Something We Can't Explain
AM I REALLY HAPPY
there was a time when my smile was real
but now I hate everything about my life I want to leave everything behind and runaway somewhere where there is no pain or hate and where no one judge me.
When your family believes into you, they think you are strong but you are not. YOU ARE NOT.
Do they really deserve a failure child like me,
Iit hurts more when you have to pretend you are
strong
When I do something for your family but I can't make it
My dad says it's not your fault it just I couldn't do anything for you. He starts to blame himself
But still can see the disappointment in his eyes
that day I lost myself I lost hope I lost everything
Sometimes I think will he trust me again! WELL HE
SILENT TEARS HOLD THE LOUDEST PAIN
Sometimes I want to cry my heart out but I can't.
I can't let anyone see how weak I'm I can't let anyone know I'm dead inside
I JUST CAN'T
How much more just how much more can't it just end I want to give up I can't do this anymore I really can't
hahaha childish right Sometimes I wish I could have superpowers so I can fix everything
Sometimes I think I shouldn't care about anything but it's not possible how can't I I can't be so selfish
but then I think
but am not I being selfish right now should not I just die so everyone will be happy but I'm a crowd I can't do this
I don't care about my happiness It doesn't even matter to me I just want my family to be happy
But how can they be happy when I am here I am nothing but misfortune to them.
just how much will they suffer because of me
I wish I could do something for them
but what can a useless person like me can do
I am afraid to even pray now because every time I pray it is reversed and nothing is accepted.
whenever I try to pray I get scared what if someone bad happened what will I do
why can't I make someone happy
why can't I be cause of someone's happiness
why can't I do anything for anyone
I can't even make myself happy that's how useless person I'm hahaha
Sometimes I want to share my pain with someone maybe a friend but I don't have any haha funny right
"DRY EYES AND WET PILLOWS SHARED
THE SAME STORY"
"people cry not because they are weak.
it's because they have been strong for too long"
people say
crying while explaining is different. level of pain.
but I will never be able to explain to someone I'm afraid what if I start crying they will make fun of right
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