Chapter 3

Ririna felt like she was trapped in a whirlwind, each thought pulling her deeper into the chaos. It was as if a black hole had opened up in her life, devouring her peace and leaving behind a void filled with frustration and uncertainty. She closed her eyes tightly, willing the noise in her head to quiet down, but it only grew louder.

“Why can’t things just be normal?” she whispered into the darkness, her voice barely audible. It seemed unfair that others could glide through life with ease while she was tangled in a web of confusion and doubt. The question looped endlessly, a mantra of despair that echoed her sense of helplessness.

Each day felt like an uphill battle, and she was exhausted from trying to find a way out. The weight of her expectations sat heavy on her chest, suffocating her with the fear of what might come next. She wanted to scream, to cry out for relief, but all that escaped her was a soft sigh, lost in the shadows of her room.

“What do I even want?” she thought, frustration bubbling beneath the surface. Maybe she didn’t want grand solutions or dramatic changes. Maybe she just wanted a moment of stillness, a break from the relentless tide of thoughts that threatened to drown her.

In that quiet moment, a small spark of determination flickered within her. She couldn’t control everything, but perhaps she could start with the small things. A deep breath. A bit of clarity. Maybe, just maybe, she could find a way to navigate through the chaos, one step at a time.

Ririna’s mind swirled with memories, each one sharper than the last, piercing through her resolve. When had it all begun? It felt like a slow descent, the gradual accumulation of choices that led her to this chaotic juncture. She couldn’t pinpoint an exact moment; it was as if she had unwittingly opened a door to a storm and walked right in.

Then there was him. The wrong person at the wrong time, a catalyst for chaos in her carefully crafted world. She could still recall his voice, the way it wrapped around her like a vine, creeping into every corner of her mind. The way he made her feel alive, and yet, ultimately hollow. “A pest,” she muttered under her breath, the word bitter on her tongue. He had invaded her life, taking more than he ever gave, leaving behind a trail of confusion and heartache.

But now, as she reflected on it all, a glimmer of relief washed over her. He was gone. God had intervened, plucking him from her life like a weed. She smiled faintly at the thought, recognizing that perhaps she was meant for something greater. “I can soar high like an eagle,” she whispered, the words feeling lighter in the air.

There was strength in her resolve, a burgeoning sense of self that began to push through the remnants of pain. She felt grateful for the clarity that was finally creeping in, for the opportunity to reclaim her life from the shadows he had cast.

“God heard the conversations I couldn’t,” she mused, feeling a quiet confidence settle within her. She had survived this storm, and now, she was ready to take flight. The future was unwritten, and for the first time in a long while, she felt ready to embrace whatever came next.

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