Prologue.

"Your not the person for me."

I read that text again and again..another one from him came.

"you should backread to see why"

and even though i said i know already i kept backreading so i could see what was wrong..i couldn't see anything..i tried to be understanding, i showed my affection i even said i'll do anything to stay with him..what was it that was missing?..more of his text came

"See?, you didn't even try to fix it!..your a fool..you also can't understand."

those words hit me like a thousand knives, i'm a fool?..was i suppose to fix it?, from the beginning i knew i wasn't for him because first of all i knew he had someone is it my fault for thinking that if i try a bit harder it will be appreciated?, yes..how idiotic of me to expect that.

A fool will always be a fool..that's what i was just a lovesick hopeless fool, i texted back "It was your decision" followed by "Okay let's just stop this conversation" and he just replied with "ok"..that was it?..after all those things?, i was useless, hopeless again basically i was just someone that's replacable it was sad, infuriating and painful at the same time.

The silence haunted me..i stared at my phone blankly..."ah.."..that was all i could say..i can't understand?, i comforted him, i updated him what i was doing today, right now, yesterday and even tomorrow, and still that alone wasn't ENOUGH?..what more should i do?.

My vision became blurry as the realization hit me..i'm not appriciated am i?., everyone sees me as someone replacable that's what i always was..i wonder if my parents think that way too, maybe thats the reason why people stay away from me, i'm a loner.

I smiled at my phone my nose scrunched up, my brows furrowed and the tears followed soon..each one dropping at the screen of my phone, i turned it off..the black empty screen reflecting my current look.."fuck.."..i muttered my heart hurts..my body feels heavy maybe i was born as a burden..a mistake?..HAHA yeah..probably.

I thought everything was gonna be okay now that he was here with me..i wanted to comfort him in his darkess times because i knew what it felt to be alone, judged and discriminated more so i knew what it felt to be abandoned i wanted to show him i was a safe spot..but he left me like anyone else, now i question myself am i even worth it?.

Does it make them happy to see my pain?..i sobbed quietly the quiet atmosphere almost seemed comforting but not enough..what do i do?., should i just die?, i've done everything i tried to accept myself, i tried so hard to make others stay i forgot about myself, was it all just a play?, was i a bet?..a garbage?, fine it's okay after all i'm just someone temporary right?,useless as always that's what i was we didn't really get along well...since i wasn't that talkative and so was he i wanted to strike up conversations but i was scared he'd find me annoying like anyone else.

i was thrown away again.

"do you see happiness in my pain?."

"does it make you feel incharge?."

(chapter 1 will be release tomorrow if ya'll want the characters introduction please comment! "introduction!")

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