Cry, Even Better If You Beg

Cry, Even Better If You Beg

Chapter 1 Delivered Girl

The little girl arrived at the mansion by a mail wagon in the early spring.

It was around late afternoon when Bill Remmer was hard at work planting rose seeds.

“Are you Mr. Bill Remmer?”

The child asked carefully, in a smooth accent that gave off quite a peculiar feeling.

Bill Remmer simply stood still with a stupefied look on his face.

“Yes, I’m Bill Remmer.”

Bill took off his straw hat with the same hands that had scrubbed off the dirt from his clothes. The child swallowed when his tanned face, hidden in the shadow of the broad brim, was revealed.

For Bill, the child’s reaction was nothing out of the ordinary. Anyone who first saw Bill Remmer usually reacted the same way because of his rugged appearance.

“Who are you?” Bill’s face appeared more frightening as he frowned upon the child.

“Hello, Uncle Bill. I am Leyla Lewellin. I came from Lovita.”

The child spoke clearly and slowly.

Lovita… Bill soon realized why her accent had sounded a little different.

“Did you cross the border to the Berg Empire and come here all by yourself?”

“Yes. I came by train.”

The child smiled awkwardly, as she unnaturally straightened her posture. At that moment, the postman who had brought the child approached them from behind.

“Ah. This child finally met you, Mr. Remmer.”

“Good timing. Why did you bring her here?”

“She was walking all alone with her luggage in front of the station. So, when I asked her where she was going, she said she was on her way to find Bill Remmer, the gardener of the Herhardt family. I brought her here because I was on my way to deliver some letters.”

The postman explained with a smile and handed over an envelope to Bill Remmer. It was a letter from a distant relative living in the neighboring country of Lovita.

Bill immediately ripped the envelope open. The letter contained the story of an orphaned child who had previously been taken in by relatives who were now no longer able to foster her because of their “poor” circumstances.

The child’s name was Leyla Lewellin. The little girl standing in front of Bill was the orphan mentioned in the letter.

“Damned people. They sure are telling me this news fast.”

Astonished, Bill lost his breath. No one in Lovita could foster this little orphan. Bill Remmer was the last among those who had a direct connection with the child. So they had delivered the child to him.

According to the letter, Bill could leave the child in the orphanage if his situation was not favorable enough for raising her.

Bill grumbled and tossed the crumpled paper to the floor. “These people should go to hell. I don’t understand how they could send this little girl here all by herself.”

As he understood the full extent of the situation, Bill’s face turned red with outrage. The child was treated like a mere toy, passed from one relative to another, and doomed to be dumped when no one else desired her. Eventually, she was sent off to a foreign country and given the address of a distant relative she had never met.

“Excuse me, Uncle Bill. I am not that young.”

The little girl who had been observing Bill quietly suddenly spoke up.

“I’ll be twelve in a couple of weeks.”

Bill chuckled with delight as he listened to her rather mature manner of speech. He felt reassured when he learned that she was older than expected, considering the girl looked smaller than her age.

After the postman who had delivered the troublesome girl left, the two were left alone in the garden. Bill covered his head with his hands and prayed to God for help.

Although they were distant relatives, from afar, they seemed more like a father and his daughter. Bill had not seen his distant relatives in over 20 years, but now he was trapped with a child he had never known existed until today.

Even though it was chilly outside, the child wore only a thin layer of clothing. She looked as skinny as an iron-skewer. Her lime green eyes and gold-threaded hair were all Bill could see of her.

Bill came to a conclusion; He couldn’t take care of her.

However, the only choice then was to place her in an orphanage, which drove him crazy. Bill cursed the relatives a second time for dragging him into this mess. The little girl flinched and began chewing her red lips.

“Follow me.” Bill led the way as he shook his head in frustration. “Let us get some food first before I make a decision.”

His blunt words were carried away by the evening breeze. The child’s timid steps gradually became light and joyful as the two walked closer to Bill’s quarters.

***

“Is that all you’re eating?”

The child was carrying a small plate, which Bill frowned at.

“Yes. I only eat a little.”

The child smiled politely.

“Child, I hate children who eat very little.”

The light from the table lamp shone down on the child’s slender wrist, which was revealed under the sleeve that had been carelessly folded up.

“You should eat everything like a cow.”

Bill’s face became more stern. Slowly blinking her eyes, the troubled Leyla put another loaf of meat and bread onto her plate and hurriedly started gobbling up her food.

“I can’t eat like a cow, but uncle, I can eat quite well.” Leyla showed a broad smile with bread crumbs strewn over her dainty lips.

“Yes. I can definitely see that.” Bill laughed and poured the whiskey into his tall glass. “Aren’t you afraid of me?” Bill’s face was scrunched up as he attempted to frighten her.

But Leyla just simply stared at him, not daring to look away. “Not at all.” She said. “You don’t yell at me. You gave me lots of delicious food. So I believe you to be a good person.”

‘What kind of life has this child been living?’

Bill pondered as he refilled his beer glass. The letter had stated that the child’s mother had abandoned her husband and child to elope with another man. The child’s father, who had been devastated by the betrayal, became an alcoholic and died of alcohol poisoning. Following that, the girl was raised in the homes of other relatives, only to be abandoned by them in the end.

Although the child had lived a tragic life, Bill still thought it was a ridiculous idea for him to be the one to raise her.

Bill Remmer sipped his beer and decided that he would make his decision by next week.

***

“Did everyone hear? Bill Remmer, the gardener, has started taking care of a young girl.”

A young maid dashed into the lounge where the servants spent their leisure time. The servants who had been taking a break turned their attention to the young maid.

“A girl? Mr. Remmer? It’d be more reasonable if he chose to raise a lion or elephant instead.”

One of the servants made a snorting noise.

Bill Remmer, the Herhardt household’s gardener, was a man who possessed a natural talent for growing flowers. Despite his brusque temper, he had been able to keep his job as a gardener for the past 20 years, all thanks to his talent.

He was deeply trusted by the Herhardt family. Especially Norma, the duchess. Because of her unique love of flowers, she understood and accepted Bill’s gardening as well as tantrums. She also decided to give the gardener a cottage in the woods behind the manor house of Herhardt.

Life was easy for Bill Remmer.

He worked in the garden and returned to the cottage for a rest. Despite his time drinking with his fellow workers, he spent most of his time surrounded by flowers and trees. Even after his wife died of an illness decades earlier, he never got attached to another woman.

That Bill Remmer was raising a little girl?

The servants who were relaxing in the lounge came to an agreement that the rumor was utter nonsense.

Until one of the maids sitting by the window shouted,

“Oh my. It must be true! Look over there.”

The maid pointed over the glass window with her eyes wide open. The servants all rushed to the window at the same time and their faces lit up with surprise. Bill Remmer was planting with his body hunched down on the other side of the garden, and the rumored petite girl was following in his footsteps.

As she churned along, the girl’s golden hair, braided in a single strand, shook back and forth like a pendulum.

“I’ve still not decided.”

Bill repeatedly gave the same answer to any questions about the child.

“I can’t leave her here, so I’ll have to think about it.”

While Bill’s thoughts went on through the spring and into the summer, Leyla Lewellin slowly became a permanent resident of the Herhardt estate.

The child’s diligent stroll through the gardens and forests had already become a familiar scene for the Herhardt servants.

“I think she’s grown a bit.” The Herhardt’s chef, Madam Mona, laughed as she stared out the window. Leyla was staring at the grass and flowers behind the forest cottage that were just starting to bloom.

“She still has a long way to go. She’s still smaller than average girls.”

“Bill Remmer, take a look at her. Kids are not the same as your plants. They aren’t going to grow in a day or two.” Madam Mona lowered her basket onto the table with a shake of her head.

“What’s this?”

“Cookies and cake. There was a tea party at the manor yesterday.”

“I hate sweets.”

“Really? This is for Leyla”

Bill Remmer’s dark brows furrowed at Madam Mona’s abrupt response. That child was not supposed to be here, but the Duke’s servants had started to look after Leyla daily.

They would greet her, bring her food, and sometimes pay her a visit, and Bill Remmer was having a tough time dealing with it.

“You should buy some clothes for her. The young lady’s skirt seems to be about to go up her knees now.” Madam Mona asked him as she watched Leyla chasing a bird. Bill was unable to refute. Even in his eyes, it seemed as if Leyla was wearing unfitted clothes.

“Oh my! Oh my! Look at her!”

Madam Mona was about to leave when she quickly pointed to Leyla and shouted in dismay.

Bill cast a queer glance in the direction Madam Mona was pointing. As the bird she had been chasing landed on a tree branch, Leyla began climbing up the tree swiftly, with athletic and light movements like a squirrel.

“She sure has a talent for climbing trees.”

Bill’s unconcerned response drew a scowl from Madam Mona. “Bill Remmer! You were aware of her habit of climbing trees and yet you chose to overlook it? How the hell are you raising your child?”

“As you can see, she’s growing strong and well.”

“You’re raising that girl like a wild beast! My God.” Madam Mona raised her voice and made a fuss. But Bill just snooped around the window deafeningly. He watched Leyla sit on a thin branch in the thicket, looking at the little birds playing around.

After watching over her for a few months, Leyla Lewellin had proven to be a curious girl who wanted to learn more about the world. Flowers and grass, birds and insects. Anything that caught her attention amazed her and piqued her curiosity.

One night when Leyla hadn’t returned for dinner, Bill had gone deep into the forest to find her sitting by the river staring at a flock of water birds. She had been so engrossed in her observation that she hadn’t even noticed Bill calling her name over and over.

Madam Mona had returned home after giving him a couple of more scathing lectures. After that, Bill took a leisurely stroll and went back to his cottage.

“Uncle!” Leyla welcomed him with a friendly wave.

The child came down the tree as quickly as she had climbed it and hurriedly approached Bill. Leyla was dressed in a ragged, dull gray one-piece dress with short sleeves. Since she was going to meet the duke later, her hand-me-down dresses seemed inappropriate, so Bill decided to buy her new clothes.

“Get ready and come out.” Bill said impulsively when they arrived in front of the back door cottage.

“Ah. Uncle?”

“You don’t have to look so puzzled. We’re going downtown to buy you some clothes.” Bill coughed and uncomfortably rubbed the back of his neck. “Duke Herhardt will be here soon, so welcoming him in your current appearance would be a little weird.”

“The duke? You mean the owner of this estate, right?”

“Yes. Since it’s his break, he’ll be back.”

“Break? Does the duke attend school?” Leyla tilted her head, frowning. Bill smiled as he stroked the child’s unruly hair.

“The duke is only 18 years old so he has no choice but to attend school.”

“What?!! 18 years old? The duke?”

Bill’s guffaw grew louder in reaction to the child’s shocked expression. He brushed the child’s fluffy hair with his rough fingertips. It felt as soft as cotton.

***

At the Carlsbar station, a train from the capital had arrived on the platform.

The waiting servants made their way to the station’s private section. A tall, slender boy descended onto the platform by the time they lined up in a straight line.

“Hello, Master.”

All the other servants quickly bowed their heads towards the boy, starting with the butler Hessen’s friendly greeting. Matthias replied to their greetings with a light yet silent gesture in a straight and elegant manner. His rosy lips were curved into a smile that was neither too wide nor too stiff.

The Herhardt’s servants didn’t start moving until Matthias took a couple of moves. The people in the crowd stood back quickly, allowing the young master to pass through. Matthias walked past the platform at a quick pace, showing no signs of slowing down.

“A carriage?” Matthias smirked as he left the station and spotted a carriage waiting for him.

“Ah….. Yes, master. Madam doesn’t believe cars are trustworthy.”

“I know. For grandmother, cars are nothing more than a hunk of iron that is unbearably vulgar and dangerous.”

“My apologies. Next time…”

“No. ‘Classic’ things are not bad. Once in a while.”

Matthias boarded the carriage in a composed manner. Slow but steady movements flowed from his long arms and legs.

As it passed through the busy shopping streets and the square, the carriage consistently picked up speed.

Matthias’ luggage was transported in a separate wagon, which trailed behind the carriage engraved with a golden crest off into the distance.

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1 Chapter 1 Delivered Girl
2 Chapter 2 A Beautiful Bird Slayer
3 Chapter 3 Bring Her In
4 Chapter 4 After a Long Time
5 Chapter 5 The Duke Changed His Mind
6 Chapter 6 Canary
7 Chapter 7 Something Scarier Than That
8 Chapter 8 Safe World
9 Chapter 9 That Humble and Beautiful Girl
10 Chapter 10 Do You Think I’m Begging You?
11 Chapter 11 Deep Water
12 Chapter 12 The Raven Duke
13 Chapter 13 A Night Under the Moonlit
14 Chapter 14 Desirable Woman
15 Chapter 15 Friendly Hunting
16 Chapter 16 Something That Is Nothing
17 Chapter 17 Surprise Present
18 Chapter 18 Emerald
19 Chapter 19 Kiss Me Please
20 Chapter 20 Cry, Even Better If You Beg
21 Chapter 21 Time To Become An Adult
22 Chapter 22 Into The Blanket of Light
23 Chapter 23 Tore It Out, Crushed It Up, and Threw It
24 Chapter 24 Blue Candy
25 Chapter 25 The Color of My Sadness
26 Chapter 26 Let’s Get Married
27 Chapter 27 Season of Roses Without You
28 Chapter 28 Fly in The Spring Like A Bird
29 Chapter 29 A Failed Wish
30 Chapter 30
31 Chapter 31
32 Chapter 32
33 Chapter 33
34 Chapter 34
35 Chapter 35
36 Chapter 36 So, Then?
37 Chapter 37
38 Chapter 38
39 Chapter 39
40 Chapter 40
41 Chapter 41
42 Chapter 42
43 Chapter 43
44 Chapter 44
45 Chapter 45
46 Chapter 46
47 Chapter 47
48 Chapter 48
49 Chapter 49
50 Chapter 50
51 Chapter 51
52 Chapter 52
53 Chapter 53
54 Chapter 54
55 Chapter 55
56 Chapter 56
57 Chapter 57
58 Chapter 58
59 Chapter 59
60 Chapter 60
61 Chapter 61
62 Chapter 62
63 Chapter 63
64 Chapter 64
65 Chapter 65
66 Chapter 66
67 Chapter 67
68 Chapter 68
69 Chapter 69
70 Chapter 70
71 Chapter 71
72 Chapter 72
73 Chapter 73
74 Chapter 74
75 Chapter 75
76 Chapter 76
77 Chapter 77
78 Chapter 78
79 Chapter 79
80 Chapter 80
81 Chapter 81
82 Chapter 82
83 Chapter 83
84 Chapter 84
85 Chapter 85
86 Chapter 86
87 Chapter 87
88 Chapter 88
89 Chapter 89
90 Chapter 90
91 Chapter 91
92 Chapter 92
93 Chapter 93
94 Chapter 94
95 Chapter 95
96 Chapter 96
97 Chapter 97
98 Chapter 98
99 Chapter 99
100 Chapter 100
101 Chapter 101
102 Chapter 102
103 Chapter 103
104 Chapter 104
105 Chapter 105
106 Chapter 106
107 Chapter 107
108 Chapter 108
109 Chapter 109
110 Chapter 110
111 Chapter 111
112 Chapter 112
113 Chapter 113
114 Chapter 114
115 Chapter 115
116 Chapter 116
117 Chapter 117
118 Chapter 118
119 Chapter 119
120 Chapter 120
121 Chapter 121
122 Chapter 122
123 Chapter 123
124 Chapter 124
125 Chapter 125
126 Chapter 126
127 Chapter 127
128 Chapter 128
129 Chapter 129
130 Chapter 130
131 Chapter 131
132 Chapter 132
133 Chapter 133
134 Chapter 134
135 Chapter 135
136 Chapter 136
137 Chapter 137
138 Chapter 138
139 Chapter 139
140 Chapter 140
141 Chapter 141
142 Chapter 142
143 Chapter 143
144 Chapter 144
145 Chapter 145
146 Chapter 146
147 Chapter 147
148 Chapter 148 (END)
149 Epilog I
150 Epilog II
151 Epilog III
152 Epilog IV
153 Side Story 1
154 Side Story 2
155 Side Story 3
156 Side Story 4
157 Side Story 5
158 Side Story 6
159 Side Story 7
160 Side Story 8
161 Side Story 9
162 Side Story 10
163 Side Story 11
164 Side Story 12
165 Side Story 13
166 Side Story 14
167 Side Story 15
168 Side Story 16
169 Side Story 17
170 Side Story 18 (END)
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1
Chapter 1 Delivered Girl
2
Chapter 2 A Beautiful Bird Slayer
3
Chapter 3 Bring Her In
4
Chapter 4 After a Long Time
5
Chapter 5 The Duke Changed His Mind
6
Chapter 6 Canary
7
Chapter 7 Something Scarier Than That
8
Chapter 8 Safe World
9
Chapter 9 That Humble and Beautiful Girl
10
Chapter 10 Do You Think I’m Begging You?
11
Chapter 11 Deep Water
12
Chapter 12 The Raven Duke
13
Chapter 13 A Night Under the Moonlit
14
Chapter 14 Desirable Woman
15
Chapter 15 Friendly Hunting
16
Chapter 16 Something That Is Nothing
17
Chapter 17 Surprise Present
18
Chapter 18 Emerald
19
Chapter 19 Kiss Me Please
20
Chapter 20 Cry, Even Better If You Beg
21
Chapter 21 Time To Become An Adult
22
Chapter 22 Into The Blanket of Light
23
Chapter 23 Tore It Out, Crushed It Up, and Threw It
24
Chapter 24 Blue Candy
25
Chapter 25 The Color of My Sadness
26
Chapter 26 Let’s Get Married
27
Chapter 27 Season of Roses Without You
28
Chapter 28 Fly in The Spring Like A Bird
29
Chapter 29 A Failed Wish
30
Chapter 30
31
Chapter 31
32
Chapter 32
33
Chapter 33
34
Chapter 34
35
Chapter 35
36
Chapter 36 So, Then?
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Chapter 37
38
Chapter 38
39
Chapter 39
40
Chapter 40
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Chapter 41
42
Chapter 42
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Chapter 43
44
Chapter 44
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Chapter 45
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Chapter 46
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Chapter 47
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Chapter 48
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Chapter 49
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Chapter 50
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Chapter 51
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Chapter 52
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Chapter 53
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Chapter 54
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Chapter 55
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Chapter 56
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Chapter 57
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Chapter 58
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Chapter 59
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Chapter 60
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Chapter 61
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Chapter 62
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Chapter 63
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Chapter 64
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Chapter 65
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Chapter 66
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Chapter 67
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Chapter 68
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Chapter 69
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Chapter 70
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Chapter 71
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Chapter 72
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Chapter 73
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Chapter 74
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Chapter 75
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Chapter 76
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Chapter 77
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Chapter 78
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Chapter 79
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Chapter 80
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Chapter 81
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Chapter 82
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Chapter 83
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Chapter 84
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Chapter 85
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Chapter 86
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Chapter 87
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Chapter 88
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Chapter 89
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Chapter 90
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Chapter 91
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Chapter 92
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Chapter 93
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Chapter 94
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Chapter 95
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Chapter 96
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Chapter 97
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Chapter 98
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Chapter 106
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Chapter 111
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Chapter 112
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Chapter 113
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Chapter 114
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Chapter 115
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Chapter 116
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Chapter 117
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Chapter 118
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Chapter 119
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Chapter 120
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Chapter 121
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Chapter 122
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Chapter 123
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Chapter 124
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Chapter 125
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Chapter 126
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Chapter 128
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Chapter 129
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Chapter 130
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Chapter 131
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Chapter 132
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Chapter 133
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Chapter 134
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Chapter 135
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Chapter 136
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Chapter 137
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Chapter 138
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Chapter 139
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Chapter 140
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Chapter 141
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Chapter 142
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Chapter 143
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Chapter 144
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Chapter 145
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Chapter 146
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Chapter 147
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Chapter 148 (END)
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Epilog I
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Epilog II
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Epilog III
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Epilog IV
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Side Story 1
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Side Story 2
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Side Story 3
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Side Story 4
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Side Story 5
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Side Story 6
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Side Story 7
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Side Story 10
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Side Story 11
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Side Story 12
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Side Story 13
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Side Story 14
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Side Story 15
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Side Story 16
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Side Story 17
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Side Story 18 (END)

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