Chapter 5

Saturday 13th April, 2024.

"Olivia? Are you okay? Did you hear what I said?" I shook my head trying to bury the unwanted memory, "Sorry Sam, just remembered something unpleasant.

"What were you saying?" He looked at me with this soft expression that I couldn't quite figure out, "I said if you want to sleep some more, I'd be down for that." Oh, I mean that's not a bad idea, it's just that after that memory resurfaced, I feel a bit uneasy.

I looked away and responded with, "It's alright I'm not that tired. I must've just gotten a random sleepy spell." I felt him grab my chin and within seconds I was looking back at those familiar brown eyes that have hurt me more than they'll ever know.

It felt like the calm before the storm. "Let go, what are you doing?" I tried to wiggle my face free but he had a strong grip on it.

The first tear made its way down my cheek slowly followed by another and then another. Why now? His expression shifted to one of sadness and confusion, "Why are you doing this to me Samuel."

"I don't get it. We spent these past few years doing our own things so why now?"

"Why are you coming back into my life after everything that I've been through? I don't get it you're confusing me and I refuse to be confused by a man who randomly decided he wants to be a part of my life again."

"So please tell me why are you here at my house on a random Saturday watching Tv with me in my bed."

I didn't even try to stop the tears I just let them flow, there was no point to stopping them now.

He glanced away then when I saw his face again, he had this awkward smile on his face, "I had no idea you had gone through so much Olivia. I guess I was too caught up in my own shit to notice and I'm truly sorry I wasn't there for you."

"I'm here because I can't stop thinking about you and how things left off..."

"About how we slowly stopped talking."

"I didn't have the courage to tell you this then but I do now. I like you Olivia Darling and I want something more than just being friends with you, if you'll allow that."

In that moment he put out his hands again and I took his offer, this time though I let the hug soak in. I took a quick breath before saying, "You remember 3 years ago when you came to me crying because your girlfriend at the time had broken up with you?"

I could feel him nod through the hug, I continued, "Well the whole time you had been crying over her, I had liked you. I didn't say anything at the time because I figured it would've been better to just keep those feelings to myself."

He pulled away just enough for me to see his face, "Why did you think that? I would've appreciated it if you had told me."

I took one of my hands and wiped my eyes before continuing the hug, "I didn't think you could ever feel that way about me and I didn't want to ruin our friendship over feelings that were probably one-sided."

He hugged me tighter as if he was scared of letting me go, "Let me take care of you now since I couldn't do it then. Will you be my girlfriend, Olivia Darling?"

I nodded and answered with a slightly quiet "Yes"

He loosened his hold on me and looked at me with this look in his eyes, those brown slices of heaven will be the death of me one of these days. His eyes kept going between my own and my lips, I knew he would take forever if I let him take his time and do whatever he wanted.

I took the initiative and kissed him.

It was a soft clash of skin and it could've barely been considered a kiss until he deepened it into something more raw, more real. Without even realizing it he had moved me onto his lap, I didn't complain seeing as his lap was quite comfortable. The kiss went on for a few minutes until we both needed a moment to breathe.

It was nice but in the back of my mind I could hear, "Kade could kiss you so much better and you know it, all you're doing is running from your true feelings." I shook my head trying to get rid of the ridiculous thought.

He grabbed my hand and kissed it while looking up at me with those stupidly gorgeous brown eyes of his.

"I guess this means we're officially dating huh? Who would've thought things would end up like this, not me that's for sure." I said while awkwardly chuckling.

He kissed me again and said, "Yes, this means we're together."

The rest of the day was kind of a blur for me I guess from the shock. You know when you're sick and sleeping and you tend to have the weirdest ass dreams that don't feel real at all? Yea it felt like that. We continued to watch Friends except cuddling and stealing glances at each other, ate lunch and even dinner together until he had to head home.

"It truly feels like a fever dream." I thought to myself.

Monday 15th April, 2024.

7:00am, ugh...I hate Mondays, truly, like who came up with the days of the week and thought to themselves, "Let's make the first day of the week be called Monday." Honestly, I could do with staying home today. Then again, I say that everyday so what's new.

I kicked off my blanket and was hit in my eye with an unnecessary greeting from the sun.

"Fuck me!"

I hate Mondays. Did I mention that? More than that you want to know what else I hate? Mornings. I reluctantly made my way to the shower; I wanted to wake up as quick as possible and taking a shower right away would surely do just that.

7:21am, once I had finished getting ready, I made my way downstairs and didn't bother eating breakfast. I wanted to just get to school as fast as possible so I could get some extra time to sleep.

7:43am, I closed my locker after getting my books for the day and slowly made my way through the crowd to get to my first class. I would have to wait till lunch to see Samuel. We didn't share any classes so that would be the only time we'd get to be in the same space. I sat down in my usual seat for this class which is by the window, I rested my head on the table and closed my eyes.

Could feel hands on my waist, one of them made its way to my chin pulling me closer.

Two scorching flames looked back at me. His eyes were so dark and burning with desire.

The room we were in had a warm feel to it, not to mention I could tell sweat was building up, I let him guide me as he marked every part of me even the deepest parts of me that I've never shown anyone not even myself. He trailed wet kisses leading from my neck to my waist.

Right before he made any other move he stopped and looked up at me, those once burning flames were replaced with the calm ocean. It was as if I was now on the beach soaking in the water.

I took in his expression one of need, want and restraint. I gripped his hair and leaned down to whisper something, "The things I dream of doing to you and you'll never know." I pull back my face to see his reaction, pure shock and a little...turned on? Wait wait wait...

"Ring, ring, ring"

8:30am, class had just finished and what have I done the whole time have a weird ass dream about someone I shouldn't even be thinking about.

For fucks sake, I'm dating Sam now I can't keep pinning over someone else when I have a whole ass boyfriend. Something has to be wrong with me in the head I swear but something about that dream bugs me.

When it started off his eyes were like fire then it ended with his eyes like the ocean, obviously that means blue eyes so it was Kade but fire? Red eyes or maybe brown eyes? Was that supposed to represent Sam?

So, dream Sam was first and he was needy. He wanted something, he had a purpose and he had to fulfil it, meanwhile, Kade came after but he wasn't as needy. It was almost like he was restraining himself for me so I could lead him.

What am I doing? Trying to make sense out of utter nonsense, I must truly have lost it.

The morning periods quickly passed without any more weird dreams thankfully. I plopped down alongside my food, I took a quick bite, spicy cheese paste. Interesting choice of filling.

I couldn't stop thinking about that dumb dream from earlier. It was so strange. I let out a loud sigh not being afraid of looking weird, most people avoided me even without me doing anything. I felt a hand grab my shoulder and I quickly looked up at its owner.

"Sam..."

"Hey Olivia, aren't you going to eat that?"

I looked at what he was pointing at, my sandwich I had barely bitten into. I nodded my head and straightened myself as I continued eating.

Once I had finished my cheesy sandwich I leaned back and tried to relax my mind. Sam on the other hand had other plans. He grabbed one of my hands and pulled my chair closer to his. I contoured looking at him until he decided right then and there was a good time and place to lean down and kiss me.

It wasn't anything long, more of a peck really, however, it still flustered me all the same. He kept holding my hand and patted his shoulder so I took him up on his offer and made myself comfy.

"Ahem..."

I glanced in the direction of the sound. It was Kade, it feels like forever since I last saw him. Still, I should say something, "Hey, how was your weekend? Did you do anything interesting?" his face tensed for a second then I saw it relax right before he said, "It was fine more boring than anything, how about yours?"

I blushed slightly as I glanced back at Sam who was eating his lunch unconcerned.

"It was good you know nothing interesting over here either, just the usual." I lied, I don't even know why I did, it just came out before I could stop it. I looked away not wanting him to realize my mistake.

The rest of lunch was quiet...too quiet.

"Maybe you're overthinking things Olivia, calm down. Everything's fine." I told myself repeatedly trying to regain some sort of normal.

Wednesday 17th April, 2024.

8:12pm, Everything is not fine, I repeat nothing is fine! I don't know how I ended up like this but I needed to get out of this situation.

He continued hugging me and pulled away smiling sweetly at me. We had finished our session on time for the first time in a while and I was trying to say goodbye when he hugged me all of a sudden.

What was I supposed to do all I could do was hug back to not make things awkward.

I looked up and there he was watching my every move with those ocean eyes of his. I licked my lips noticing how dry they had become in the past few minutes, seems he noticed them too.

I chuckled and said, "So...it's getting late you should probably head home; I wouldn't want you on the road too late."

He nodded in agreement and made his way to the front door. I followed behind him and once we were outside the door he turned back around and grabbed my chin and pulled me in for a kiss.

Wait...What?! This cannot be happening.

I pulled away and covered my mouth as I said my goodbye, "See you tomorrow get home safe."

He seemed to notice something was off but didn't bother to ask, just waved a bye to me and got in his car. Once he had gotten far enough from the house, I closed the door and fell to the ground.

"What am I going to do?"

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