Chapter 1

(Senri's POV)

Every time I go out to feed the loneliness I have inside of me, I feel that the world that I see is in constant hunger that all the food I have found for myself, I have been giving to her.

I do not know how I started thinking this way. Even now I still wonder.

The busy streets I am always shown of as I glanced outside the window in the middle of the day becomes dead when the evening comes in and the silence takes over the world.

It feels empty.

And even if I am there, it still feels empty.

Maybe I was wrong to think that life travels a routine, that it is dull and boring but I cannot remember how long I have been in this cycle. I have slept in the day and have stayed up at night scribbling words as they flashed inside my head.

That may also be the reason why I see life this way. Still the universe in my head is only alive at night with her darkness that has chased my music away.

I no longer have cigarettes. I need to buy some. I traversed the long bridge. I like to think it has become familiar of my footsteps. The silence of the night painted beautiful colors of the universe inside my head — the one that I have been protecting from myself.

I reached a convenience store and got what I needed. I paid at the counter. I do not know what the crew looks like but the gender is female.

I cannot look people in the eyes. I can but I do not want to.

I am afraid of their eyes.

They tell tales, not about themselves, but about me.

And I think that is when I start not to care about what they say. The thought was a curse for me but I saw it as a gift. I thought it would bring me misfortune but it did not.

It did not bring me anything at all.

In fact, it began to take fragments of the things that I would never know but I pushed myself to believe in this thought.

For I am afraid... I am afraid that if I lose faith in this very thought, I may start to muster the courage to kill myself.

I stepped out the convenience store and began trailing back my steps. The bridge is beautiful. It is surrounded by the waters. The colors of the night that are reflected on it make the bridge more magical to walk on.

Or so I thought.

The universe inside my head begins to crumble as I see a man from afar trying to jump into the waters. He probably wanted to kill himself and I do not want to take part of it, let alone be a witness.

In any way.

I tried to act like I did not notice a thing but then, he already began to notice me that he got off the ledge. I can feel his eyes piercing through me. I can only look at his left wrist dripping with blood.

I wanted to laugh at his failure to end his misery for I have been there a lot of times.

I thought a meter away from him is a safe distance.

“Do you really want to die?”

I asked as I slowly moved my eyes up and looked at his lips.

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