chapter1

As we already know my relationship with Floyd was not a public thing you could say it was secrete relationship. For the first month in the dating scene it was fun, and we were in grade 12 as it was January which in my country the first time we usually say it is back to school. To be honest I was still a virgin at that time and to be honest I called my self or believed I was pure. Floyd and I became close and clingy raising suspicious amount our pears but no one dared to ask. Floyd was openly gay, but you would not guess he was gay as he was manly and to my surprise he had friends which they supported him.

Floyd had some kind of reputation and I did not even know what kind of reputation is it as I was a shy guy and had social anxiety. To be honest Floyd was my ride or die during that era(my forever husband) although it was a secrete relationship. People were afraid of Floyd and I did not know why to be honest. We all know there is no relationship without sex, and it started to affect our relationship. I loved Floyd, but I was not ready to have sex, and he too knew that, but men will always be men.

Intimacy became issue and Floyd started to distance himself and this affected my school work. We were no longer close and people became curious because they knew Floyd was always clingy to me. To make matters worse rumors that I was gay were spreading like wildfire in my hometown and the news about me landed in my uncle and aunt's ears. Their affection towards me changed and I felt lonely.

Floyd ghosted me, and I was being bullied at school which to me during that time it was a traumatic experience. Floyd started dating another boy in another class the whole school knew and to be honest I felt like my world was crumbling down like nobody's business. I started to wonder whether Floyd liked me for my body or our relationship was a lie. After God fears men.my life was like a movie, or I was a character in a TV series which had no direction .

A month went by it was a second term or semester. My relationship with Floyd was still the same (being ghosted)by Floyd. I decided to move on as I was glad no one knew I was gay. As I thought I moved on another person (he is a guy) decided to come into my life and somehow that person caught Floyd's attention,, and he came back. What made me question Floyd's entrance in my life was why now he decided to come back

Floyd going out of my life created a scar if I was a geographic person then I would have said he created a meander scar in my life

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