistic ones.

Anyways, thanks for reading. Hope you enjoyed this chapter!

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