"WINTER"

On that night.........

That winter night, I met someone who will brighten up my world, the one who will change my world.

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My name is Kenma, I am a singer at a bar and also a gamer, life isn't fun as I thought when I was a kid, it's really boring now.

I am a gamer at day and Singer at night......

One day, in the season of Christmas, Tokyo is full of people, and lights, you can see their smiles, couples are everywhere, while I am here working at a bar in the season of Christmas.

I saw someone at the bar, he was full of despair, he looked like he was a walking dead.

"Hey, are you okay?" I asked the man as he looks at me, his eyes are swollen and he is drunk.

"Do i look okay to you?" The man answered as he tilt his head in my shoulder.

"Hey, don't sleep, he-" just as like that, he fall asleep in my shoulder.

I had no choice but to take him to my house, as I don't know where he lives.

I wipe his sweat and let him sleep in my bed.

In the next day..........

I woke up in my bed, yhe man suddenly disappeared, He just left like that.

At night I saw him again, but this time he was the one who went to me.

"Sleep with me" the man asked me as he lowered his head and put his face closer to mine.

"Why would I?" I asked the man as I raised one of my brow.

"Just nothing." He said and laughed at me, I was pissed of so I turned my back and leave.

But he kept following me, until we arrived at my house.

"What? Do you want to come in?" I asked him with a pissed off voice.

"Can I?" The man asked.

"If you want." I answered.

He followed me inside and I prepared some tea. I asked him to have some and he agreed.

"I'm Kuroo, Kuroo Tetsuro." The man introduced himself.

"I'm Kenma, Kenma Kozume." I itroduced myself back.

After that, we talked peacefully and got to know each other more.

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After that night, I get to know him better and better, He smiles beautifuly, He laughs cheerfully and He shines brightly.

It's been 2 months since we've met, we became friends, but as the time goes by, my heart felt like it was been captured by someone.

Everytime I saw him, my hearts skips a bit and I'm suddenly blushing.

I would avoid him as much as possible everytime that he is going to see me.

I made him confused as I keep avoiding him.

One time, I didn't know he was going to visit me, He saw me standing and I tried to avoid him as much as possible but he still captured me.

"I finally got to meet you again." He said with a cheerful voice.

"Stop it, it's not like we're in a relationship or something." I said.

Suddenly the smile fades in his face, I was worried that I have hurted him.

I hold his face and pinched his cheeks,"It's embarassing to do this in public, bu-" He suddenly pulled me over in the corner of the street.

"We can do it now, right?" He asked with a smile on his face.

"What?" I asked.

"Kiss. Can I kiss you?" He asked.

"N-"

I was about to say No but he suddenly kissed me.

I pushed him and then he smiled at me.

"Please? I love you, Kenma." He said.

I was left in shock as He said that, my heart can't stop beating so fast that I wanna answer him Yes.

"Okay, but just this once." I said, I was blushing intensely.

He kissed me till my lips are swollen we stopped but then he asked me, "Can I court you?" He asked with a grin on his face.

I was surprised when he said that, I can't calm down myself.

"Y-yes." I said it without hesitating.

He hugged me and smiled.

"Thank you for giving me a chance, Kenma." He said loudly and cheerfully.

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Everynight I'm in the bar he will always come, when it's my day off he will eventually come to my house and everyday He always take me to dates.

I grew closer to him, and I fall in love with him more.

" I love you, Kuroo." I blurted it out suddenly.

I saw Kuroo's face like he was about to cry.

"Is this real? This is not a dream isn't it?" He said as he sat on the floor.

"No, It's real, This is real." I said and hugged him tightly.

"I love you, Kuroo."

"I love you too, Kenma."

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It's been a year since Kuroo and I had our relationship.

We lived together, Sleep together, we live happy, but suddenly there was a tall man standing infront of the door of our house.

"Excuse me, Who're you looking for?" I asked the tall man.

"Is this where Kuroo lives?" The man asked me back.

"Yes, he is."

"Well, He needs to go home." He said.

I was confused and shocked at the same time.

"T-this is his home, it's our home." I said back to him.

"No, it isn't." He said.

"Tsukishima? Kei is that you?" Kuroo said like he was happy to see him.

It feels like there's something i'm missing about and it bothers me.

"Do you know him, Kuroo?" I asked Kuroo.

"Y-yes" Kuroo said, he looks guilty like he is hiding something from me.

I invited the man inside our house.

I observed him carefully and I noticed that he always looked at Kuroo.

They go outside to talk about something, and here I am left curious and that's why I eavesdropped.

"You know Kuroo, you should tell him."

"Tell him what Kei?"

"That I'm your lover, and he is just a-"

"a what?"

"You're temporary lover."

I was shocked when I heared it, I was already crying but still i choose to stay and continued to listen to them.

"You need to leave him."

"I don't want to, and also I love him." Kuroo said and It brightens me up a little bit.

"Leave him."

"No."

"You know what Kuroo, You're dying." Tsukishima said with a worried face.

I was shocked when he said it and sad at the same time.

"Yeah, so what? I want to die beside him, I want to stay beside him until my last breath." Kuroo said.

"You don't love him Kuroo, You don't" Tsukishima said.

"Yes, I d-"

"Go back with him Kuroo." I said with a straight face, I don't want him to go but it can't be help.

"No, K-kenma I-"

"No, It's enough, You should go back with him."

"Good that you want him to go back with me." Tsukishima said as he raised his one brow to me.

"He is dying, He is ill." Tsukishima said.

I want to cry but I can't, I want to run away but I can't.

"Go back with him Kuroo."

"But, Kenma!"

"I've already decided, and also please, Don't come back anymore." I said with a smile on my face.

"Is that really?"

"Yes,Kuroo."

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Kuroo and Tsukishima left the place and Me alone.

I was crying for a whole week with no one to call or to speak to, I didn't eat nor did I sleep.

I thought I was dying and I'm really glad I would be.

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"It's Christmas again huh." I said as I looked at the snow falling.

"I miss him."

I was lonely, I didn"t think losing him is painful.

At the day before Christmas there's someone who called me.

"Hello, is this Mr.Kenma?" The caller asked.

"Yes it's me, I'm Kenma." I answered.

"Mr.Tsukishima want you to come here in the hospital as he wanted to talk to you." the caller said.

I was confused on why would he ask me to come, and at the same time I realized that maybe Kuroo was admitted in there.

I go out and rushed at the hospital immediately, just to see Kuroo kissing Tsukishima.

"Kenma? What are you doing here?" Kuroo asked me.

"N-nothing."

"I called him here." Tsukishima said.

"Why would you do that?!" Kuroo yelled at Tsukishima.

"Because I want to."

I was a hurt when I saw them and I just want to leave.

"Let's talk outside, shall we?" Tsukishima said to me.

I followed him outside and we had our conversation.

"So, you know now right?"

"What is it?"

"That Kuroo is dying, His illness can't be cured and no one can identified what his illness is."

I was sad to know that there is no cure and He was really going to die.

"He only has days left, no one know how did it occur." Tsukishima said with a sad face.

My mind was completely blank, I can't process what he is saying, I just want to go inside the room and hug Kuroo but I can't.

"Can I still visit him?" I asked with a husky voice.

"No."

Tsukishima looked like he doesn't want to share Kuroo with anyone.

It hurts but I still want to be with him till the last if his breath.

"Kei!! Yamaguchi just called you." Kuroo called Tsukishima.

As I looked at them, They look perfect together, they are well-matched and here I am hoping for Kuroo to still look for me.

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I left the hospital without them knowing,

By the tme I got back home, I immediately run to my room and cry.

I want to shout my pain, I want it to disappear, I just want to feel nothing.

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I cried until midnight till then I just fell asleep, crying thinking about Kuroo.

At that time I didn't know that something more painful has happened that I didn't know.

Next day.......

It's Christmas, I feel like dead.

I don't have appetite, I don't have energy, I just feel like I'm useless.

Someone called me on my phone, I answered it.

"Hello, who is this?" I asked.

"It's me."

Tsukishima called me again.

"What do you want this time?"

"Kuroo, he...."

"What about Kuroo?"

"He's dead."

As I heard it from Tsukishima, I'm speechless I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do, Tears just burst into my eyes.

I can't stop crying knowing that Kuroo will never comeback.

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"Can you please come here in the hospital?" Tsukishima asked me through the phone.

"Sure, but what will I do there?"

"There's something that Kuroo left here for you, I can't open it since it isn't for me."

"Okay I'll be there."

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I arrived at the hospital, I saw Kuroo lying in his bed, covered in a white blanket and not breathing.

I run and hugged him tight, He feels cold.

"Why did you leave me?! I thought we will be together?!" I shouted.

Tears in my eyes, I can't stop it, it keeps falling, it hurts.....

I want to be with him.....

I can't do this anymore.......

Someone pulled me, It's Tsukishima.

"Stop hugging him." He said as if he was angry on me or something.

"Here, he left it for you." He handed a letter to me.

I wiped of my tears and started reading it.

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Kuroo's letter:

Dear Kenma,

I never thought that I would love someone dearly. Yes me and Tsukishima have been in a relationship, I can't say it to you, because I'm afraid that you'll leave me, but before I knew you I broke up with him, and we stayed as friends he said to me that He still loves me, but I said I already found the one. The one that will complete me and the one that I've been waiting for. It's you Kenma, you've completed me, before I was lost and now that I found you my life was complete, I didn't say to you that I'm dying because I don't want you to be sad, I don't want you to cry. I want to be with you forever but I guess that will never come true, still I want to. I love you and I always will, I hope you won't forget me, I know I'm exaggerating but still I hope you really won't. That's it, I don't know what to say anymore. I LOVE YOU MY KYANMA♡

- KUROO TETSUROU

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After I read the letter, I go to Kuroo, I cried again and again, I can't help it.

"You idiot." I said

His friends have arrived they all cried too.

I stared at him lying......

"Are you happy? Do you still feel pain?" I wanna asked him this questions and I know he won't answer.

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3 years later........

"It Christmas again huh?" I said as the snow slowly falls and melts into my face.

"Guess I'm gonna visit him, I'm sure he'll be happy."

Me and Kuroo's friends have gotten closer especially Tsukishima, Every Christmas we will go to Kuroo's grave to celebrate it with him.

We were happy but still.......

I still miss him.

"A Christmas without you is tough,you know that? You promised me that every Christmas we will be together, and here I am, I will celebrate every Christmas with you until the day we will finally together again."

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