The Past Life V : Eve's POV

     Today was a weird start coz early morning when I woke up. Many white roses were scattered in my room. I asked the servants but they only shook their head and moved away. Strange..no?...well I let it go and got busy with my own business.

     Right now, I was sitting on my comfortable and huge black bean bag watching a movie. Days like this were really must. A thought snapped me. My friends were behaving strange nowadays..really very strange. Specially Jerome..well..he could not stop annoying me for a moment but he wouldn't even look into my eyes while talking to me..huh..funny. and Bella she is more excited for my birthday than me not to forget the innocent boy sky is acting same...well I thought if they were planning something together...just  this thought send chills ran through my spine..they were obviously my friends but horrible at group planning..I really.. really feel like an alien with them or maybe they r from other planets..I smiled..anyways they were a blessing to me.

     Ring..ring..ring.. I heard my phone rang. It was big ice cube. I was momentarily stunned coz this call was unexpected but still I picked up and said " hello big ico...noo..brother Damian" shitt I slipped, I bit my younger and was expecting the call to be end..but I heard a chu..chuckle..a chuckle from ice cube..ohh my did the sun rise from West..I absentmindedly mumbled "I guess this ice cube forgot his medic......" Holy moly, I slipped again...this I might be mad today..just as I was drowned in self blame ice cube laughed..ohh he laughed..again a mental attack for...God I was still a almost fifteen years old child have mercy on me, I thought. "I just called to ask u did u like my gift...ummm...the roses..did u like them" came ice cubes voice from phone..I stiffened and finally took a long breath and said " the roses were pretty, b-but brother Damian y did u send them..I mean like it's nothing special so..". He interrupted " I am going abroad and won't be back for long..so focus on studies and be at the top...ohh ur always at top..but...ur my sister's friend so i-its normal to send flowers a-a-and you are my-my fiancee so it's normal..ummmm..uh..if u are in problems call me and remember i-i will protect you, so don't be hard on urself ur still small and uhhhh....take care..bye" "tut-tut-tut" I heard the phone ended

      I threw the phone on the bean bag...I am stunned...well, I don't know what to say..umm...this was the first time I heard him talk so much and talk so softly.. softly...it's normal.. yes..well we were considered friends..I had studied with him when I was twelve..we always greeted and sometimes trained together so it was normal as a friend to send me roses and be worried for me...so it's normal...nothing special......

     Just I was reasoning out his odd behavior suddenly 'you are my-my fiancee' these words rang in my mind....I felt blood rushing to my cheeks.."hoohhhh"..I  took a long breath and hold my cheeks, shaking my face to shake 'other' thoughts and jumped onto my big soft bed and currently the love of my life. I burried my face into the pillows and said "ignore it Eve, that's momentary distraction. U have many important things to do.."

    'knock-knock' as I was trying to calm myself down I heard someone knocking."come in " I said. " Sorry to disturb lady Eve, Old Master called u and wants to play chess" I understood my grandpa's call so I hummed in agreement and walked to my grandpa's place....with still lingering thoughts of 'here and there'..

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     "Hahahahahahaha....." I laughed out loud, holding my wedding album. I felt tears rolling down my cheeks as I traced my bloody fingers through pictures of the people who were most important to me. Those people whom I wanted to protect at the cost of my life. My eyes blurred as memories flowed down my memory lane....I turned cold as I remembered why these things happened, The cancellation of my engagement. From the day I fell in love with jerome, from the day I ignored his doings, from the day I thought he loved me, from the day when I decided to trust him blindly, from the day I thought he would never betray me, fr-from the day I thought he would protect me forever, from the day I went against the people whom I love,my family, from the day I chose to believe my heart..the one I loved ...Jerome.

                  As I was thinking of my life from the beginning till now when m going to end this....I felt....I felt foolish.....I felt dumb...I felt...as though I m the destruction of everything and everyone who come close to me.....I laughed again bitterly......they were wrong...they were wrong to think of me so highly....they were wrong to think that I was their angel....they were wrong to think I will protect them...coz I became their boon...I became their destruction..what women with high intelligence.....I'm a foolish women who thought that someone hypnotized me because he didn't wanted to loose me and loved me beyond limits....I was foolish enough to trust a man and love a man blindly who always did something or the other against me and my family....yess...I was foolish enough to take my destruction, my family's destruction in my arms.....I felt bitter.....I felt guilty.....I felt regret but I couldn't do anything...coz I didn't did anything at the right time.....I felt crushed.....torned....hurted beyond relief........ broken beyond repair.....I felt like the biggest loser at the bottom of this world......I felt dirty....impure..I felt disgusted of myself and I hated him...I hated him to the depths of my bone..I hated Jerome...

           I stood up from the Sandle wood arm chair and walked near my huge closet, removed the dress which was precious to me but now felt like a beautiful ruthless knife piercing me into pieces, brought it near the fire that I started to end all my memories with him, with them, and myself. I watched at the cameras which were recording my moments to show someone how I felt when I ended and threw the wedding dress into the huge fire.....I took the albums and threw pictures which carried precious memories one by one into the fire...I know I was crying....I was wondering how much many tears I can cry..so I cried loudly.....I wanted him to hear my agony... My pain....I put my hands on my stomach, remembering the little life that was taking place in me weeks ago...the innocent little life which was killed by his own father..that child whose mother was so useless that couldn't even protect him and I broke down..slumping on the ground, bringing my knees to myself..I tried to release my agony and pain through my shout "ahhhhhhhhhhhh"

        ''I wish u all the happiness and peace in this world...m happy for u on finding ur love and marrying him but in future if u r in pain or need help with anything feel free to call me or find me... I'll be always there for you and protect you....happy wedding my beautiful baby ' .....I remembered these words.....I remembered there was someone still here who cared about me......but did he still...cared for me.?

*         My eyes were still wet and this question roaming in my mind coz I had hurted him too much and so I decided to call 'him' before ending myself...I just felt if I apologized to him I would feel a little..just a little relief before dying...dazedly I called him and looked above my head as the fire was spreading..I gave a bitter smile...*

*        "Hello, Eve"  I froze listening to his voice and dazedly mumbled "Damian" . *

*        " Eve, what happened,hello, are u listening" he said, I can hear the worry in his voice which was Everytime he talked to me but which I never noticed. I felt my chest tightened as I clutched my chest near my heart and said " I am sorry, sorry for everything, i-i-im very s-s-sorry for everything-thing" I couldn't control it in me, I couldn't control it from the first hello he said, and I choked in what I said to him "eve.....what happened to u"  he shouted. "How I wished I wouldn't have broken our engagement dam-mian, how I wish I had loved u instead of him, how I wished I had not hurted you but wh-what to do now when everything is over, I can now only regret...how I wished I could turn everything around and bring everything right on track, do u hate me damian......yes..u must hate me.....u must hate me a-and...and tell God to punish m-me ......."  "Stop Eve, I'll never hate you, m coming to u right now, ur a good girl, the most best women I had ever seen in my life....." I heard him saying as I broked in sobs. I interrupted him " NO...don't come to me...u'll be destroyed too....I only have u and Bella...and I don't want to be more destructive...I had already destroyed my family....my child....my..." " EVE......STOP BLAMING YOUR SELF...u didn't do anything.....listen to me....I'll ask Jerome to go to...." "No .....he is a devil......u-u must keep away from him.....he is no good ..he killed everyone.....my family....my child....he never loved me... hahaha....he never loved me..no one should love me...yes Damian you must hate me....must hate me" I cried as I found the fire spreading all over....I looked at my hands which were bloody now with cuts...I watched the gun wounds which I gave myself but it was not enough....I had many sins...I had to be disgusted and hated.

   When I was going to say him goodbye. He suddenly said "I can't hate you...I won't hate....because I love you....because I had loved you from God knows w-when...how can I hate you....Eve..wait where you are,okay...I will take you away from there and I will protect you..and we will kill that bastard....that scheming bastard....and I love you so don't hurt yourself...wait f-for..." As I listened him confessing to me, saying he would take me away...I felt so much pain that I could never had felt till now....my heart felt heavy...when I remembered his smiles to me...his gifts for me.....his...no .....I don't deserve him...m dirty.... thinking this...I interrupted him before he could complete his sentence " no.....I don't deserve you.....I had decided to destroy myself today.....u..u live happily and say bella that I missed him...and I missed u too...." I cried harder on phone and heard him " no ....Eve please .....no.....u can't do this....stop everything ur doing..I said I would take u away..."  " Sorry damian....I would definitely love you if I get a chance to love again and always love you even  if I could get chances again and again....goodbye my big ice cube.." " noooo do-..." I cut the call before he could say anything and smiled bitterly as I saw the fire coming to me...I typed a last message " I won't love from now...I wish I had never met you...I hate you Jerome Adam.. goodbye" 

*         I closed my eyes which were still crying remembering my life which was ruined by my own hands...I just had left with regret and a wish....a wish to turn everything back...but I just smiled bitterly and gave myself away into THE FIRE AND ENDED EVENGELINE TARAN.

[ Extra information ]

* Well..so this was the end of past life of evengeline and now I am gonna officially start the story...if u want the POV of male lead or villain then u are free to tell me as I will generously post one.*

***Authors corner***

Hello guys....how r you all?...well m kind of emotional right now....I cried so much writing the last scenes🤧.

Our Eve is really pitiful and Damian is the pitifullest....okay..now I guess u like dis chapter..and hope u like the other ones too..

Well now as we are finishes the past we are gonna start with main story so stay tuned and support Eve in her journey.

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