the beginning

Call me Sung Flame. Flame if you will, a lady, 25 years of age with such a sexual past which started with a pedophile uncle who decided that taking advantage of my innocence was the best thing he could think of. He took his liberties with me and he made me tell no one. Well, that pedophile aside, this is my story.

  Presently, i am at my own home where i live alone. I live an interesting life where i am an HR manager in the MADE STARS COMPANY. I AM VERY RESPECTED AT WORK. I have but a few problems in life and the most constant is my inability to fall asleep at night. I literally stay up every night, tossing and turning, just hoping to fall asleep. This is where you come in, dear reader of my blog. My therapist adviced me to try writing to help calm my mind at night. i have chosen to write about my sexual history. FIRST THINGS FIRST, i definitely changed the names of everyone in this story and i will tell you everything in bits. Here goes...

 As far as I can remember, I never had a virginity to protect thanks to that horrid man. I would like to take a moment to advise mother's to watch their kids with all male adults in their lives. You never know who is secretly planning to prey on your babies. There is no sign . You can never tell who is a predictor and there is nothing to show who is good or bad throughout.

I did not do anything explicit with anyone else till I was 18years of age. That was ofcos not before the whole semi lesbian thing with my neighbors kid.

We did not exactly know what we were doing even though she was older and had a boyfriend. We practically just kissed each other on the cheeks and rubbed each others honey pots occasionally. It all stopped when they moved away to a different vicinity. Thinking about it, I think I was always curious about things, sexual ones more so. It was like i had a taste but didnt chew, leaving me with cravings and a self denied access to sexual exploration. MOSTLY BECAUSE NO ONE I WANTED NOTICED ME.

My first love was at 17, Semman

, let's call him Semm. First guy to ever get me all breathless just by looking into my eyes and doing nothing else. Semm and I met in high school. I was enticingly delicate with my rocking body, boobs so round and soft like powder puffs, thick thighs for days, fair skin, cute lips, sexy big eyes... Hehehe☺️, I don't want to brag.

In a nut shell, guys wanted me and girls wanted to be me. And him? Semm was one of a kind too. Guys wanted to be him and Girls wanted him. He was perfectly perfect for me. The hottest guy in the entire school wanted me and that made the girls hate me so dearly.😜😇 The female teachers hated me too, sadly.

How it actually started? It was all so sudden. It was on a faithful Monday morning. I sat on a stone slab in front of the school premises waiting for my friends who were late as always. I spotted him walking in my direction and our eyes locked onto eachother for a whole minute till I realized and broke away from his gaze.

I noticed that he kept walking towards me. I was uncomfortable with shyness. He looked like a god. 

I took out my phone and started pretend texting.

Semm: Hi

Nervously I got up and replied. My voice went on to embarrass me by sounding really high.

Me: HI. Umm. Sorry. I mean hi.

Semm: You are cute. You are Flame, right?

Me: Yes. You know my name.

Semm: Yes. I have been noticing you.

Me:😯

Semm: Give me your number....

Cute, right? We were friends for just a week and then he asked to be more than friends.

He made me weak and breathless just by looking into my eyes without touching me. I remember the first time he touched me, it was a hug, his warm breath on my skin, his strong arms around me... The first time his lips touched mine, I was clueless and my knees became weak. His soft lips against mine was heaven and made my heart race. I had wished I knew what to do at that moment. Later on I asked my friends.

Well, my first sexual tutorial was on kissing.

My friend sal who was older, more experienced and secretly dated even teachers in my school, was my teacher. It was only I who was in the know because we were close friends. We become friends the day I walked in on her making out with the literature teacher. She made me keep her secret and a beautiful friendship was born. Sal taught me how to kiss with her own lips.

To teach me, She came so close to my face, so close I could feel her warm minty breath on my face, and then she told me to close my eyes. I closed my eyes and I could feel my heart beat with anticipation. It was a puzzled feeling as I wondered what would happen. As I imagined scenes in my mind and I suddenly felt Sal's lips against mine, so soft and full. she first planted a soft kiss on my lips and let her lips stay on mine for like 5seconds.

My heart was racing so fast. She paused and whispered to me..

Sal: Do to my lips, what I do to yours accordingly.

She slowly sucked on my lower lip, so I sucked on her upper lip and when she went for my upper lip, I went for her lower lip. feeling her breath on my face as i sucked her soft lower lip was so arousing. I Liked it. My girlfriend was kissing me on the lips. She was actually kissing me for real, and me responding. I didn't care that she was a girl. We kissed passionately, forgetting where we were. She touched my face with her hand as we kissed, pushing away my hair. Her hand was so tender and the kiss so passionate. For the next few minutes , I was engrossed in the intimacy I was experiencing and I started to feel a little tingling sensation in my pants. I was hot, my body was, and so was my mind.

Slowly she moved her hand slowly to touched my left ****. That made me gasp. Thinking she would touch me more, She stopped and said to me...

Sal: you are ready.

I was so disappointed and thirsty. That night I had vivid sexual thoughts...

THE QUESTION WAS, WHAT WAS I GOING TO DO ABOUT IT? I will tell you exactly what i did about them but that will not be now, because i am off to bed.

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