The wreck Pt2

Nicolas quietly got home, he closed his eyes and covered his mouth. He felt weak for almost giving into Nathan’s temptations, even allowing him to touch his body. He wanted to tell himself that he hated Matthew but he couldn't help but love the side Matthew was scared to show, the side that was full of affection and love… he wanted to hate it but he just couldn’t.

He collapsed at the door covering his face, the guilt welling up in him for Enjoying another man’s touch was painful. He had to remind himself that he can't be emotionally attached to Matt to not kill him but his weak heart can’t do it, he was simply mesmerized by everything… from his soft hair to his hidden gentle personality, he loved it all.

 “I really am heartless…” he said weakly, his mind raced with thoughts that were hard to ignore. On one hand… he would be from the curse, but he would be alone, but on the other… Matthew offered companionship and affection, it stressed him out knowing he had two people wanting him to accept their deal but he was simply afraid to choose. 

He strolled around the house quietly, his steps quiet as he saw Matthew asleep in bed, leaving a spot and waiting for him, he got changed and soon went into the spot left him, his eyes closed as he buried his face onto his chest, his body cold with guilt but Matthew’s embraced warmed him, his tired eyes closed as he felt the guilt wash away feeling his “Lover’” embrace. “I guess you are a priest…” *he said softly, his eyes closing as he laid in Matthew’s arm, finally relaxing after a stressful day and that guilty pleasure of letting Nathan touch him.

In the morning, Matthew gazed down at Nicolas who was asleep, chuckling seeing him snoring a little in his sleep, his eyes softly directed at his little lover, giving him a small kiss on the cheek before getting up to make breakfast. Nicolas tossed and turned in bed, looking for Matthew but he couldn’t find him, making him wake up from the restless feeling. “Matt..? Where are you…” he whined out, his sleepy form stumbling out the bedroom, looking for him, his arms wrapped around Matt as he cooked.

“You left me in bed…” he whined out, his face buried on Matthew’s back as he spoke, his eyes closed as he sniffed his warm scent and the breakfast he made. “I had to cook, I can't have you hungry in the morning,” he softly jokes. Nicolas remembered when Matthew would boss him around like a dog but here he was, letting him cling onto him… it was odd but he loved it, he stayed silent, memories from yesterday flashing through his mind every now and then. “What’s with the quietness? Cat got your tongue?…” he teased, Nicolas nuzzled his face onto his back and spoke, “I feel clingy..” he said, he was lying through his teeth, the memories of Nathan’s touch haunted and guilted him.

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