Traumatised

LISA POV:

While I was lying on my bed someone came into my room I didn't turn to see who it was but all I wanted was not him.....

Mom picked me up for a bath I didn't refuse because all I wanted was dad's stench to leave my body ....I could smell it everywhere and I wanted it to rub off the nauseating smell off my body so I turn on the shower and sat on it crying my heart out but I didn't make any sound always feeling that if I shout dad's hard slap will fall on my cheek again I know I was getting traumatised but I couldn't come out of it ....I didn't know how to come out of it

I wanted to die just die after yesterday's night I rubbed my skin nearly peeling it off but the smell was not coming off so I started finding a sharp thing like blade or knife to kill myself I didn't want this life I didn't wanted what was happening to me I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH ..

was all I could think finding nothing I just tried cleaning myself and came out wearing a towel and saw my mom cleaning my room changing those sheets covered with blood and white sticky substance .....where her husband just f*cked her daughter I started disgusting my MOTHER even more after seeing this ...... I wore a fluffy hoodie with leggings trying to cover every inch of my body I didn't want anyone to see what my new dad has done to my body and I was so scared to wear body fit dresses thinking I would allure men and they would hurt me ..... my mom took my to the kitchen I rushed for water because I was so thirsty and dehydrated that sometimes my visions were blurring out I was relieved to have some water.....After that mom made me have orange juice and omletes after I finished that I was given some kind of pills the packet said for birth control I took it I didn't wanted to get pregnant so young and not me mention if I get pregnant I will have my STEP DAD'S KID ...........

After taking the pills I just wanted to wrap myself up in a comforter and lay there .... but I did not want to go back to my room it would only make the aching pain inside more then I saw a beautiful garden lawn of this house and I wanted to go there it was very beautiful with many kinds of flowers and fruit trees......I sat on a bench soaking as mush as vitaminD I could there sat mesmerising at the flowers they were so beautiful and freely swayed from one place to another unlike me ....... I had no leash around my neck or hands I was given no warning that I couldn't leave but I knew it myself that if I wanted to leave I couldn't......they come for me eventually sun was about to set down and I closed my eyes and faced at the sky.......my alone time was coming to and end now.... as soon as I thought this a pair of hand wrapped around my waist making my heart stop.....

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COMMENT HOW I AM DOING GUYS .......DO YOU ALL THINK THERE WILL BE A HAPPY ENDING AFTER READI D SO FAR ???? HONESTLY I STILL DON'T KNOW.......😉😉

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