Chapter 4

It was the third day Jimin spent inside Jeongguk’s apartment. There was a side of him that was trying to guilt-trip him into thinking about how he was too needy, too demanding for someone who didn’t want a relationship, but the comfort he found in everything surrounded him surpassed it. It wasn’t the fact that Jeongguk’s place was on the last floor of a very fancy apartment complex and whenever he looked out the window people looked like ants. It wasn’t the huge bathtub either, nor the food they were ordering everyday because neither of them were in the mood to cook.

It was Jeongguk’s presence.

The alpha made a habit out of waking up, peppering kisses all over Jimin’s face or tickling the soles of his feet until he burst into giggles. They’d spend their days as if they were in a handmade paradise, talking until late at night, slowly getting to know each other and comparing the way they were viewing the world.

Jimin tried to tone down the fact that he’d been feeling little, because he felt like Jeongguk was already too kind. The alpha was blatantly neglecting his job – ignoring phone calls and asking his friends from the company to look over things that were his responsibility, invoking the pretext of a small vacation. Jimin couldn’t understand the logic behind his action but gladly accepted it.

“I’ll go home tomorrow morning,” the omega whispered suddenly. They were watching Netflix in the living room and he had his head resting on Jeongguk’s lap. Jeongguk’s long fingers that had been running through his blond strands paused without words coming out of his mouth for a while.

“Why?”

Jimin found the question silly.

“We can’t play pretend forever.”

“Is that what we’re doing?” Jeongguk’s voice gave away the fact that he was wary. He didn’t want to sound imposing or ignorant, but during the past few days Jeongguk had allowed himself to nest an unhealthy amount of hope. He wished Jimin would think things through and give him – them – a shot. The omega turned his head so their eyes could meet and faked a little smile.

“Jeongguk… this is not it. We’re just hiding from the real world.” Jimin’s scent turned a little sour and his hand searched for the other’s in order for their fingers to intertwine. “You need to go back to your empire,” he continued. “And I need to get my shit together.”

Jimin got up from his place and leaned so their mouths could press together briefly. The little kiss was supposed to replace the “I’m sorry” that threatened to choke him. He wished he could spend the rest of his life like this, without a worry clouding his mind, but he also knew that he was doing the right thing for the both of them. Jeongguk didn’t want him, not when he could have someone so much better.

“But I like you here,” the alpha whispered, their lips almost touching again.

“I like being here too, but that doesn’t change the fact that we’re adults and we have responsibilities.”

It was the sad truth but that didn’t stop Jeongguk from holding him tight as they fell asleep that night.

Jimin woke up with his ear pressed against a strong chest. He had practically slept on top of him again so Jimin managed to smile as he opened his eyes, deciding to take in the sight. He didn’t plan on ever seeing the man sleeping in front of him again so he wanted to memorize everyone of Jeongguk’s features. From his cute nose to the little scar on his right cheek and the mole above his upper lip. In a different universe maybe Jimin could have stayed. Sadness washed over his body like a wave as he snuck out of bed and carefully changed his clothes – he wanted to leave before Jeongguk woke up but a hoarse voice ruined his plans.

“I’ll make you coffee before you leave.” The alpha was smiling at him, an arm under the pillow he was resting his head on. He was obviously trying his best to defy the sleepiness so Jimin didn’t have the heart to refuse the proposal.

They wished each other good morning. They took turns showering. They kissed. The omega felt his heart heavy inside his chest as he was sipping on the huge cup of coffee he’d been offered. He wasn’t good at saying good-bye’s; maybe that was the reason he left his parents’ home without trying to justify himself as soon as he turned eighteen. The silence felt overwhelming so Jeongguk cleared his thoughts before saying:

“Stay with me.”

“I can’t”

“I’ll take care of you, of everything,” the alpha continued and Jimin bit on the inside of his cheek to keep himself in check. He didn’t want to show how much he wished that was possible because that would have only encouraged Jeongguk to pursue the idea. They were sitting next to each other and the alpha placed his hand on the juncture between his neck and his shoulder and Jimin felt like melting.

“Gguk.” The omega’s tone was almost pleading but he couldn’t bring himself to say no.

“Give us a shot.” Those words were all that Jimin needed to crush their lips together almost violently, his arms wrapping around the man in front of him. He wanted to forget where he started and where Jeongguk ended, to blur the lines that kept them apart and made them incompatible.

He ended up on the alpha’s lap, his legs on either side of the latter’s torso while their mouths met again and again, his hands running through Jeongguk’s silky hair. Jimin’s heartbeat was drumming inside his ears as Jeongguk’s fingers skimmed at the skin under the hem of his shirt, sending shivers down his spine. Nothing could convince him to stay, but he wanted one last memory to keep to himself – he knew he was going to spend countless nights remembering every touch and kiss. His lips parted shyly and his tongue was met by Jeongguk’s eager one, their curious brushing causing little wings to flutter in the omega’s abdomen. It felt so intimate that he was sure he was blushing, but he kept his eyes shut, tugging on Jeongguk’s hair in order to keep him going.

He could feel himself starting to leak, but stubbornly decided not to grind against the alpha’s growing hardness, focusing on the kiss instead. Their teeth clashed a few times because he was that impatient and minutes passed before Jeongguk separated them, his lips sliding down Jimin’s throat and leaving a trail of kisses behind. Jimin didn’t hold himself back from moaning when a little bite was placed at the base of his neck, very close to his scent gland. The sound must have turned Jeongguk on because he let out a small growl before capturing the omega’s lips once again.

A few more minutes of kissing had Jimin grinding against Jeongguk’s lap, moaning inside the alpha’s mouth because of the sweet friction.

“I want you, alpha.” He whispered against Jeongguk’s swollen lips, and felt hands cupping his backside, lifting him like he weighed nothing, forcing him to wrap his arms around the other’s neck. Jeongguk was impossibly hard from what Jimin could tell and the thought of being so desired turned him on further. He knew that the alpha could tell how much he wanted this – his scent gave away his eagerness. Jimin was soon lowered on the bed they forgot to make and Jeongguk rested his forearms on either side of his blond head in order for their tongues to continue the slow dance they started in the kitchen.

Little hands grabbed the thin material of Jeongguk’s white shirt and pulled on it.

“Off,” he whispered as the alpha sucked a hickey close to his ear, and it was a few seconds before the shirt disappeared. Jimin bit on his lower lip because of the sight in front of him. Jeongguk was beautiful. The omega ran his hand down his well-defined chest and abdomen and stopped when he reached the subtle happy trail because the other was kissing him again.

“I want to see you too, beautiful.” Jimin rose his hands so his shirt could slip off his body with a little help and would have crossed his legs if the alpha wouldn’t have been in between them. Jeongguk looked like he wanted to eat him up. “Such a pretty boy.” The words urged Jimin’s cinnamon eyes to close, letting out a little moan when he felt hot lips kissing down his pectorals, a tongue swiping at him from time to time to tease.

If their movements were desperate at first, Jeongguk was taking his sweet time now, enjoying the way the omega’s body reacted to his touches. Jimin was having a hard time biting his moans back but it was clear that he was still trying, his hands fisting at the sheets next to his head.

“Let go, baby, I want to hear you moan for me.” Jeongguk’s finger skimmed over the pinkness of Jimin’s right ******, causing the alpha to smile widely. He loved how responsive the boy was. He leaned so he could capture the same ****** with his lips before allowing his tongue to dart over it, watching as Jimin’s whole body shuddered.

“Alpha –” He moaned loudly. “Please.”

Jeongguk hummed against his skin and dug his fingers into the omega’s waist, trying to keep him in place. The scent of slick was almost dizzying, but as much as he wanted to rip the sweatpants off Jimin and take him right then, Jeongguk knew he needed to be patient. He genuinely cared about Jimin, he wanted their first time to be good for the both of them. There was no rush.

“Hush, little one.” Jeongguk whispered and nosed at the scent gland of the other, grinding their erections together in the process. “I’ve got you.”

Jimin moaned when their tongues met again and lifted his hips in desperate need of friction. He felt like he could go crazy any moment. The alpha took pity on him and moved, a hand tugging at the waistband of Jimin’s sweatpants, easily sliding them down his legs along with his underwear. They broke the kiss so the omega could kick the layers of clothing off, letting out a soft whimper. His erection was leaking, the sweet scent surrounding it was bewildering, and Jeongguk could swear he has never seen a prettier shaft in his whole life. It was pink and soft, much like the rest of Jimin’s body, and it was slightly curved towards the boy’s belly.

The alpha ran his fingers up its length and teased the head with his thumb, amazed by how wet it was. Jimin moaned against his cheek and parted his legs invitingly.

“Good boy,” Jeongguk said before kissing his lips briefly and wrapping his fingers around the erection, sliding his hand up and down slowly. “Little one wants alpha to touch him all over, hm?” Jimin nodded and pushed against the closed fist, trying not to *** like that. He couldn’t remember the last time he had felt so turned on – it must have been because it was Jeongguk who was taking care of him.

“Yes. Please, alpha.”

Jeongguk nosed at his scent gland one last time before moving so he could take the erection inside his mouth. Jimin’s precum was sweet so the alpha hummed in pleasure before taking more of it in, his hands trying to keep the other’s thick thighs spread.

“Fuck. Alpha, no.” The omega moaned and arched his back as soon as Jeongguk’s nose reached the trimmed hair covering his pubis. “Don’t want to *** like this.”

The alpha remained in place but allowed his tongue to swirl around the underside of the hardness, smiling around it whenever Jimin squirmed. The boy grabbed two fistfuls of Jeongguk’s hair and tugged on it, torn between his carnal needs and his lucidity. “Please, alpha. Not like this.”

Jeongguk granted his wish and released his erection with a pop before pulling him closer by the hips. He was laying on his front at the end of the bed and easily threw Jimin’s legs over his shoulders, lifting his backside in the process. The scent of the slick was intoxicating and the alpha found his mouth watering at the sight of the see-through substance running down Jimin’s buttcheeks. He was unbelievably wet and his hole kept clenching and unclenching, each time more slick sliding out of it.

“Of course my pretty baby is pretty everywhere.” Jeongguk whispered and leaned in to kiss the quivering entrance, inhaling deeply the sweet scent. “Look at you, angel, your body is all ready to take alpha’s knot.” Jimin moaned loudly instead of replying and closed his eyes when a tongue pressed flatly against his hole, the image of Jeongguk’s head in between his legs overwhelming. It started with kisses but as soon as the alpha began feasting on his slick, his thighs began quivering, little “ahs” being the only sounds his mouth could elicit.

“Fuck –” Jimin yelped when Jeongguk’s tongue finally entered him, his toes curling almost instantly. His ****** was so close that his vision began to blur but the alpha pulled away right before it could happen, leaving him on the edge. “No!”

“I know, baby.” Jeongguk cooed, gathering some slick with his fingers and pushed two inside of Jimin painfully slow. He moved them cautiously, so he wouldn’t touch the sweet bundle of nerves that could make the omega *** and nosed at the scent glands at the juncture between his inner thighs and pubic area.

“Alpha, please.”

“Be a good boy and wait for alpha to prep you, little one.”

Jimin moaned in protest but relaxed against the bed, knowing he had no other alternative but to be patient. The sounds Jeongguk’s fingers made as they moved in and out of him were loud but for the first time, the omega didn’t find them embarrassing. He found them hot, he wanted Jeongguk to see, to feel and to hear just how aroused he made him feel.

Jimin whimpered when the alpha pulled his fingers out of him and felt his anxiety rear its ugly head when the latter broke the contact so quickly. His expression must have betrayed his panic because Jeongguk immediately placed a hand on his knee, hoping the touch would help.

“I’m just undressing, Min,” he promised.

Jimin felt silly but his mind went blank as soon as Jeongguk appeared ***** in front of him, his hardness heavy and proud in between his legs. It was clear that the alpha was just as affected by the prelude as Jimin was because there were precum gathered on the tip of his cock.

“Can I taste?” Jimin’s voice was small, and the alpha smiled at the cuteness before pumping his own erection twice and stepping closer to the edge of the bed. He was sure he wouldn’t have been able to keep himself from cumming during a ****-*** but the idea of Jimin’s sinful lips wrapped around him was hard to refuse.

“Just a little bit.” Jeongguk decided and watched as the omega came closer to him, swallowing loudly in protest. His eyes were widened, making him look almost innocent and as soon as his mouth covered Jeongguk’s tip, the alpha found it hard to refrain. Jimin was not shy about his oral skills but decided to suck on the tip only, his tongue teasing the slit and gathering as much salty precum as he could get.

“Fuck, baby, your mouth feels so good.” As soon as the alpha felt more of his length sliding inside the hot tightness he cupped Jimin’s chin in order to stop him, and the boy looked at him almost disappointed when he pulled off.

“I wanted more,” the omega whispered, licking his lips.

“Not now, sweetheart,” Jeongguk cooed before leaning in to kiss him deeply, enjoying the way Jimin’s arms wrapped around his neck.

They moved back on the bed and continued their little make-out session for a while, their erections brushing from time to time. The sheets under Jimin’s backside were soaked because of his slick but he couldn’t care less because Jeongguk was growling possessively whenever he brushed his fingers against his entrance. He loved to feel how turned on the omega was. While they were kissing, Jeongguk reached for one of the pillows and easily lifted Jimin’s lower body so he could place it underneath his hips before moving away so he could grab something from the nightstand.

Condoms.

Jimin didn’t have the chance to say that they could go without it because one black condom wrapper was held in front of his mouth, urging him to bite on one of the corners and rip it open. Jeongguk’s heated stare was burning holes into his skull so he smiled before retrieving the condom.

“Put it on, baby.”

Jimin did it graciously, teasingly touching the shaft as soon as he was done. Jeongguk was big, and Jimin didn’t have the strength to wait anymore to feel him inside. He was lowered back on the bed with the help of Jeongguk’s strong arms and moaned when he felt the tip of the alpha’s erection prodding as his entrance, his own cock twitching with excitement.

“Please, alpha.” Those were the last words he managed to whisper before Jeongguk began pushing in slowly, his hands holding tightly to Jimin’s hips. Jeongguk’s inner wolf wanted nothing more but to ravage Jimin’s body, to knot him and mark him as his, but he had a different plan. He wanted to enjoy the sardonic feeling he was experiencing, as if he could imprint his being on Jimin with every slow trust.

“You’re perfect, baby,” Jeongguk whispered before almost pulling out completely and snapping his hips forward again, making the omega moan loudly. “You were made for me.”

He decided on a punishing rhythm, making sure he was brushing Jimin’s prostate with every move, enjoying his sounds filling the room. From the screams of pleasure to the sound of their skin slapping, it was all perfect, Jeongguk couldn’t get enough.

“Feels so good, a-alpha.” Jimin was reduced to a mumbling mess, his hands desperately reaching for every patch of warm skin he could find. He didn’t want to touch himself just yet, just like he didn’t want to *** – Jeongguk felt so hard and good inside of him that Jimin didn’t want it to end.

Jeongguk grabbed one of Jimin’s thighs on either side of his body and bent them before leaning so he was resting his forearms on either side of Jimin’s head. Their lips found each other again, this time with frenzy, but the alpha made sure to maintain the pace he’s previously established. Their bodies were working perfectly together, as if they’d been molded from the same material at the beginning of time.

Jimin opened his eyes when Jeongguk broke the kiss and everything stopped for a few seconds, all the air being kicked out of his lungs. Nothing else existed beside them in that moment. There were no worries, no differences, they were just Jimin and Jeongguk. Jimin wrapped his arms around the alpha’s neck and pulled him closer, so their cheeks could press together.

“I want you to knot me, alpha.”

As soon as the words reached Jeongguk’s ears the pace changed, the movements becoming faster, urgent. They were a mess of limbs and uncoordinated moves – desperate to kill all the space in between them. Jimin could feel the alpha’s knot slowly inflating with each ****** and every time he noticed, it pushed him further towards completion. He knew Jeongguk was close to ****** because his movements became sloppy and normally Jimin would have reached in between their bodies in order to jerk himself to completion but there was no need for that. His shaft was trapped in between their bodies and as soon as he felt his rim stretched around the alpha’s large knot he felt his whole body shudder.

There were only a few more thrusts from Jeongguk but it was futile because their bodies were locked together, Jimin’s walls tightening around his member, and as soon as Jeongguk felt the semen splashing in between their bodies he spilled inside the condom, futilely trying to push himself deeper inside the omega.

“Fuck, Min.” Jeongguk whispered and moved his right hand down the omega’s body, his fingers searching for the spot where they were now connected. Jimin moaned at the touch so the alpha kissed his lips chastely. There was a tentative movement but the omega protested with a whine, his arms wrapping around the other’s waist. “Baby loves the feeling of being knotted.” Jeongguk smiled and kissed the side of his head.

“’ve never been knotted before.” Jimin’s words were barely audible and Jeongguk immediately cupped his face, kissing him lovingly.

The alpha changed their position so the Jimin could lie on top of him, covering their bodies with a thin blanket. The omega’s little body was completely relaxed, his head resting on one of the broad shoulders beneath him. He had never felt so serene after sex; the warmth surrounding him and the heartbeat under his fingertips made Jimin feel fuzzy inside.

“You’ve been so good for me.” Jeongguk whispered and kissed the top of his head. “Such a good boy.” Jeongguk’s fingers slid up and down the omega’s back, drawing all sorts of patterns on the pale skin, and Jimin could have fallen asleep but didn’t want to because he would have missed out on the precious time they spent together like that.

“Ggukie.”

“Hm?”

“I don’t want to go,” Jimin admitted quietly.

“Then don’t.”

The omega smiled sadly because the other had no idea what he was talking about. He came to care for the alpha so much that he couldn’t bring himself to stay in his life anymore. He wasn’t selfish enough to cling onto him when he knew he was dead weight.

“You know I will.”

“I know.” The same unbearable silence filled the room for a few minutes. “Come back to me,” Jeongguk finally voiced his wish, his hot breath falling on one of the omega’s ears. “When you figure how you want to live your life from now on, come back to me.”

“Jeongguk.”

“I’ll be here, waiting.” Jeongguk had never been the type to go out looking for a mate, he had never really done relationships either, at least not ever since he became chaebol. He knew he couldn’t have given up on Jimin after they’d gotten so close, after they’d seen so many sides of each other. He wanted to believe that the omega could see how well they fit together too, and that after some time he would realize that they were worth being together.

“I don’t do relationships.” Jimin sounded like a broken record. It was as if he wanted to annihilate every chance of them being together from the start and he would have wanted to understand where all of this was coming from.

“You’ll have your happy ending, I promise you.” The omega finally whispered and put a little space in between them so their eyes could meet. He gently tucked a long strand of Jeongguk’s hair behind his ear before continuing. “One day, you will meet someone who will make you happy beyond reason and then it will all make sense.”

Jimin smiled widely and Jeongguk felt his heart breaking at the sight of tears rolling down his pale cheeks.

“You will get married and you’ll have beautiful pups together,” the omega continued, the last words barely audible. “Because you’re the best alpha I’ve ever met and you deserve nothing less, okay?”

The alpha decided he had never seen the boy in front of him that sad before – not even the night he had almost been raped by a disgusting piece of shit. The pain was obviously running deeper than skin and because of that Jeongguk didn’t dare open his mouth again. He didn’t know if words could console such a state of anguish.

They kissed again before parting, this time tenderly, as if they were saying their last goodbye, and the alpha didn’t have the courage to ask him again to stay. So he watched powerless as Jimin gathered the few things that belonged to him and got ready to leave. Something told him that if the omega walked out of that door he would never see him again so as Jimin put on his shoes he said:

“I wish you’d give me a real reason.”

Jimin furrowed his eyebrows, conflicted by the words and straightened his back before he managed to tie his shoelaces. He looked Jeongguk straight in the eye, a sort of anger growing inside of him. He didn’t understand why the alpha couldn’t see the obvious reasons why a relationship between them couldn’t happen. It would have been so wrong from so many points of view, so burdensome that the alpha would eventually take the initiative to break up.

“I’ve told you before, Jeongguk. You don’t want me.”

“I think it’s selfish of you not to give me the choice to decide that on my own.” Jeongguk’s voice was soft, despite the harsh words meant to clarify once and for all that he had something to say regarding the matter too. “I’ll tell you what I know. I like you, all of you, and maybe I read you wrong but I think that you like me too. If it’s a financial matter, we can figure it out; I’m not saying that you should become my sugar baby, I’m saying that I could help you look for a job.” He knew Jimin was way too proud to accept being his sugar baby. “My mother taught me when I was a little child that there’s no such thing as an unsolvable problem.”

“I disagree,” the omega smiled, a bitter taste filling his mouth.

“Jimin –”

“I’m infertile!”

The yell had Jeongguk’s mouth opening, no sound coming out of it.

“Now tell me, prince charming, how the **** do we solve this?” The subject hurt Jimin so badly that he couldn’t even cry anymore because of it so he looked straight into Jeongguk’s brown eyes instead, waiting to be told to get out of that place.

Infertile omegas were useless, he’s been told that all his life. The first time he heard that he was in school – in fourth grade, to be more precise – and they were learning about their bodies for the first time. He couldn’t forget how humiliated he’d felt when they learned the basics of reproduction, how he’d squeezed his thighs so hard together that he got bruises, scared that someone could simply find out he was one of the abnormal omegas. He’d been told before that he was different and the world infertile had been used, but Jimin held on to hope for dear life. He ran home that day after school was done, looking for his mother everywhere so he could ask if it was true.

He found her washing dishes in the kitchen and she’d dropped the plate she’d been holding when she heard his words,and rapidly threw away the gloves she’d been using to squat before beginning to release her calming pheromones. It was clear that Jimin was panicking but she didn’t manage to say anything besides “I’m so sorry.”

He’d spent his entire life trying to hide that he was one of those omegas, laughing along with people who made tasteless jokes about them being useless, parading the idea that he didn’t do relationships because he knew no one wanted a useless mate. Jeongguk’s mother was wrong – there were unsolvable problems, and Jimin knew that because he lived with one all his life.

“Jimin –” The alpha whispered, and took a step in his direction.

“No, don’t you dare pity me,” Jimin said, voice quivering, as he pushed the man in front of him, trying to escape the sensation of walls closing down on him. Jeongguk didn’t give up though, not even when Jimin pushed again, or when he slapped at his chest a little too forcefully, and arms finally wrapped around him, holding Jimin in place. “Don’t p-pity me.” Jimin was choking on his words now, trembling like a leaf while the alpha began rocking him gently back and forth, like he was handling a child.

“Hush, baby. It’s okay to hurt.”

“I don’t want t-to,” Jimin protested. He’d hurt all his life, he just wanted it to stop already. “Have y-you changed your m-mind already?” He feared the answer so much.

“About wanting you to stay?”

The omega nodded, his scent spiking with fear, and Jeongguk tightened the hug.

“No. You’re the same Jimin you were this morning, the same you’ve been these past three days, and two months ago when we first met.” He sighed. “Infertility isn’t a personality trait, Min. Not being able to bear pups is not your fault, it doesn’t make you lesser.”

Jimin wished he would have known Jeongguk when he was ten and the entire world turned against him. He was sure his life would have looked so much different if that were the case.

“I still want you to stay,” the alpha promised, and put a little space between them before cupping Jimin’s face with both hands and kissing his forehead. His lips moved to the tip of a button nose and their foreheads pressed together before he continued. “If you’ll have me.”

The omega found it unbelievable that he was the one calling the shots; never in his life has he considered that he had the right to pick. He’s been taught that if any alpha would pay attention to him he should be grateful and accept it without a second thought, no matter what kind of man he was and what he had to offer. Infertile omegas couldn’t be guided in life by feelings because it was highly improbable for anyone to ever want to mate them.

Jimin sniffled, tears gathering at the corners of his eyes.

“I’ll have you.” Of course I’ll have you. He felt like the entire weight of the world had been lifted off his shoulders. The omega watched as Jeongguk helped the shoes off his feet and then took his hand in his much larger one, allowing their fingers to intertwine. He remained quiet as the alpha guided him back inside the living room and tried to let go of every dark thought, untying the imaginary ribbons that kept them grounded. It felt like he was launching balloons and watched them get lost in the clouds; he hoped they would never come back.

He could feel himself slipping, his mind going to that happy place he’s tried to avoid during the last three days because he feared it would be too much. It was still hard to accept himself but he was willing to work on it.

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