Who Am I?

Stop……ahhh….okay, I get it, I get it….hahaha! thank you my friend, I am awake now!!!!, what I said to the deer still licking my face all over even though I’m already conscious.

After the dive where my heart was full of pain, emptiness and longing, waking up with a deer licking my face felt like I was reborn from misery to new life. I feel refreshed and recharged like a baby coming out of a mother’s womb, new to everything around me, the animals and the world.

I left all that was hindering to move forward at the bottom of the sea and dived back up to myself and life a new person. I feel free, safe and whole. I think the God of Heavens heard my prayer to cleanse my heart so I can forget about the past and move on to my journey especially that the competition is very near. God or Bathala, Tian or Kami in some tribes, is a loving, nurturing and powerful force that kept me alive in all of my battles, hunts and made me invincible, surviving everything that opponents and enemies throw at me.

I know now what my purpose is. Still living the life I love to do and standing here not knowing what my future holds for me. I love myself, my life and my adventures.

Thank you my dearest friend!, here eat some of my dried carcass and go to your family there. They are missing you already. I’m okay now, thanks to you, I whispered to my new found friend Tila (rain stopping) while I kissed his forehead and pushed him to his wife and children. See you around my friend!. Tila swerved his head to look at me one more time and jumped towards his family. They all walked away in unison after seeing me standing and fixing myself, my weapons, and garments all together. I felt happy and I can’t describe the fire and wholeness I feel now that Bathala gave me a second chance, of all the many chances He has given me, to live my life, my purpose and more.

I walked to the heart of the forest and came across a couple, they are about 30 feet from me and I heard the boy yelling at a girl. He was about to hit her but when I stepped on a twig and cracked, he suddenly turned to where the noise is. Then, I hid in the middle of one of the biggest trees in our land called Menara (tower which is seen in Borneo). Ah, no, he will see me, must hide or I’ll be dead in a minute!, I thought while the boy moved towards where I was standing and almost 10 feet now from them.

I recognize the girl’s voice. Yuna?

Issac, I can’t do this anymore, I want to break up with you. I can’t stand your impatience and violence. Go home and leave me be from now on!, Yuna added emotional and now started to cry. She didn’t turn around to see the boy walk away. Suit yourself, if I leave now, you won’t see me again!, Isaac replied angry and throwing the tree branch he was about to use with the intruder who called out his attention when he was about to hit Yuna, who was me. I felt glad that Isaac left and I made myself visible to Yuna.