A special day came in our lives,
He came there by bunking his own lecture and the time we spent together was one of the best day in my life ♥.
They just printed in my eart and mind which were completely chaos but from that I got little hope maybe he also felt same at least a little that last hope I had got shattered in just a second after saw him talking sweetly with the girl who was his crush,then I realized he could never be mine and after what I saw I was jealous.
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and in that jealousy I made a grave mistake by calling him brother infront of his friends,having the pain in heart just by thinking that he would never love me back and I shouldn't be greedy but it hurts everytime even more when I try to push him away from me . Those seens started to take over my mind and there where I realised everything . He really became someone special to me . All those was jealousy , possession and most of all I don't like him it's obsession of love I have for him, he became my salvation, my desire, my possession, my everything.
Nevertheless because of my mistake, a single word he started to avoid me whereas my eyes only found him everywhere , it was hurting like a hell when he used to avoid me. I started to cry again but why tears weren't coming out from my eyes and he I was feeling suffocated, seeing that one of my friend took me somewhere, by knowing that I was standing below the window of his class near the stage then she instantly asked him why he was avoiding me he shake his head denyingly and when his friends asked him to came down he said he was getting good vibes from there. I couldn't able to stop myself from smiling and in nervousness I was just biting my lower lip. Well, nothing is allowed to go smoothly in my life and we again started to avoid each other, one started to avoid because of a misunderstanding and another started to avoid because he cared for other one and how stupid I was, thought that he felt disgusted that's why ignoring me, he must be fed up and most frustrating was I couldn't even felt emotions again ,I was deeply hurt couldn't able to focus on anything else, I felt like a emotionless person which I never wanted to became, so, I cut my hand which was my second biggest mistake because it was unlike me, how I forgot my life isn't mine only, it belongs to others too.
After cooling myself, I decided to tell him whatever I felt for him and close that chapter, stop messing my life anymore nevertheless God wasn't willing to let me go easily, he even created situations so dramatically that anyone can become his puppet as he wished...
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