Wish - I

Part 01

Uchiyama Yuuma’s POV

“One, two, three, four, five, six and seven.”I counted and after the seventh star I stated my wish.

“I want to live.” I said while wishing as I watched the night sky.

I know believing this stuff is kinda childish but because of this I somehow hoped that its true and that it will come true.

“Uchiyama-san, time for lights off.” The nurse said as she opened the door of my room to remind me of what the time is.

I was actually staying at the hospital because of my sickness. I have acute myeloid leukemia. It occurs when primitive blood-forming cells called myeloblasts reproduce without developing into normal blood cells. Immature myeloblasts crowd the bone marrow and interfere with the production of normal blood cells. This leads to anemia, a condition in which a person does not have enough red blood cells. It can also lead to bleeding and bruising (due to a lack of blood platelets, which help the blood to clot) and frequent infections (due to a lack of protective white blood cells).

It was discovered during my graduation from lower secondary school. They brought me to the hospital when I suddenly fainted while my nose was bleeding. That time everything started, the pain and suffering. Everything changed because of that day. That day was the start of a horrible and miserable life for me. I know that I am not as miserable as others but what can I do? That's the only thing that I can think of. I’m being a burden to everyone especially to my parents, but I’m still trying to be strong to liven up everything for their sake. Even though everyday I always think of giving up, if there’s a chance that I could still live I’ll grasp on that chance even if it's only .001 %.

They told me that they were so scared, they even cried that time when I was first brought to the hospital, but they didn’t know that I have a severe disease. I just told them that I was fine only my parents knew about my sickness because I told them to keep it a secret. I don’t want them to pity me or even sympathize with me because of what happened to me.

[Flashback]

After the giving of the diploma and giving the awards and honors, the valedictorian of our school year came to the stage. She fixed herself and started her speech, she’s the last part of the program. Even though I’ve got good grades she’s still got the highest between us. She’s Kawaguchi Rei, my best friend and at the same time my rival.

As she descends the stage, she looks at me smiling then all of a sudden her expression changed, her smile disappeared and was replaced by nervousness. She then ran towards me. I felt something flowing down my nose, I thought it was just a cold. I wiped it with my handkerchief and looked at what it was, I was startled when I saw that it was blood.

And suddenly someone screamed.

“Yuu!!” It was Rei.

Then I lost my consciousness and everything went black. And when I woke up I was already at the hospital. Everyone I know was there waiting for me to wake up. I saw them exchanging hugs and smiles when they saw me wake up, but that time I started to feel pain in my body and headaches and I even got tired and weaker. At that moment I just endured everything I didn't want them to see me like this.

They said goodbye to the thought that I’m fine, but after they left I waited a few minutes I started to scream in pain.

“ARRGGGHHH !!!!” I screamed as I crumbled my body in pain. 

My family started to panic and call the nurses and the doctor. I can see their faces pitying me while crying, especially my mom, but there’s nothing I can do but endure everything to not make them worry me.

But why is it too much, too much pain. I sometimes lose consciousness because of the pain. They always give me pain killers just to make my body numb from the pain, but it's still not enough because not only my physical body is affected but also my mentality, everything I think about is getting dark. I am losing my hope.

That’s when my family told me that I have acute myeloid leukemia.

[End of Flashback]

A year has passed since that day, but I’m still at the Hospital. I should have been a second year in my senior secondary school. My youth is kinda wasted in this hospital facility. They said that I need to stay here to monitor me. I’m currently under induction therapy for about a year now I guess. They even suggest that I get a chemotherapy treatment because maybe I’m not getting any better and it's actually the main treatment for my sickness but I refuse, because I know it will only double the pain that I’m feeling right now. I just told them to make a herbal treatment for me, because that’s way more better I think.

I turned off the lights and started to think. I’ve waited until the clock strikes to 12:00 midnight. To witness if my wish will come true or not or will it crush the hope that I only have right now. Well everything makes sense since from the very start there’s no hope for me.

*sigh I guess I wouldn’t be with Rei anymore. I’m considering myself having only a few days? Few months? Or a few years left for me to live. I just wanted myself to be prepared to die, since from the start my sickness doesn’t have any cure. It will just gradually kill me.

I look at the clock in my room. There are only five clicks of the clock’s hand left until it's 12:00 midnight.

“Five, four, three, t-two and o-on-ne. ARGHHHHH !!!” I counted and shouted as my count turned to one. I felt a huge shock of pain. Then next thing I know is I suddenly shaking while clenching my teeth, sh*t I can’t move.

I’m having a seizure.

Is this the end? Am I going to die now??

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