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continuation of Max's flashback :

when I came inside her house , she had a cute frown on her face . i asked her

" is ... something wrong ?..."

she just stared at me with her big green eyes and said " nothing " coldly , turned and walked to her room I guess... quietly .

which I found absurd . Did she not want me here now ? ..do I look okey ? ..did I do something? ..I had so many questions .

I although not knowing what to say or do ..walked to her room .

she was looking outside her room .. silently not facing which I again ..found wierd . But I stayed silent ..

It was an awkward 5 minutes . I looked at her in silent frustration , why was she acting like this ? i her fidgeting.. I unintentionally watched her .

She was wearing a baggy white t-shirt and black shorts that complimented her long legs . Her light brown hair was tied up in a ponytail.

My heart was beating faster by the minute when I started to stare at the space between her shoulder and her neck . I bit my lip a bit hard on the thought .

I looked away immediately .blushing ..but then it hit me ... I frowned at the thought of her being with me because ..I didn't even know ; if she was into girls , I didn't know if she was straight or not .

But even if she was , I'm her friend..she wouldn't even consider to date me .

my thoughts slowly started to kill me.

Cassy finally decided to break the silence.

she asked me " where were you going "

" .. I just went to the convenience store to buy some things ..then head home .." i said .

she asked bluntly " why didn't you come here for a bit ..?"

I stared at her ..not knowing what to tell her . I wanted to tell her .I went to the store to see her on the way ..I wanted to tell her that I missed her , that I dreaded not seeing her . that I liked her ...

But I stayed silent .

She finally turned to me .she looked sad . she said " d-do you feel like you're being pushed sometimes..?"

" what do you mean? " I asked confused .

She sighed and said looking at me .

" do y-you not like to hang out with me ? "

I looked at her quite shocked .

why would I not want to be with you ..-is all I thought .

" why'd you say that?..."

She looked down and explained .

" Sometimes , I feel like I'm forcing you to be my friend. On the first day when we were walking back home ..you said you didn't need any friends..which I foolishly sweeped aside .."

she looked outside again and continued .

" it's been 2 months max ...2 months since I gave you my number . And from what I've seen..you neither call nor text me ...everyday I have to come to You ..You never make any effort in this friendship . I feel like I'm annoying you sometimes.. and not even In a friendly manner . "

by this time I was feeling uneasy and i was frustrated at myself.

My eyes were wide open and my palms were clenched . I blamed myself .

Cassy looked at me with tears that threatened to fall out . and said ,

" I'm sad because ...i consider you very close to me I told you so many secrets ..I've gossiped with you . You probably know so much about me , but I don't even know if you really want to hear anything from me or be friends with me . I know nothing about you..!"

I was clutching onto the bedsheet ..

I couldn't believe she kept all of this in ..when I thought she told me everything ..

I watched her sob ..she kept on wiping the tears away when new ones kept falling out .

My heart ached .

she said between her sobs ..

" and even now...huh..you tried to avoid me ..but I pulled you in again..I feel like I'm wasting your time..."

she covered her face and apologized..

I couldn't take it anymore..

I got up and walked over to her , slowly engulfing her in a hug ..of which she tried fighting not wanting to be in.

she screamed " Don't ttouch me ..you don't wantt to do thiss.. you're only heree because I asked you to..!! ..you don't even like Mee "

I asked her , trying to hug her still.." Are you sure about that?! "

she slowly stopped resisting . she asked with her hands on my shoulder and her head resting on my chest.

" Sure ..about what ?

now..was my turn to explain.

I hesitated " I was scared ..scared of losing you . . Nobody wanted to spend time with me before .. because I was ..hard to talk to ..I didn't want you to think .. I'm a loser ...I want to spend more time with you everyday ..but I felt like I would freak you out if I did .."

I felt her her losing her tensed posture ..I poured my heart out ..

" the reason I never said anything about me ..is because you never asked. and also because I didn't want to interrupt you talking about the seashells you found at the beach the other day .."

she giggled lying on my chest , I smiled .

she had placed her hands on my back ..almost pulling me closer ..of which I was confused but yet wanted to take advantage of .

A moment like this ..I thought I wouldn't ever get it anymore ..and I was cherishing it .

I silently inhaled her hair ..she smelled of lavender ..

I felt her chest rub against mine ..and something inside me started to spin wildly.

I felt her tiptoeing up to my ear and say .." I found out .. you're lesbian "

My eyes went wide .. I caught a glimpse of her lips before looking at her eyes again .

It was plump red and looked soft .I was resisting myself from biting my own from all this pressure .

I looked at her wierdly ..trying to shade my turn on .

she moved away and smiled brightly

" Don't worryy ...! I'm lesbian too!...Now I know why we're best of friends .!"

I looked at her in shock ..and confusion .she was into girls ..too ..but she never showed no kind of interest in me ..I didn't know what to feel about it..

I felt dread .

I just got rejected without me even expressing my feelings ...

I pushed her away ..right then mom called me to come back home .

Cassy looked at me and asked what was it ..

I said quickly I needed to go home..

she nodded and asked if she wanted to take home some cookies .

I politely denied her offer , and head home .

I silently cursed on the way .

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