alone.

Seen them smile ;

at me

seen the be happy and laugh,

with me

seen them say me 'am here no matter what '

a millionth time

seen them cry with sadness ;

with my comforter ,

seen them depressed ,

with life ,

seen them feeling down

seen them with gushing emotions ;

seen some leave ;

seen some cheat ;

seen them fight for me.

Have been a merry soul ,

with less emotions unleashed ;

All i did is hear them ,

They think i have it all easy

i head them say 'others dont get it ';

They are loyal ,

Then why do i feel this blankness??

Have been on roads seen them simper,

with family

known them not gonna judge ;

then why do i feel this ?

Why do tears gush when no one sees ,

why cant i show ;

why does this "bit** attitude " only shows

why a fake simper shows ?

Why do i need to be the angel ,

for relatives ;

and the sun for friends .

Why am afraid to close eyes ,

why do the darkness follow ?

why do i feel the only support i have

is self .

why d they need to show how

alone am I ?

they say besties are for bad times ,

then why does mine has no time for me ?

why do i feel winter even in summer ?

have never had someone to call mine ,

have been habituated to sharing ,

Do make friends am fond of it ,

then get they get loves ,

and am forget .

Just to be left in the dark corner again ,

Feeling of the plastic bag arises ,

They said u should have emotions ,

My question 'how when gonna judge ?'

why do i feel alone when am surrounded

with mortals ;

why do i feel cold in a heated room ,

why do i see all black ,

when lights flashing ,

Why do i have to care when

they dont need it ,

Why do i give summer when am

waiting for the winter myself ,

why do end up being alone ?

see no one coming when am falling

visibly ,

visibly entered the state of depression ,

with a plastered smile ,

why do i end up pushing i loved away ?

why do i not get love ,when i need me

the most ?

I know my presence didnt matter ,

anyways ;

No one held me when i left ,

i was left alone in the rain ,

lost in the mist ,

and choked below when science reach ;

no signs of someone pulling me out ,

slowly will fade alone ,

All by self ,

none to hold close ,

none to talk maybe this is life ,

Have to find happiness in urself ,

only if could i learn to be real .

Only if i didnt start finding all my

pleasures in them .

A part of it was perfect .

They left me alone just

so to see winter in the train

of circled life .

They are here i feel them ,

They why do i feel alone ?

have no thoughts ,

slowly i am hearing the fainting ,

beat ,

as i evaporate ,

People think im kind genuinely ,

When i dont wanna see ,

someone sinking the way i sinked ,

Still trying to look up for help ,

maybe someday,

some mortal shows up and pulls me out.

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