"Souvenirs"

Ever since Gerald became my boyfriend, he always gives me gifts and many more. So I kept them as souvenirs. Gerald was a loving, understanding, loyal, and many more that other boyfriends could do.

But since that day, everything was my fault. I've become more distant, cold and always moody. Even though, Gerald understood me, he's the only one who can understand me. No one else. Just him.

That night, We were at our favorite spot under the moonlight sky with him. I talked, he'd listen. After some time, I kissed him one last time. A kiss that leaves memories and pain. "Let's break up. I can't-" he cut me off. "What?" he looked at me with hurt in his eyes. I looked away so he couldn't see me cry one last time. "I'm sorry Gerald. I can't do this anymore. I can't always rely on you forever... I'm being a burden to you. I'm really sorry." I looked at him sadly. He hugged me tightly like he doesn't want to let me go. "No! You will never be a burden to me! I love you no matter what happens... I made a promise. WE made a promise!" I pushed him away and stood up to leave, as he hugged me in the back. He cried as I heard him sniffled. "Please... Don't leave me please. I love you. I'll do anything, Just please...". I deeply sighed and faced him. I cupped his cheeks as tears formed in my eyes. "You'll be better and happier with someone else, and that someone else will not be me. I love you so much, but I'm sorry." Gerald weakly dropped to his knees as his hug loosened so I could leave. "'Goodbye Gerald. Maybe in another universe, I'll be your someone else." I smiled and he smiled at me one last time. "I love you." I regretted it that night.

As I got home, I automatically went to my room and cried my heart out. I looked at the gifts that Gerald gave to me. "'I'm sorry Gerald, I'm really sorry..." I cried as I fell asleep. I hope I can go back in time and answer his call. His last call. In the morning, my family barged into my room waking me up as they were crying. They hugged me before I asked some questions.

"What's going on? Why are you all crying?" I asked them confused. "Darling... G-Gerald..." they stuttered. "'Gerald what?" I asked. "Gerald...." "Mom! Gerald what?!" I panicked. "He's gone sweetie" they say as they continue to cry.

I looked at them blankly. I can't talk like a cat got my tongue. "What do you mean? Your joking! What do you mean he's gone?!" I shouted as tears were flowing out on my eyes. "You're all joking! Is this a prank?! Gerald if you're here, come out! This is not funny!" I screamed. "Sweetie, we're sorry...". I frantically got my phone as I saw a notification from him last night. I called him back, but he doesn't answer and always goes to voicemail.As I called his number, Gerald's mother called me. I accept the call trembling. "Darling, are you okay?" "Auntie..." I cried. "Is he... really...?" I said shaking. "I'm sorry Darling." I dropped my phone, speechless. I broke down and cried my heart out. "No! It's not true! This- this is just a dream... No! No! Gerald!" I cried, having a panicked attack and cannot breathe properly. My family hugged me. "It's all my fault! I- I shouldn't- I shouldn't have broken up with him! It's my fault! It's all my fault! If only I can go back in time! Please!" I screamed before I passed out.

It was his funeral today. I paid my condolences to his family and said sorry over and over again. His mother hugged me tightly saying it was not my fault. Deep down I hated myself. I got close to his coffin and dropped to my knees. All of the people who visited leave me alone in front of his coffin. I cried and apologized to him. "'Im sorry Gerald...I'm really sorry... What's the point? You will never forgive me! I hate myself. I should be the one in there, not you... I'm sorry..." I broke down and hugged my knees and cried overnight.

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