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Hello again

I am here with my another problem

I must be making u irritated by saying these all.. But what can I even do.. There's no one else who wants to listen me..

Actually in my childhood my sister used to love dolls, and for that she was given lots of dolls from parents, in birthday parties and all, and she loved those beautiful dolls.. She used to do their makeover, exchange their clothes and all.. But after few weeks or so they will be lying in some corner of the house with hands and legs broken ..

I am feeling just like those broken dolls.. Like at first everyone wants me to be near them and when they get me,, they will crush me however they want..

The thing is that i was an extrovert at the starting.. Used to talk a lot like a chatterbox.. But as the time passed they got bored of my talking and started getting irritated.. Now I have a lot to say, lot to explain, lot to talk about myself, my daily activities, some interesting facts with I concluded by my silly overthinking..

But there's no one to listen, no one have that much patience to tolerate me for that much long time.. So even if I never wanted I became an ambivert.. Now those who had little bit patience are also getting bored of me.. Now I am used to listen up everytime I want to say or explain something..

Now I am feeling like I am all alone in the vast ocean on a log or something and the funny part is that I don't even know swimming.. And there's no one with me to support or help me..

All alone like I was always.. And the funny thing is that I don't want to stay on that log anymore.. Just want a peaceful death. Away from every worry..

By that atleast a burden from the earth will be lifted.. I have already been a burden for 20 years.. Now don't wanna be like that anymore.. Just want to peacefully go away from everything and.. everyone....

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No one's here to understand that I am feeling left out..

But it's not there fault as I am the one who's not able to make them understand or say what I am feeling..

I want them to read my eyes.. They are saying many things.. But day by day they also stopped speaking.. They also stopped showning.. And I named myself as silent eyes ..

I am feeling like it would have been much better without my presence..

I am really don't know what to do..

I don't know how to react in such circumstances

I am feeling empty inside me.. Feeling void.. Feeling like my heart is clenching every moment, my hands tremers most of time whenever I feel like that..

Is it really not much if I exist or not.. I just want some love and care and someone to understand my situation.Is it too much to ask for.. May be it is!

I am really feeling like I am drowning into a deep slumber.. Where's there nothing to hold onto, nothing to see, nothing to hear, nothing to feel, just nothing at all..

I don't even have the talent to draw or write what I am feeling inside.. These are just some things which I physically feel.. But what about the mental breakdown situation which is going inside me now and then..

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