Getting used to

The new section was completely different than the previous one,

Nobody was staring at

me, They all were busy in their own works. People seem more talkative and

noisier. I was standing right in front of everyone and nobody noticed me as if

I am an invisible one. So selected my seat on the first bench and I started

doing my work.

After a couple of minutes, a small

boy with his bold eyebrow and brown hair came up and told me that the seat

belongs to him but I refused to give him my seat. He was quite polite though, I told him he could seat with me but he was stubborn too so, I felt like I shouldn't argue in small issues and I changed my bench.

Up to now, everything was going

normal but my eyes were still searching Mini, outside the window.

In this section, I found many friends who belonged from my own hometown which made me comfortable.

In the class, I was good at study and I proved it by securing the highest marks in my every weekly test, I got

habitual with friends, Actually, In this section, there was a dispute between boys and girls. There always used to be some conflicts between boys and girls.

It's because some of the girls were there who was completely aggressive, overly dramatic, and to be honest they

were bitches.

They always complain against us and

always made us get punished. I really hated those six girls. But again other students were quite silent, creative, and peaceful.

In this way a month passed

And till now I was unable to talk

with Mini, not even through Social media. I was of shy nature at that time, I

couldn't talk comfortably with my opposite gender. The time continued, the

period was getting over, Days was passing rapidly and my eyes were still stuck

at the window of my section looking for Mini.

So the day came for the submission

of our assignments and I found that my notebook is absent from my bag. I got

worried. I searched for it a lot. I even told this to my subject teacher but he

refused to receive any excuses. At that time the assignments were given high

priority. Later on, I found that a girl named Shikshya who was extremely intelligent and always used to score the best marks among all girls had taken my notebook to copy. I thought why would she do like this as she is completely aware of the submission day and which could get me punished if I fail to submit in time. This made me mad at her, I spoke very rudely and scolded her very badly.

Actually, I took the revenge from the boy's side as the girls were continuously

made us get punished. I was praised by my boys but when I looked at her face, she was being like a red tomato,

Angry expression, with sharp eyes, crushing her teeth, definitely intended to hit me.

For instance,  I was scared by shikshya's look.

After getting home I realized, I said a lot of things to her, I shouldn't have behaved in that way. To be honest, it wasn't me, it was the anger for my missing notebook, actually, in that notebook, there was one small unfolded sheet of paper,  inside which a short poem was written for Mini. I have prepared that poem thinking of those times spent looking outside the window for Mini and my shy nature to speak with her on Facebook. Fortunately, I hadn't mentioned Mini's name. I think she read that poem But for now, I must apologize for my rude behavior. I planned I will say apologetic words to express sorry.

Tomorrow, when I arrived at school I found shikshya is absent. This made me feel really upset and the worst part is that the next day there was a public holiday. so I couldn't talk to shikshya to accept my mistake for two days.

If you have to say anything to anyone and due to some unforeseen circumstances you cannot express your words,really suck. It feels like something is stuck in your neck, and neither you could swallow nor you could throw out of your mouth. Those all feelings which left unexpressed reoccurs every time inside the head. You cannot get out of it until you say it out to someone. This creates a kind of imagination for future events like in my head for two days I kept imagining on how to apologize. I completely agree that it's just a small issue and I could resolve it as soon as I say sorry to her but again doesn't matter how small the words or issues are If it is left unexpressed, The guilt of not expressing will eat you completely inside.

In between these all, a lot of things were going on. I found that my bench partner named Prasu was a good friend of Mini and I came to know that Mini and Prasu are both childhood friends. He told me that Mini is feeling sick and has taken leave for some days. She will continue after the public holiday. So this is the reason why my eye could not find Mini face from that window.

At that point, I was waiting for two girls (Mini and shikshya).

one was shikshya to whom I have to say sorry and with Mini, with whom I have to say anything that could make a long time with her. I just needed any reason to talk with her but I don't know whether I could talk with them or not because I always doubt my confidence while talking to girls.

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