ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ʟᴏɴᴇʟʏ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴀɪɴ

Ever since birth,I am an unwanted child who everyone hates.

I never have a friends,My Biological mother called me as a "cursed child that no one ever wants"...My Biological mother said I am the biggest mistake she ever made on her life.....

Some people said that I am being hated by my mom because of a one night stand with an unknown stranger who is my so-called "Biological Father"..And because of that night, My so-called Biological Father's Family declared a marriage between my mother and father...But my mother disagree but she can't help because she had no choice..She is pregnant with the stranger's baby (me)...

And when I am born...

My Father left us behind and My Mother hates and disgusts me

She never cared for me

She always cried in the middles of the night because of me

There is a night that I saw her trying to commit suicide but I was behind the door and I stopped her...

She shouted at me....

Go away,You are not my child!!

You are cursed child,The biggest mistake of my life!!

You shouldn't have exist in this world!!

That words stabbed my heart...

Blaming myself,Why was I ever born on this world if no one wants me..

I run and run away far far from home...And Then I tripped myself on the rock..I tried to be strong..but then I only sat in the middle of the nowhere...*Drip drop*My tears are falling down...

And then...

The sky started to go dark..*Drip drop*

The rain start falling down....

I looked up upon the sky...

Dear sky,

Are you also sad!? Are you also lonely!?Does the world hate you too!?

We can be friends Sky....You can always be there for me whenever I am sad and I will do the same to you...

*Drip drop*Tears are falling,And the rain is pouring down...

Are there people really meant to be very lonely or not being wanted by everyone?..*Questioning my self*

Maybe All of them Are right...

I don't deserve love, I don't deserve care,I don't deserve happiness,I don't deserve friends,And most of all, In ever deserve a Family...

I smiled with in my tears...

Why Am I like this?Please self!! Don't cry..Please..Please be strong!!Don't be weak!!

Please fight!! It's just words!!

It's just words...That stab my heart..It's just words that tear me apart... Please self,I beg you Be strong...This is just a dark day..The better days will come..

Please self! This is just a page of your life...This is not the end of your story..Not the end of your book..

"**I am lonely"

"As if lonely like the rain**"

I believe..

One day..I will be happy as If I am the happiest girl in the world..

I wish..

I wish I was happy.....

//ᴡʜɪᴛᴇᴄᴜʙ

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