this is not what I wanted

✦ 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕 ✦

His lips crashed on mine Making my soul out of my body ....

His skillful lips sucked on my inexperienced lips . He bite on them and a painful gasp left my mouth . Taking the advantage his toung  entered my mouth and started kissing me brutally . He was more rough than before . My heart was beating so fast ...

" Le.. lea --ve me .." I tried to say in-between his dominating kisses . I gain strength a Little bit and pushed him hard on his chest ..  he stubmled back a little bit but instantly balanced himself .

" What are you doing ? " I asked with shockness .  tears was streaming from my eyes continuously . I couldn't believe the person right now standing in front of me was Ewan ..

" What I'm doing ? .. I'm doing what you wanted .. " he said in a sarcastic tone and again walked towards me . He stopped in a little distance from me and the looked me from top to bottom . His intense gaze on my body was making me nervous... I clutched the silk nightdress tightly ..

" Not bad .. hmm you are all ready for your first night " he said with a smirk on his face ... My heart stopped listening his words . I just stared at him  with wide eyes ..

" You are wearing this to seduce me right ? " He asked with playing the same smirk on his face .. I shook my face instantly .. " noo .. " a whispered left my mouth .

Suddenly he walked more close to me ..his hot breath was fanning on my face . He burried his face in the crook of my neck and inhaled deeply . My heart beat was getting loud with his every movement ...

" You smell so good ... " He said in a deep husky voice . A cold chill ran down my spine ..

And next moment his one hand captured my butt harshly and pulled my lower part more close to his ..

" Ewan leave me .. " I cried and closed my eyes .. what is he doing ?

" Why ? I'm just doing what you wanted .. " he said and ran his hands from my butt to all over my arms and back . His hand move upwards and stopped at my waist .

" You have a sexy body ... I never noticed it .. " he said and smiled wickedly .. his words made me feel dirty about myself ....

" Ewan please leave me ... " I said and tried to push him . But his being drunk didn't help  at all he was still so strong and he didn't budge at all .

" Stop with this drama ... " He said huskily and bite my ear lib .. " I know you're very much enjoying this ... After all this is what you want don't you ? " He said making me sick to my stomach . 

And the next thing I know is he threw me on the bed making me jumped on the soft mattress. A panic scream left my mouth but it stopped instantly when he also hovered over me . My heart beat was beating so loudly that I'm sure he could listen it .

I placed my hands on his chest to make a distance between us . The way he was treating me was making me sick .. like I was a wh*** like I'm his plaything ...

He hold both of my hands and pinned them tightly above my head . He was looking at me with lust . My eyes were widened and lips were zipped . I dare not to say a word because I was afraid he will kiss me again ...

But like he read my fear because his lips again crashed on mine . My tears were unstoppable . He kissed me few seconds then his lips started moving lower . He kissed on my neck and the on my shoulder .. it moved further down and stopped a little above my chest area . My breath hitched when I felt his lips so close to my chest ..

I started panicking this time and struggled in his hold ..

Then suddenly he took the front of my night dress in his mouth and rip it apart .. I felt so humiliated ..so humiliated ... my upper part was fully visible to him ..now ..

This was it I forced as much as I could and pushed him away from me .. and started crying more loudly . He fall on the bed and instantly get up again and came for me .

I looked at him with teary and painful eyes .. he suddenly stopped and looked back at me directly .. but I didn't let him scared me I keep on staring at him .. my eyes saying dare you come again ..

He looked few more seconds then he got up from bed and left the room , not before shutting the door with a loud thud !

I release a breath I didn't know I was holding and curled myself on bed and started crying more loudly.  He was forcing himself on me .. he was trying to ra--

I couldn't muttered that word because he was my husband now and moreover that I love him .. yes I love him . so bad ...

I love someone who thinks so lowly of me .. who thinks I want his touch .. yes i do love him and want to have. Romantic relationship with him but .. this is not what I wanted ..

I covered myself with the blanket tightly .. I was so afraid that he will come again and assault me ...

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Next morning I woke up with the sound of door banging . I couldn't opened my eyes I was still so sleepy .  But as the person keep on banging the door I helplessly get up from my bed and walked to open the door .

Last night I couldn't fall asleep .. the fear of Ewan and his beastly bheavior ..  so I locked the door from inside and that somehow lessen my fear .

Before opening the door I covered myself with a bathrobe first . I ran my fingers in my hair to look a little presentable . It must be Ana ..

I opened the door and stuck on my breath . The person who was standing in front of me was Ewan . Unknowingly my hands clutched the bathrobe tightly ..  He was looking directly in my eyes .. we stare at each other for few seconds then I looked down . Last night's memory came in my mind and the fear and anger rised in me again ..

" Why it took you so much time to open the door ? I was knocking for 10 mins .." he said in a straight voice with a little hint of frustration . Wow after what he did last night he is saying me this.  What about an apology Mr . Ewan Carter

" I .. I was sleeping.  .. " I replied to him . Really he still have the nervous to question me ..?

" Move " he said And then I realized he wanted to enter the room .

" I said move .. let me enter my room .." he said and instantly I step aside .

I also followed him but I kept the door open in case anything happens again I could run out at least .

" I'm going to take a shower .. we are invited to have lunch in my parent's house.  " He informed me while opening the button of his shirt .

I didn't replied anything to him .. I was just listening . But then he suddenly turned to face me and my heart skipped a beat.  Woah !

" And I'm so.. sorry " what ?

" Sorry for last night ..I was drunk " he said without any emotions ..and then went to bathroom.  Leaving me alone to curse him .

Jerk !

A/N

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