HOPE

I made way through the mall into this beautiful restaurant, I caught sight of an empty table near the windows and settled down. There were more people in each table, chatting, eating and laughing together giving no regards to table manners, while I stayed quiet.

I felt lonely, I felt sad. A drop of tears fell from the corner of my eyes I cleaned it instantly so that people won’t notice it.

Sorry I didn’t introduce myself..

My name is Chelsea Grimes, am 25 years old.

You see that surname of mine, I don’t know if it’s truly my surname, I was only told it’s my father’s name.

I’ve never for once set eyes on my parents, I was told when I was 12 years that my father killed my mum and was sentenced to life in prison that was why I was brought to a family house where I grew up and attended my secondary school and college.

According to my godmother, she said I was two months old when my mum committed suicide I don’t know if is true or lie, I grew up believing that.

Never for once have I set my eyes on my parents, I was told at the of 10 that my mum killed my dad and also committed suicide and that was the reason why I was brought to a family friend’s house where I grew up and pursued my education till college.

According to my godmother, she said I was two months old when my mum committed suicide I don’t know if is true or lie, I grew up believing that.

I left my godmother’s house after my college education, it wasn’t easy for me but I survived it.

Now I’m a graduate, you won’t believe if I tell you that I’ve worked in more than eight companies in just a year and half, but am repeatedly fired for the slightest of mistakes I make.

Hatred surrounds me everywhere I go no matter how hard I try to impress the or make them happy or see me as a good person, their reaction is always the same towards me “Hatred”.

Life is so unfair to me. I’ve heard of people being unlucky I never believed it until now. I’m just unlucky, am a bad luck.

Anywhere I enter disaster must happen there, nothing good comes out of me. I think it is because of this that people hate and don’t want to associate themselves with me or see me anywhere close to them.

I’m always lonely, no family, no husband, no boyfriend not even a common friend that will console me. Everyday I cried and wept regretting why I came to this world, I’ve never being happy all my life from my childhood till adulthood and I always have thoughts of ending it all by myself by committing suicide, but that thought is always followed by the thoughts of the mother I never knew, so I guess that’s the reason why am still alive.

Hmmm.Today at work, I mistakenly dropped the working files on my boss, and that was it. The next thing he did was to fire me upon all my pleads.

No one pleaded with the boss on my behalf because they couldn’t wait to get me out of the company. My boss threw me out of the company, I cried as a result of pain and frustration.

Where will I go from here? How will I get money to pay my house rent? These were the questions ringing in my head. Oh God, why did you bring me to this wicked world to suffer when you know very well nobody will like or accept me? I exclaimed in tears and agony looking up to God hoping maybe he will answer me.

Sometimes I wonder if am the only one going through all these pains infact am the only one, I’ve never see anyone suffering or being treated like me before.

The whole universe is against my existence I know that, God should just take my life so that I can rest cause I’m physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally broken down.

I wonder if I still have tears in my system.

Life is just too strong when dealing with me but soft and smooth on others.

I left the company and came to this beautiful restaurant as soon as I sat down I looked everywhere, and there were a lot of people having fun with their families, partners and best friends while I sat there lonely thinking about my miserable life.

I felt tears rolling down my cheeks once again I knew what it was, of course my tears, the little ones that remained in my system I guess.

I buried my head in my palms and allowed the tears to flow out freely because I couldn’t stop it.

At this moment how I wish a sister or a friend I can go out with or lay my head on his or her shoulder at this point of my life it would’ve been good but unfortunately I’ve none. Am just alone here on earth.

And suddenly I heard this “Excuse me madam”, a tiny but nice voice came.

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