Episode 18

Alexander's POV

The aroma of coffee and cookies filled the cozy living room of my psychologist's office as I enjoyed the comfort of her practice. I sat in front of her, my mind full of chaotic and turbulent thoughts that I longed to calm.

"Alexander, it's good to see you again, how has your week been?" Said my psychologist, breaking the silence, which brought me out of my thoughts and took me by surprise, causing me to take a few seconds to gather my thoughts to be able to answer.

"It's been challenging, you know about my new secretary, I know he's not an omega, but I can't help but relate him to my previous secretary..."

My mind drifted to the recent tensions in the office, especially after having experienced harassment by my previous secretary. Ethan's presence constantly reminded me that I could live through those uncomfortable moments even though I knew he had nothing to do with it.

"I understand, can you share more about what has been happening?" She said.

My words were tense as I recounted in greater detail what my relationship with Ethan had been like so far. As I spoke, an underlying current of discomfort seeped into my words, revealing the internal struggle I was facing.

"It seems that this situation has triggered some difficult emotions for you, have you noticed any patterns in your feelings towards Ethan?"

I sank into my thoughts, trying to find an honest answer to her question. Then memories of my childhood surfaced in my mind, bringing with them a wave of emotions that were not pleasant.

"I think Ethan is simply being subjected to the memories that my previous secretary awakened. My father used to date omegas, even when he was with my mother, but their relationship was never conventional, they never bonded, it was just a marriage of convenience."

My words were cautious, I didn't feel like talking about this story again, laden with resentment that I had accumulated over the years. My psychologist looked at me with understanding, encouraging me to move on.

"I understand that these memories can be somewhat difficult, but how do you think this experience has affected your perception of omegas?"

My thoughts churned as I reflected on this, for from an early age I had seen omegas as beings of pure lust, incapable of commitment and loyalty. The image of my father and his countless omega lovers had definitely fueled my rejection of them, and when they left, the only thing left was their scent, their unpleasant scent.

"I think I have that negative perception towards omegas because my father, who wasn't ashamed to hide his affairs, indirectly taught me that they were beings driven by their basest desires, that they would always look for an alpha to satiate themselves, and I haven't seen the example otherwise."

My body began to feel heavy and my shoulders tensed as I became sincere with my psychologist. I knew it was time to face these limiting beliefs and free myself from the conditioning that my father had perpetuated on me, and continued with me even after his death.