Chapter 1: Suzuki Haru

*As long as I remember I was stuck in a dark place with no lights, I feel like I'm walking in an endless Milky Way without its stars, and it seems that I'm stuck here for**ever*"

As an omega I'm always criticized and looked down upon, since that day (parents death) my life fell apart in just one blink of an eye.

Ha… Since when did I complain? I'm already living like this for years, being an omega-society will always look down at you even though we omegas are the one who can give birth to your highly and mighty Alphas.

When did I smile and laugh as if I meant it? I'm sick, I don't have money, my workplace is not as bad as I thought and that's the only lucky thing that happened in my life...

Mom... Dad... I'm lonely, I'm tired, when will you get me? Did you know that I have a Cancer? Isn't it funny haha but in this dark place... I feel like I'm falling more deeply into it.

BEEP... BEEP... BEEP...(suddenly wake up)

ahh... I fell asleep on the rooftop, I better go back to work.

"Haru! you're here"-Yoshida, Ayame she's my best friend

"The President is looking for you, she thought you came looking for me at the C group office that's why she called me, where did you go?"-Ayame

"Oh, I fell asleep at the rooftop" I answered

"Are you ok? You look pale" (he looks worse than last week)

"I'm fine, I'll go back to work see you later" as I enter the R group office

"Ah, Being the R groups manager making you stressed out by the way ,the files President wants you to take care of are at your desk, you can take a look at it, I'm going to go grab lunch"-Ayame

"I see you worked late then see you later"

"bye" Ayame said then left

I'm still Lucky I have a friend like Ayame but

my God, my head hurts, as I remember I haven't had enough rest these days-This dream, it's always like that-dark,no path,no light and no slightness of hope... Ah this expenses and income of the R group is too much, I need to copy this for filling.

(suddenly stand up) Haru walks in the next room where the photo copy machine was placed but...

Why? Why do I feel so dizzy?... Ahh my head hurts, my hands and feet are shaking, I can't take it anymore I think I-I'll pass out..

CRASHHHHH

.. I'm done,I'll surely be fired, my body won't budge, It doesn't listen to me, I can hear them calling my name, I want to respond but I can't.

"HARU!!!"

Oh it's Ayame, I'm glad she's here, but what is this great smell? a sweet mix with the scent of whiskey who is it? Who's holding me in their arms with such gentleness?. as my consciousness fades; all I can hear is a man shouting my name with its sweet smell and Ayame's voice. I can't take it anymore, I want to rest! After all the rocust I slowly lost consciousness but I can still smell the sweet whiskey scent and it makes me comfortable. After that I really don't know what happened next...

I woke up to Ayame's voice talking to someone- as I opened my eyes a cold ceiling greeted me

"Ayame?"I call in a soft and weak voice

"Haru!-thank God you're awake, you made us worry"

Ayame said with a shaking and concerned voice as I look around there's another person who I don't recognize.

"Ayame?-who is he?"

 *I ask as I look at her face, she smiles excited**ly*.

"Haru, this is Mr.Sato our C.E.O and owner of this hospital, he's the one who found you laying on the floor-thanks to him we found you-if not for him we already don't know what will happen to you" she explained

"Ah I see, wait..what!! The C.E.O?" I'm shocked as I look at Ayame, I immediately sit straight and bow my head to pay my respect.

"Mr.Sato I'm sorry for causing you trouble and thank you so much for bringing me here"

"Don't worry about it, thankfully you're fine"

He answered with a cold voice but this scent, now I know that Mr. Sato's who carried me...but let's not assume Haru.

"UHM.. Mr. Sato may I ask if your-" Knock..Knock

"Excuse me, I heard that the patient is awake"

The doctor interrupt... Gosh…. I thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest!! What am I even thinking?…

"We're Haru's friend and Guardian at the same time; so please tell us if there is any problem in Haru's condition? Ayame asks with nervousness

"I'm aware, but before I tell you the results- I want to make sure that the patient is calm and relaxed" The doctor replies, Ayame held my hand, I looked at her and Mr. Sato- I nod at Ayame as I grip onto her hands.

"Please tell doc" I reply with nervousness

"Actually your condition got worse if you won't accept the treatment as soon as possible, I may say that your grade two brain tumors will lead to grade three or worst of all grade four, I'm afraid that the tumor is spreading fast-we didn't expect this to be honest, I'm sorry to say this, but maybe you only have a year or more to live if you don't consider getting your treatment... I hope you can make up your mind Mr. Suzuki"

This type of news is not new to me but if I'm hearing it like this... Thankfully I can still control my body or else I'll be shaking right now and that will make Ayame more worried

The room is full of silence and no one dares to talk but Haru takes this news as calmly as he can and replies.

"I see, I understand Doc, thank you very much"

"Then I'll take my leave, you can inform me if you already considered taking the treatment. Please excuse me"

"As the doctor leaves, Ayame grips onto my hands-she looks at me with tearing eyes... She hugged me tightly but didn't say a word. As for Mr. Sato, he avoided eye contact as if he felt sorry for me and I hate it... I hate being pitied"

"H-Haru It's going to be okay"

Ayame said with a trembling voice, she started to cry and I patted her back - as for me, I don't know what to do cause my emotions are all mixed up.

"Ayame? Can you leave me alone for a while?" I said with a calm and down voice

Ayame looked at Mr. Sato then leaves the room

"Haru, everything is going to be okay, if you need me just call me, Jun will also be here in a minute"

Ayame said; I just nodded, as Ayame walked out of the room my tears started falling down,my body started to shake and I can't help the pain that I unconsciously released a sound, my voice is trembling, and I'm crying loudly as I grip at the hospital bedsheets.

Why?!

Why is this happening to me?

Is it not enough?

Is suffering for many years not enough to give me another hardship?

Kami-sama nande?!

What did I do wrong to deserve this?

I'm tired

I want to finish this!!

If I can just end this in a snap of a finger

If you're going to make me suffer like this it's better to take my own life than to live like this!!

But I know that I can't just do that…

Oka-san... OTO- san taskete...Onegai

Haru felt hopeless as he questioned why this all happened to him, due to crying hard Haru unconsciously fell asleep.The wind enters his room through his window as a white silhouette of a woman standing in front of him caresses him and pats his head before slowly fading with the winds blow.

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