chapter one

I've been locked up for 264 days.

I have nothing but a small notebook and a broken pen and the numbers in my

head to keep me company. 1 window. 4 walls. 144 square feet of space. 26

letters in an alphabet I haven’t spoken in 264 days of isolation.

6,336 hours since I’ve touched another human being.

“You’re getting a cellmate roommate,” they said to me.

“We hope you rot to death in this place For good behavior,” they said to me.

“Another psycho just like you No more isolation,” they said to me.

They are the minions of The Reestablishment. The initiative that was

supposed to help our dying society. The same people who pulled me out of my

parents’ home and locked me in an asylum for something outside of my control.

No one cares that I didn’t know what I was capable of. That I didn’t know what I

was doing.

I have no idea where I am.

I only know that I was transported by someone in a white van who drove 6

hours and 37 minutes to get me here. I know I was handcuffed to my seat. I

know I was strapped to my chair. I know my parents never bothered to say goodbye. I know I didn’t cry as I was taken away.

I know the sky falls down every day.

The sun drops into the ocean and splashes browns and reds and yellows and

oranges into the world outside my window. A million leaves from a hundred

different branches dip in the wind, fluttering with the false promise of flight. The

gust catches their withered wings only to force them downward, forgotten, left to

be trampled by the soldiers stationed just below.

There aren’t as many trees as there were before, is what the scientists say.

They say our world used to be green. Our clouds used to be white. Our sun was

always the right kind of light. But I have very faint memories of that world. I

don’t remember much from before. The only existence I know now is the one I

was given. An echo of what used to be.

I press my palm to the small pane of glass and feel the cold clasp my hand in

a familiar embrace. We are both alone, both existing as the absence of somethingelse.

I grab my nearly useless pen with the very little ink I’ve learned to ration

each day and stare at it. Change my mind. Abandon the effort it takes to write

things down. Having a cellmate might be okay. Talking to a real human being

might make things easier. I practice using my voice, shaping my lips around the

familiar words unfamiliar to my mouth. I practice all day.

I’m surprised I remember how to speak.

I roll my little notebook into a ball I shove into the wall. I sit up on the clothcovered springs I’m forced to sleep on. I wait. I rock back and forth and wait.

I wait too long and fall asleep.

My eyes open to 2 eyes 2 lips 2 ears 2 eyebrows.

I stifle my scream my urgency to run the crippling horror gripping my limbs.

“You’re a b-b-b-b—”

“And you’re a girl.” He cocks an eyebrow. He leans away from my face. He

grins but he’s not smiling and I want to cry, my eyes desperate, terrified, darting

toward the door I’d tried to open so many times I’d lost count. They locked me

up with a boy. A boy.

Dear God.

They’re trying to kill me.

They’ve done it on purpose.

To torture me, to torment me, to keep me from sleeping through the night

ever again. His arms are tatted up, half sleeves to his elbows. His eyebrow is

missing a ring they must’ve confiscated. Dark blue eyes dark brown hair sharp

jawline strong lean frame. Gorgeous Dangerous. Terrifying. Horrible.

He laughs and I fall off my bed and scuttle into the corner.

He sizes up the meager pillow on the spare bed they shoved into the empty

space this morning, the skimpy mattress and threadbare blanket hardly big

enough to support his upper half. He glances at my bed. Glances at his bed.

Shoves them both together with one hand. Uses his foot to push the two

metal frames to his side of the room. Stretches out across the two mattresses,

grabbing my pillow to fluff up under his neck. I’ve begun to shake.

I bite my lip and try to bury myself in the dark corner.

He’s stolen my bed my blanket my pillow.

I have nothing but the floor.

I will have nothing but the floor.

I will never fight back because I’m too petrified too paralyzed too paranoid.

"So you’re—what? Insane? Is that why you’re here?”

I’m not insane.

He props himself up enough to see my face. He laughs again. “I’m not going

to hurt you.”

I want to believe him I don’t believe him.

“What’s your name?” he asks.

None of your business. What’s your name?

I hear his irritated exhalation of breath. I hear him turn over on the bed that

used to be half mine. I stay awake all night. My knees curled up to my chin, my

arms wrapped tight around my small frame, my long brown hair the only curtain

between us.

I will not sleep.

I cannot sleep.

I cannot hear those screams again.

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