Note 4

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I entered the spacious and expensive looking hotel room. I guess I have to stay here for about few weeks until our house are ready to live in.

I hastily removed my tie and unbuttoned my shirt then grabbed my phone out of my pocket. Searching nearby places around my location.

I need to let go of this unwavering thoughts, it has been keeping my mind occupied these days. I need no drama, it wouldn’t lead me anywhere.

I do not want to bother myself with it. I’ve been walking down this track since day one, I just do not see the point of derailing out of it.

I walked out of the hotel room, rode the lift down the ground floor. I spotted few of my bodyguards but I signaled them not to bother tailing me.

I’ll just take a stroll out. I look around the place, I am sure it’s just few blocks away from the hotel.

I walk down the pathway, holding my phone and wallet in my hand. A cold breeze whip through my skin. Need to make it quick.

A certain establishment caught my attention and there I knew that it is what I have been looking for. I entered a loud bar but to my surprise, despite the loud music, it didn’t do enough justice to its ambiance.

It doesn’t look cheap at all nor crowded, breaking my expectations from its external appearance.

I went straight to bar stool and sat down. “A margarita please,” the bartender prepared my drink right away.

I drink the shot at once. A sweet with hint of bitterness run through my throat, “Another shot, please.”

As I drink, I can’t keep myself from thinking about things that have been going on in my life. I don’t know if I can even call this ‘my’ life since I don’t feel like I really own it anyway.

Mother was there, acting like a mother but I never really felt that she sincerely care for me nor love me. It can also be that I am just too numb to discern that it’s a motherly love?

Father, he can buy me any luxury in the world but it can come with consequences. He offer things but never leaves you an option to reject. Right after it, he will be there dictating all your life.

I feel like shit. I feel like an absolute fool.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I kept on drinking and I just lost track just how many shot I’ve drunk.

A random girl approached me and joined me at the bar stool, “Hey there. Do you mind if I join you?” She said in a very alluring voice.

I gave her a smirk, “Yeah, I do so will you go?” I utter to myself.

She did not react at all and so I guess she does not understand English or my voice was too silent for her to even hear it.

I continued drinking as if its my last while this random girl keeps on blabbering things I can understand and I am too busy to give a fck about it.

I gazed at her, trying to comprehend how she looks like but to my surprise my vision is not that clear anymore for me to do so. Maybe I got too much to drink. Shit.

The girl suddenly grabbed my arm and I was too drunk to even care. “Hey, spend the night with me.” She whispers in a very flirty way on my ear.

“What if I don’t want to?” I sarcastically fired back at her.

Like fuck? Spend the night with her? I never even had the chance to have a girlfriend and yet spend the night with her? What a joke.

She couldn’t react with what I said, well, I don’t really care anymore and I am too drunk for that.

I bring out my wallet making sure I paid for what I drink. I was about to leave when she dragged me out of the bar.

I don’t know how exactly things happened but all I know is that I am too drunk to process everything.

She caught me off guard when she suddenly kissed me. It was too forceful and it’s not really pleasant. Even with great contempt, I returned her kisses.

“Damn.” I uttered. Fcking hell, this is not me.

I vigorously pulled her hair and grab her neck, pushing her against the wall. I heard a slight moan from her and that fires something inside of me.

“Calm down, honey” she said as she catch her breath.

I didn’t much listen to her and that I know for a fact is that I let my animalistic side get the best of me for the very first time or maybe it was the alcohol.

Everything happened in a blur. That’s the last thing I remembered that night.

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I was woken up by a very severe headache. I opened my eyes and when I turned my head on my side.

“Sht!” This is the only word that escaped my mouth. I covered my mouth in disbelief. I couldn’t move and I do not know how should I react with this.

Fck! What did I do? Sht. Why am I sleeping with a man? It was a girl! Not a blonde with very pale skin yet well-built man. Damn, just what the heck happened?

I brushed my hair up, pulling it between my fingers in frustration while looking around the place.

Wow, not did I just randomly end up sleeping with a man but also leaked where the hell I am staying. Just how drunk I was last night to shamefully commit this act?

What the heck am I doing with myself? Just right after arriving at Russia, I already made a nasty and obscene mess. The normal Paul Ian Tan wouldn’t do any of these and that’s a thing I’m sure of.

...Note 4 End...

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