2. flashback
It was a regular morning routine as usual
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*making breakfast*
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*hurriedly going here and there*
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*sighs hard and looks at her*
What are you forgetting now?
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
My specs!
She smiled and opened the drawer of the TV cabinet and gave it to her Mom
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*pass the bottle*
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*smiles*
Thank--
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*pass her phone*
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
Ohh--
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
अब और कुछ याद आए तो बता दो आप?
{If you remember anything else, please tell me?}
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*thinking and shook her head*
No...
She was about to go out of the house and remembered
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
मेने गीज़र बंध किया के नहीं?
{Did I turn off the geyser?}
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*hold her shoulder and smiles*
में देखलूँगी माँ आप जाओ!
{I'll see it Maa, you go!}
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*giggles and kiss her cheek*
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*whines*
Maa!
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*taps her nose and smiles*
मेरी अनरोमांटिक औलाद~
{My unromantic child~}
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*roll her eyes and scrunch her nose*
Okay go now!
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
What will you do after you get a husband? You can't act like that!
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*glares*
Maa~
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*kiss her forehead and smiles*
Bye bye~
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*sighs hard and nods*
Bye Maa~
She glanced at her mother going to the office and smiled sadly
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
Husband...? And me...?
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*eating her breakfast while watching Run BTS*
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*giggling and eating*
After having her breakfast she started doing the house chores as usual
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*making lunch and humming a song*
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
हमको मिली हैं आज ये घड़ियाँ नसीब से
हमको मिली हैं आज ये घड़ियाँ नसीब से
जी-भर के देख लीजिए हमको क़रीब से
After having her lunch she started working to find new ideas for her art
After having a brainstorming session with herself she smiled when she saw her neighbour's cat on her window
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*chuckles*
Hi Fluffy~
As soon as she gives attention to him, he runs away in shyness
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*pouts and sighs*
And at evening when her Mom returns they both share about the day and have dinner
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*lays on the bed while staring at their family picture*
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*smiles sadly*
I hope you all are well Papa~
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*close her eyes while clenching the plushie*
She still sleeps with the first ever plushie her Papa brought for her
Since past 3 years she's been again having nightmares of her past
She was only 4 years old when she first had her biggest loss, Her Papa
Urja works as a government servant, in place of Her husband she got the job
During her training days she used to go for months leaving her little child with her parents (FL'S maternal grandparents) with heavy heart to secure her future of her dearest daughter
After getting her training done, her parents decided to go back to their home as his son had their kids
They kept pressuring them to come back as Parents shouldn't stay at her daughter's in laws house
Years later she again got the devastating loss of her Nanu... The only person who was like his best friend and a father figure for her
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
For higher studies, I think you should go to Ahmedabad...
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*stunned*
A-- Ahmedabad?! Leaving you alone?!
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*smiles and pats her head*
I'm not alone Bitto... And it's for your career... I won't make any compromise in it, you have to do well for your Papa!
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
....
She had completely shut down her feelings and didn't express anything because Her own mother wouldn't share anything
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*nods lightly*
As you want Maa...
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*pats her head and smiles*
And don't worry... Nani will stay with you...
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*looks at her*
(But what about you? What will you do? Why are you always so strong? Why don't you show your feelings? Are we going to go through just like this...?)
At the end she couldn't ask anything....
So when she was in college, her Nani stayed with her in Ahmedabad
After Jury, she was exhausted... She didn't sleep for 8 days straight and kept working hard
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*comes inside the room tiredly*
Dharti Kumar (FL Grandma/Nani)
अक्षु खाना तो खा ले, फिर सो जाना!
{Akshu eat your food first then go to sleep!}
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
नहीं नानी, भूख नहीं है...
{No Nani, I'm not hungry...}
She slept 15 hours straight and didn't even move at all
During those times, the studies were tough.... Tough enough to let her forget every pain as she didn't even get time to look at herself in the mirror
That's how a designing field are~ They make you forget your outside world... Your only focus is work, work and work
Now finally it was her last year "Thesis Year"
But coronavirus strucked and all the classes were held online
She and her Nani both went back and stayed with her Mom
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*drinking coffee with baggy eyes*
She kept working on her project at nights
She had to work extra hard, because the professor hated her... She always looked for the small points to bully her
She especially targeted her being a fatherless child and triggered her
Even her classmates looked down on her
But Akshita, she stayed strong... She would cry and bounce back again with her results
That was the biggest slap she gave them without even talking or arguing back
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*got up and checked on her*
Urja was observing her day by day, she saw how much her daughter was struggling every day and night
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*tired and stretching her neck*
Ugh...
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*worried*
Dharti Kumar (FL Grandma/Nani)
*pats her head from behind*
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
माँ आप जाग गए?
{You're awake Mom?}
Dharti Kumar (FL Grandma/Nani)
*smiles while looking at Akshita*
ये तो रोज़ का है... दिन रात बस यही करती रहती है...
{It's her everyday routine... She just does this day and night...}
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
....
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
*looks at her*
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*rubbing her eyes and trying to stay awake*
(If I don't complete this, that witch won't let me breathe!)
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
(I hope her year ends well and soon... I can't see my baby struggling like this anymore...)
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*wears earphones and plays the song*
It was the playlist of BTS
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*moving her neck to the rhythm and working*
(Now I feel like I can still work till morning~)
During her low point, she suddenly came across BTS... It wasn't just her distraction but also a comfort which she never got from anyone else
BTS was like a therapy for her~
After getting her degree, she decided to get a job in Ahmedabad and asked her Mom to come here
But she refused, as she didn't want to leave the place where she had the memories of her husband and family
Akshita was worried about her, as she already stayed away from her for years
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
You go... Pursue your dream... I'll be fine...
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
....
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
इतने साल तो रही ना अकेले में... थोड़े साल और सही...
{I've been living alone for years right... So why not a few more years...}
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*got up and went inside her room*
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
Bit--
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*crying silently while sitting on the floor*
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
क्यूँ बाप्पा... ऐसा क्यों करते हो...?
{Why God... Why do you do this...?}
Urja insisted her to go to Ahmedabad for her new job
Akshita, still hesitant to leave her mother alone again but had to give in because of her mother's continuous requests
Urja Rathore (FL Mom)
पापा का नाम रोशन करना है तुम्हे... जाना तो पड़ेगा...
{You have to make your father's name shine... you will have to go...}
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
....
This time it felt like pressure... The pressure she couldn't take it any more
Before she could make her decision, they got another devastating loss... A sudden shock for everyone
She lost her only support who stuck by their side when there were hard times
Her fuaji... Her Papa's best friend...
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*staring at the hospital with blank eyes*
Mishti Solanki (FL P.Cousin)
*crying miserably*
Papa!!!
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
....
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*hold her*
Mishti Solanki (FL P.Cousin)
*hugs her and crying*
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*staring at bappa's idol in hospital temple*
(Why Bappa... Why are you so cruel...)
All the things that happened in the past, she was feeling it again
Even though she was only 4 years old, she still remembered each and every word that everyone said
It triggered her PTSD and she again started having nightmares
But when she looked at her mother, she was more heartbroken
She had lost weight but still kept herself composed and did all the rituals for 13 days
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*passing by while carrying flowers*
Sulekha Rathore (FL Grandma/Dadi)
Tsk! Both of them are useless! Couldn't give me at least one grandson!
*mumbling angrily*
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
....
She was talking about her daughter-in-laws... Urja and Nita...
Even during the tough time of her daughter's loss, she was still cursing her daughter in laws for not giving birth to sons
That's right, Mahesh her beloved son also had a daughter Kamya, who was currently 10 years old
But she was not like Akshita who would respect her grandma even after such insulting behaviour
Sulekha Rathore (FL Grandma/Dadi)
You! Kavi! Bring water --
She glared at her for taking her name wrong and left
Sulekha Rathore (FL Grandma/Dadi)
Tsk! Ungrateful like her mother!
Sulekha Rathore (FL Grandma/Dadi)
Aksmita... Bring water for me!
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
(It's Akshita Dadi... You don't even remember your granddaughter's name...)
Kamya hated her Dadi and never cared for her... But Akshita? She only respected her as she considers her as Her Papa's Mom...
She didn't care about the love that grandmothers give... She just respected her for the sake of her parents and the values that they had given her
Akshita Rathore (FL/Akshu/Bitto)
*nods lightly*
Jii Dadi...
Mishti Solanki (FL P.Cousin)
*saw everything and looked down controlling her tears*
(Why us God...?)
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Ria
For me as well
2025-04-05
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