Chapter 10 - Obedience Is Key

"My textbooks! My research notes! My coffee machine!" I smiled as I hugged all of the belongings that had been salvaged from the house. Then, my eyes fell onto the broken sphere wrapped in a bundle. It took me five years to find the correct ratio of metal to limestone to clay and now, the sphere that took a factory one year to make was shattered.

I fell to my knees in despair. I guess that I won't be going home any time soon. I then picked up a thick journal and started to read through it. "What is that document?" I spoke, still reading "It's my research notes." His eyes sparkled.

"Are you a Western scholar?" I guess that you could put it that way... "Yeah, I guess that I am. I just come from a place which is more advanced than this era."

As I scanned through my door, I sighed and fell down to the floor again, hopeless. This isn't the right journal. I must find my most recent one! I rummaged through the whole pile of stuff and pulled out around 17 identical journals, all tattered and covered in coffee stains.

"Um, Mimi... this is-" "I know, it's a disgrace. These books were said to hold a year's worth of journaling and I finished writing in them after nine months. I want those three months back!" While I continued to rummage through my things, Reo picked up a journal on the top and read the first page.

"It's been a month now since Mother and Father died. They left me the house, the money, everything. I can't help but feel lonely however. Even though I hate to admit it, even savants like me aspire to one day receive a warm home-cooked meal from time to time."

He continued reading as he flicked away. These pages were filled with symbols he had never seen before, doodles of things he had never heard of, and the occasional comment.

"This world is intoxicating. No matter what I tell myself, it's the truth. I'm slowly drowning in the expectations of others, and it's acting fast, like a poison. I can't let anyone down and suddenly, I'm trapped at the top unable to get back down. I just wish that someone could save me from this mess."

It took me snatching away the book from his hands to stop reading. My eyes seemed hurt, but mostly angry. It was like something had been triggered in my brain. A self-defense mechanism that protected me from all harm.

"Whatever you just read... forget it. I'm done being that kind of girl who's scared and lonely. I'm fine by myself, and I don't need anyone by my side. Especially a husband who happens to be a warlord too." It took him that to realise how hurt and scarred I really was. He watched me again as I rummaged through the pile, desperately trying to find this journal. Reo couldn't do anything apart from stand back and watch. He wondered if he could get to know me better by reading those journals.

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