The night

  It was the end of the concert, and I was getting tired. My cousin came to pick me up and Alec came out to see me off. At night as I was laying in my bed I was thinking about each second of that day, how it unfolded, what it meant to me and my conclusion was that Alec is a good guy who might not have an ulterior motive with me. I always do that, I think about everything that happens during the day, maybe it's overthinking, maybe it's something else, but I don't know. It was a weekend, so I was dreading it, because I don't like staying at home, but it went by in a jiffy, and before I knew it, it was Monday.

After my classes, I met with Alec and sort of complained to him that the president of the society didn't provide me with the board and I couldn't put up the decorations, and he asked me where the cutouts were. I told him, what he did next was beyond my expectations, he got them and told me that he's taking the cutouts home. HOME! When I asked him the reason he said that it's my hard work, and he will not let it go to waste...... I was speechless, he........ He did something I didn't expect even from my family. If I work at something, and it is not perfect or to their standards, I was criticized and for 15 years I thought that my mother was the victim and I was the irresponsible child.

My older sister is just the way my mother wants her child to be. She's obedient, she does everything the way my mom wants it, and she asks my mom for everything she does, I don't get upset that she asks for everything or tells mom everything, I get upset when she asks my mom about what should wear, she's married!!! I don't know if it's my generation or if it's just me, but this way of life is suffocating for me. I can't live like that. I understand why my sister is the way she is, I also understand that the struggles both of them went through is what made their bond stronger. I respect that, but they shouldn't impose this method on me.

I am very sensitive, I get scared of loud noises, people yelling, bright lights, but I do like the company of darkness. It's peaceful, it's safe, even at home I always keep the lights off. I like to keep myself in the dark because I don't trust anyone. It's not that I don't want to, I just can't even if I try my best. There is always this voice in my head that tells me "Everyone eventually leaves, so it's no use to open yourself, you have always dealt with things yourself, you can do it in the future as well".

I hated that, that voice controlled me till now. Till the moment Alec said that he's taking home the decorations because it's my hard work. It might seem like a small gesture for other people but for me, that gesture had much more value than anything I ever possessed. That one line shattered so many walls, so many boundaries for me that I was worried that the layers and layers of walls I had constructed brick by brick in the last 10 years was crumbled to the ground and in just 3 weeks.

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