1. It's not enough...

The day of my recognition to which i thought would be a happy event, and I can finnaly make her proud.. it wasn't actually enough, wether i bleed, collapse, and began to have some mental and physical problems, All those sacrifices wasn't enough for top 1, she wasn't happy for me gaining second, she wouldn't care if its third but now im second a few points away.

I complained and explain my part how tired, and drained I am but mothers obsession, to perfection wouldn't spare me.

"DIANE THAT'S ENOUGH!", a soundful slap echoed in the hall.

My mother look down on me with bloodshot eyes, she's still not satisfied even with my current state..

"But i tried my best.." I yelled in whispers, the slap she gave me is not that important, but her ignorance to my health is! She laughed on my reply. 

"SERIOUSLY diane.. it all because of those girls you're friends with! They influenced you!" I couldn't take her nonsense anymore and decided to leave her sight. 

"You.. did you best? Is that a joke Diane?" She scoffed and left the room first before i could even react. 

She really did not care less about my well being.. 

I pulled out my phone and texted Elisia 

"Lets go out to drink, my treat"

"Sure ^w^♡"

she replied fast, i didn't look back and left the house. I could feel mothers piercing glare at the top of the building, she loathed me soo much but i didn't know why..

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"Diane!"  I welled up and hug her "YOU MUST LISTEN TO MY RANTS!" and tears poured uncontrollably and i hear her sigh'ed.

"You scam.." she frowned but sat down since i prepared 5 alcohol bottles on top of the table already and she cant turn her back on that. 

I ranted for a full 30 minutes and hse finished 3 bottles already "cant you slow down!? I haven't even drank yet!" She burped disgoshtingly!

"Oh its fine its just once in a lifetime! Im completely sober.." she has high tolerance so she was right about being sober halfway. 

"Once in a lifetime my ass! You schedule once a week of drinking sessions! Do you think you'll live long?!" She burped again and was happy with her drink, she raised her hand and wave in a dismissive manner.

"well‐anyway.. so you got belittle but madamme hoe?" I frowned and laid my head back (so she wasn't halfway listening!) 

"To be honest i dont even know why the sudden grudge! We were okay years ago but this sudden change.." i stood up slamming the table frustrated.

"well Diane yes they're the problem, but spare the table please! Now look at the food scattering!" She shot back, (I should've disowned this girl... )

"Listen to me btch! I'm Having a mental breakdown.. why did i even call you!" I again slammed the table.

"first of bestie im your ONLY ONE and beautiful best friend! And there's no one else but me who you can talk with ObviOUslY!" She exaggerated on the last part.

(As much as i want to punch her in the face, and pull her hair, I need to focus on top priority. Vent my frustrations!)

I sat back down, waved my hand to the waiter who came in a swosh! Preparing her notes to take our order.. second order. 

"Add 10 more bottles, wrap the 5 for ake outs and add more meat here" Elisia stood up after hearing it and cleaned all the plates to prepare for round two devouring. 

"I know how you feel bestie lets talk about it more and remove that heavy feelings.. so where we're we?" She said with sympathetic eyes, and an expression i wanna punch.. this damn leech.

I just wanted mother to be proud, she bought me everything I needed, but she stopped giving me 4 years ago when i was 15.. she started to become abusive, but i didn't let that affect me to hate her.

I did my best to make her proud, to give her my best result in all aspects, It wasn't enough for her it's always not.. it's obvious now. That she has a grudge against me, I did nothing at all! To make her abuse me like that.

At this point its no use trying to gain our past affection, its better i just graduate and leave. 

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Elisia ended up drunk in the middle of my rant, muttering stupidity. I appreciate her as a crazy friend who made my life more fun, but as a listener is not what she's good at. 

I took Elisia home and her mom took away the 5 bottles, and Elisia ended up being nagged while I make my escape.

(I'm sorry but you deal with that!)

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"Third Pov"

Before going home, diane stopped by a near store and bought herself some treats, she walked by herself since her house is just minutes away.

She dozed off trying to figure out her moms grudges, she doesn't remember anything that, she did that displeased her.

"Diane's Mom POV" 

She was inside her car parked near where she walks, she was enrage and murderous.

"All because of you! You disgraceful child!" 

She got out of her car holding a knife and followed her. 

She grabbed diane and stabbed her chest multiple times, "IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!!"

She yells repeatedly.

"I WAS HUMILIATED WITH A AVERAGE VRAIN BTCH LIKE YOU! I LOST MY PREVILIGE BECAUSE OF YOUR DAMN FATHER AND NOW SHE STOPPED GIVING SUPPORT! DAMN IT!" She vents her frustration and anger by stabbing diane multiple times repeatedly on the same spot.

"You shouldn't have been born!" Tears ran down her cheek as she looked at her daughter, whom didn't even scream or held resentment. 

"So my existence gone was actually the answer to make you happy..."

She said in, an hoarse voice she laid down and relaxed her body. She understood how it is hard it is for her, but that isn't an excuse either. 

She cant get mad at her no matter what, but she cannot forgive her. It's no use to hold resentment, as she was already tired to be bothered.

She looked at her dying daughter and the blood and knife on her hands, she was shaken and couldn't think well with what she'd done. 

She denied her feelings for her daughter, and changed it to malicious ones.

"No she cant die! How will i live from now on! I invested on her life, she should work hard to earn me the best life"

she went on muttering nonsense, and called the police asking for help forgetting what she had done. 

Diane was almost to depart, hearing her mother not changed at all–she gaved up fighting. "You stupid mother you'll get yourself behind bars!" She tried to yell but mumbles were the only thing she gave. And departed lastly...

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